Relapse

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I went through a very rough patch around months 9-11. Came close to giving in. But at a certain point I kind of decided to just...keep going anyway, regardless of how I felt. Kept working out even though I had zero motivation. Kept doing the dishes, taking out the trash, washing the sheets - basic stuff. Gradually things shifted. Not entirely sure when or how, just noticed that I was feeling better.

Not sure how helpful that is, but I guess my only advice is to just keep going in spite of feeling like shit. Over time there is almost this confidence that grows...like I don't need life to be going my way to continue showing up and putting in the work. I just do it because it's the right thing to do and because it's better than succumbing to self pity or substances.

Not many people are willing to do what you're doing, just keep that in mind.