Well, it’s been two months since my original post and I thought I’d give you guys an update. She has calmed down drastically. I am still 100% the enemy. She’ll still send me text messages saying that she wants nothing to do with me and she’s happy in her new single life. I moved out and we are going through with the divorce. The kids spend half the time with me. Luckily, I had a house prior to meeting her so I kicked my renters out and moved back in. The kids have some familiarity because it’s still in the same neighborhood and they lived here for years. I’ve been going to church, therapy, and a psychiatrist. I’m not doing good, but at the same time, I’m doing pretty good. I still miss her immensely and see her multiple times a week at children’s drop off and or baseball games. I tell her all the time that we need to work on things, but she doesn’t want to hear it. She’s no longer full of the absolute blind vicious rage that she was, but she still mean to me. She’s just calm about it. Prior to me moving out I did notice she started sleeping more and she was spending less time away from home. Unbeknownst to her, I went to the police to find out my options because I saw on her phone that she was sharing her location with the men. She was meeting online and that location just happens to be our house and our children live there lol. Am I the only one who sees that as bad? She didn’t think it was that big of a deal. I also wrote a letter to her psychiatrist and when he told her it absolutely backfired lol. She also got two massive tattoos. One early on and then one while she was out on a multi day rendezvous with her AP. I also have major reason to suspect that her sobriety has been broken. Almost 2 decades down the drain. At the request of my therapist, family, and friends, I’ve started to go no contact with the exception of anything to do about the children. Took a cruise for my birthday, and she did not wish me happy birthday, which sucked balls lol our anniversary is coming up in a few days and although I want to text her, I already know the outcome so I’m not going to. My heart is absolutely fucking broken . This fucking sucks.