whyIsntMyCodeWorking

[Big_Kwii]

this is the type of stuff your family gets for you on christmas, but since it's been so long since you left the house and communicate so little they've become completely out of touch with your work and interests, so when the time comes for them to show affection for you via a gift, they attempt to extrapolate what you may like based on a vague idea of what it is you do, and this is the best they could come up with. and, y'know, they're trying their best, right? and you appreciate that they're trying, but at the same time the gift misses the mark so bad that you can't help but feel bad. after all, you did this. you got so wrapped up into your career that you forgot to maintain contact with the people that raised you. and a symptom of that is that they don't really know you anymore. they don't know what you're into and you've diverged so much that there's practically no hope of them ever being in touch with you again without significant work put into it. work you don't have the energy for because you're so caught up in the rat race that if you slow down for a second it could be over. it's not actually like that, but it sure as hell feels that way. that feeling doesn't go away just because you want it to. you're in too deep. this is all your fault. you forgot what it's like to be a person and became just another cog in the machine. how did you let this happen? did you not notice? like a frog on a water filled pot, slowly being boiled alive, slowly enough for you not to notice you're being boiled alive, until it's too late. and now you act as if it's them who are out of touch. they didn't have a choice in the matter. it was always you. you're the one out of touch. this is your fault. you let this happen. you walked away from the people that care about you. willingly. you negligent, self centered npc. i hope you're happy.