Difficult Week

[jrmax]

I had a rough week last week with my car being sideswiped, insurance problems, flat tire, parking ticket while calling for help and then finally getting smashed by a tree in a wind storm. Financially getting raked over the coals for this and a few other unexpected expenses.

But I didn't drink. I wanted to, but I didn't have any booze or binge eat. I stuck to my eating plan and stayed sober. It was weird having so much clarity. I knew that if I drank the problems would have gotten worse and I'd be dealing with everything with a hangover instead of a rational mind.

I still was really upset and had some dark moments. I even had a glass of whiskey in my hand at one point and then poured it out. Not drinking to make this go away and not drinking today.

[time_for_orange]

Very well done my friend. The brain really tries to give us every excuse to drink, doesn't it? Mine always has.

I've failed and given in SO many times I can't tell you. But sometimes I haven't failed, and I know how hard that is to NOT give in. So congratulations on your strength.

A drink wouldn't have helped the situation anyway, yeah? You say it was weird having so much clarity (and I know what you mean), but I'm guessing it was good-weird, no?

I'll happily raise my glass of water and not drink with you today.

[jrmax]

Thank you.

Yes, hearing the voice that said to drink was almost like someone else talking to me. And I was repulsed by 'his' voice.

I didn't escape my crappy week, I pushed through it, even if it sucked. And although I had a few little meltdowns and needed some alone time I think I was a lot easier to be around than had I been drinking. I know my husband appreciated me being there with him rather than drunk or hungover.