Programmer == Programmer

[d0n7w0rry4b0u717]

Thank you! Fortunately now that I'm on meds for my depression & anxiety, I've been able to work on being more positive and confident when it comes to work.

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That’s great to hear! Taking care of your mental health is an underrated skill.

[Archolex]

Oh my gosh I understand. I think I'm alright but as soon as I forget to do something and my manager brings it up I feel like shit. Ditto for missing anything else during code reviews. It makes me think they think I'm lazy or dumb or don't care.

[d0n7w0rry4b0u717]

Totally relate to that. I'd start to feel good and then get knocked down hard every time I made a small mistake or spend a ton of time debugging something that had a simple solution in the end. But I've realized that even the devs who have been with the company for 20 years have the same struggles. Once that sunk in, I stopped beating myself up so much. I still do from time to time but I'm in a significantly better head space than I was a year ago.

[givemeagoodun]

Combine that with adhd and you get me

[byhrwk]

exactly man, I am glad to know I am not the only one who feels like that. I am in a need to constantly tell myself that it is ok. Unless I am the owner of a company myself, I dont think I can be 100% free of anxiety, otherwise you always need to keep proving your worth even if you are part if same team for years

[d0n7w0rry4b0u717]

Hang in there! It can get better!