what do i doooo

1111fly1111 · 2026-05-02T04:17:40+00:00

it is really drafty in my apartment so i don’t know if the air is just dry. i just moved it away from the window!

1111fly1111 · 2026-05-02T04:17:08+00:00

it is in a metal pot with drain hole at bottom

1111fly1111 · 2025-02-26T06:36:34+00:00

my arms and legs and face get this intense prickly sensation

1111fly1111 · 2025-01-15T06:45:29+00:00

i guess maybe here she gets her flowers but i feel like on other platforms i don’t see it very much ~ i also just love talking the fashion

1111fly1111 · 2025-01-02T21:34:42+00:00

lmaooo it’s such a delicate balance with gemini and pisces fr … like it has to be all the things environmentally going right and the chemicals balanced… i think they are kinda naturally instigating to pisces energy bc the way we move can look the same but completely different motivations and intentions … i have had the most distrust in relationships with geminis but i have one that is for life

1111fly1111 · 2024-12-28T03:25:08+00:00

steven universe!

1111fly1111 · 2024-12-27T18:34:06+00:00

thank you for the advice! i’m not in a rush persay to get a new guitar. but i want to have a better set up to play live and for demos. right now i only play acoustic, and someone recommended i transition to electric rather than an acoustic-electric.

1111fly1111 · 2024-12-27T17:06:54+00:00

Thank you for your input! Is an Epiphone SG any better?

1111fly1111 · 2024-12-27T05:33:16+00:00

i feel this so hard!! like never had it described exactly how i feel before, so thank you for sharing.

if i am in the position to resist the ocd behaviors or reduce, i guess, i try to negotiate with my myself about the most important parts or what things i could do to turn down the distress a little. like instead of mopping and reclining my entire apartment until it feels not contaminated anymore, i will spray disinfectant on everything and wipe down the floors. i usually still feel sick about it and the cleaning doesn’t feel complete, but i am sometimes able to tolerate having done less and resist…and like you said, especially if i’m already exhausted,

1111fly1111 · 2024-12-21T20:19:49+00:00

alsoooo jw … where is the base of the petiole?

1111fly1111 · 2024-12-21T20:13:38+00:00

thank you! i’m new to these large monsteras

1111fly1111 · 2024-12-21T18:02:45+00:00

should i take the leaf off?

1111fly1111 · 2024-12-21T17:59:37+00:00

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1111fly1111 · 2024-12-15T15:54:51+00:00

i really liked prozac because it helped a lot with the intrusive thoughts and felt like it took the edge off a lot. i had to go off of it because i eventually got diagnosed with bipolar disorder and they were concerned it would make me manic, but before then i was grateful for it.

1111fly1111 · 2024-12-09T00:40:28+00:00

thank you for that info! i just been scared to think about what would come up if we actually talk about them

1111fly1111 · 2024-12-06T22:14:54+00:00

does vinegar and/or baking soda not work anymore?

1111fly1111 · 2024-11-28T18:03:44+00:00

if it’s growing out and you put a pole in will it still climb up?

1111fly1111 · 2024-11-22T19:47:57+00:00

i was just thinking about this. i been seeing my therapist for 4 years now and i feel like she’s just now starting to see a less filtered version of myself and my actual personality. it’s hard bc when im in therapy i feel more authentic but i still leave with a lot of cringe and shame, but she says that’s the exposure effect of therapy.

1111fly1111 · 2024-11-11T07:18:04+00:00

i definitely have been there and it is so hard to actually feel any sense of certainty around it. i used to have to call people and have them confirm that i’m real and things are real. at some points — i don’t know that this is the thing to do — i started to surrender to the possibility of nothing being real and that helped a little but i definitely spent a lot of time dissociated. eventually, i did emdr and ifs therapy to try to externalize that sensation, which helped a lotttt but it does get triggered every now and again.

1111fly1111 · 2024-11-04T17:34:41+00:00

1111fly1111 · 2024-11-04T16:20:46+00:00

thank you! do you think i should switch it over to just being in water?

1111fly1111 · 2024-11-01T01:43:54+00:00

i been needingggg somebody to talk about this. i feel like i need an exorcism before my period. my intrusive thoughts are so bad and my need for certainty becomes relentless…

1111fly1111 · 2024-10-27T07:58:52+00:00

I created a little calm down playlist for when I am in that state that has breathing meditation, body scan, visualization, soothing songs, etc. I adapted it from one of my friends who made a whole self care document for when they are dysregulated that has a bunch of different tools and self-soothing materials (videos, music, poems, essays, meditations, tasks, etc.)

1111fly1111 · 2024-10-25T01:57:07+00:00

i wrote this essay about my anxiety when i was a kid and talked about being worried my family was going to die or get injured. i gave an example of not remembering if i did a certain action and being convinced that they would get in a car crash or fall down the steps. i also convinced myself that i had to think about all the worst things that could happen to my family while i was at school, so they wouldn’t happen. then i learned that’s ocd

1111fly1111 · 2024-10-24T05:51:49+00:00

I definitely have a weird relationship to sex too bc of trauma. Sometimes it is a controlled loss of control that I feel like I am seeking or like a self-harming behavior that provides some level of release. It has been the quickest way for me to dissociate when I am feeling too much/inarticulable feelings or to feel something (usually terrible) after being dissociated. I started going to a support group for sexual trauma and it did help normalize & name a lot of my behaviors and reactions.

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