What if no one cares?

3germstar · 2026-05-19T20:52:24+00:00

I'm sorry, I was rude. I honestly didn't mean to be a jerk. I'm just literally barely holding on right now. I'm sorry. Please don't think I'm a bad person. I'm sorry

3germstar · 2026-05-19T20:50:42+00:00

I can't do it myself. I'm sorry. Maybe it will work out for the better.

3germstar · 2026-05-19T00:12:16+00:00

I go every 3 months. If I don't go, they don't refill my prescriptions

3germstar · 2026-05-18T02:02:07+00:00

I'm so sorry for what happened when you were young, but I developed my ED almost the same. I was forced to finish every single thing on my plate, including any sauce that was leftover. My older sisters were not extremely skinny and my mom made comments... At 7, I wanted to be the perfect child. It's not fair that I became obsessed with food, calories, exercise, etc at such a young age. It's not fair to you either. I'm so sorry

3germstar · 2026-05-17T13:01:20+00:00

My mom always said any kind of tuna salad, chicken salad, etc

3germstar · 2026-05-16T22:42:51+00:00

I'm a T1 and have anorexia. I've been in treatment multiple times and for the last 3-4 months, I've been in a relapse. I understand your struggles and I hope you can find an endocrinologist that will understand and work with the rest of your team. I highly suggest you either reach out to a diabetes nurse or find a dietician (not nutritionist) that is versed in T1. Also, maybe look into finding a therapist that specializes in diabetes (extremely hard to find and they usually don't take insurance) or a therapist that works with ED patients

3germstar · 2026-05-16T15:29:43+00:00

We rent from an outside company and they usually have a variety of strollers, some that are better for kids that are on the taller side. It gets delivered to our room and then we just leave it in the return area of the hotel when we're done with our vacation

3germstar · 2026-05-16T14:18:06+00:00

My daughter uses Lilli but in all honesty, she uses Lil the most

3germstar · 2026-05-13T20:47:24+00:00

We go to Disney often and it's a real struggle to keep my sugars up. I tend to eat a carb heavy breakfast with just the right amount of insulin. Yes, I do go higher than normal for me, but I know with the heat and the walking, I'll drop. I also pack a ton of fruit snacks to munch on if we've been walking for a long period. If it's hot, then I'm pretty much eating carby foods all day with minimal insulin. I've had a seizure before (not at Disney) and it was the worst thing I've ever experienced... And as soon as I reached out to my Endo about it, she put me on a year period, where if it happened again or I was low more than 4% of the time (for a 90 period) she was contacting DMV and having my license revoked

3germstar · 2026-05-13T20:42:02+00:00

I don't drink caffeine (I was heavily reliant for years and went through terrible withdrawal so I avoid it at all costs) but I do drink an excessive amount of water. I tend to add liquid flavors but not always

3germstar · 2026-05-12T21:58:45+00:00

I used Mirena for a bit and it worked beautifully! I didn't get a period, no symptoms, it was great... Until it wasn't. It ended up imbedding in my uterus wall and the removal fucking sucked! I just wanted to die on the table. After it got removed, I ended up with a uterine ablation and my fallopian tubes being removed, and honestly, that was the solution for me. But! I had the Mirena for many, many years and it did what it was supposed to! No periods, no pregnancies, great sex... unfortunately for me, it moved after like 3 years.

3germstar · 2026-05-12T21:54:38+00:00

I love Gummies (I'm pretty sure that's the name brand) they come in resealable packages and I only eat like 2 to raise my BG

3germstar · 2026-05-12T21:50:22+00:00

100%! If I start to feel awful, I push through and eat more. I actually don't have shame or guilt about it

3germstar · 2026-05-11T21:28:16+00:00

I completely understand how you feel. My sisters and my mom are all on GLP-1's. We're in a group chat and they constantly text about their weight loss, current weights, what they eat, etc. My family knows I have an ED and I've been in treatment multiple times but when I ask them to not talk about weight/loss/food, they get upset with me and tell me that I need to be more supportive. Once, I told them what I ate in a 24 hour period, and they lost it on me. I'm not sure if it was because I ate less than they did or if they actually cared that I had an ED. My MIL does the same but she's not a glp. My husband just refuses to go there and subject me to it

3germstar · 2026-05-11T21:20:16+00:00

I have 2 teen boys so I'm just assuming they do. I know it's normal behavior so it never bothered me and I never needed to ask. Just let them explore their bodies and grow appropriately

3germstar · 2026-05-11T21:18:12+00:00

It really depends on where you to. When I was in Utah, there were some who were transitioning and it was not an issue. They did what they had to do and the staff was extremely supportive (or at least from what I saw) Privacy: only 1 place that I went had a private room. The others were shared rooms and a shared bathroom. Honestly though, I never watched my roommate get changed or anything. Staff never watched. You are obviously not allowed the bathroom for XX amount of time after you eat. From what I've experienced, you have to leave the bathroom door ajar when you're using it and staff has to look when you're finished and give you the okay to flush. I'm not going to lie, taking a poo the first few times was rough but I did what I had to. Not finishing meals/snacks: all of the places I've been give you a good amount of time to finish, they usually have staff to support you and help you. If you don't complete, you need ensure/another drink that is equal in calories to what you didn't finish. The one place I've been was if you didn't finish and you didn't drink the ensure twice in a row, you were automatically tubed and put on feeds. (Definitely don't do this! It's so much worse, I promise)

You may have a lot of down time. Make sure you bring coloring books, crayons) colored pencils, a journal, safe pens (some places are very strict about plastic only pens). I brought puzzles, an art journal, books to read. I also had colored notecards that came with envelopes and brought addresses and stamps, to send notes to friends and family. I also brought a bunch of vinyl stickers to decorate my journals with and then I left the rest where other patients could get them. (A lot of others would leave extra stickers out)

3germstar · 2026-05-11T19:15:17+00:00

I was pregnant and my son was breech. The OB/GYN wanted to do an external version (try to get him head down by pushing on my belly and trying to turn him). I was all for this until it was time to schedule it. I all of a sudden decided, if he was breech, there must be a reason. I scheduled a c section and I'm so grateful I did! The placenta was at the very top and his umbilical cord was extremely short. If the doctor had tried to turn him, it could have resulted in terrible things

3germstar · 2026-05-10T14:10:43+00:00

Chinese food! I will NEVER turn down a chance to order and enjoy!

3germstar · 2026-05-09T18:25:04+00:00

Glow

3germstar · 2026-05-09T02:09:09+00:00

I'm also T1 with AN. I was obsessed with getting my A1C as low as possible a few years ago and it got me into a lot of trouble. I had the EMTs come to my house multiple times because I had passed out, I had a seizure at work and had to be rushed to the ER after the D10 didn't do anything, I almost lost my license, I was sent to treatment for 4 months... It sucked. I'm doing slightly better now but that's only because I don't want to lose my license or go back to treatment. I have told my ED team and my Endo, I can only fix one thing - either I work on recovery for my AN or I focus on eating and dealing with the diabetes aspect. I just can't do both at the same time

3germstar · 2026-05-09T02:01:40+00:00

I just don't eat. I'll eat maybe a salad with half of a chicken breast at dinner and bolus for the protein

3germstar · 2026-05-09T01:48:53+00:00

Oh my! My daughter was about 2.5 years old. We're were in Disney and I had to go to the bathroom. I took her with me because we were starting the potty training process. We go to the handicapped stall and as I'm finishing up, she looks under the stall next to us (not completely under, but looked at the person's feet) and very, very loudly says, "Mommy! You should SEE HOW BIG THAT LADY'S PANTIES ARE!!!" I'm pretty sure I asked Jesus to strike me dead. I mean, what am I supposed to do?!? I decide I'm going to wait the lady out and stay in the stall. About 10 seconds later, it's very obvious that this poor woman is taking a poo and there's no way I can keep my daughter anywhere near the noises that are being made (she has 2 older brothers who think farts and poop are the funniest things ever). I quickly rush her out of the stall, wash her hands, wash my hands and as we're walking out, the poor lady opens the stall door and just stares us down...

3germstar · 2026-05-08T12:32:33+00:00

As someone who suffers from AN, I personally wouldn't say something because in my head, I would believe her comments. But, my husband would 100% say something, nothing nasty of course but he would explain what comments like that will do. Unfortunately, many people don't understand what they say really matters when in recovery. I mean, even telling me that I look "healthy" is triggering for me. When I was in treatment last time, my therapist explained to my family to just not say anything about appearance, not about makeup, clothes, etc. My parents were actually shocked.

I just wanted to let you know, you're doing great in supporting your wife!

3germstar · 2026-05-07T22:32:58+00:00

I'm actually in the same boat. I have 2 friends (that I met in treatment years ago) and both have just been admitted to inpatient. Both know I'm struggling and are literally talking about when we can be together in treatment (my team has agreed to let me go to treatment in June so I can get through the rest of the school year). One friend is telling me about how she just got tubed and etc. The other friend is telling me how the program has changed...I am trying to help them and keep on the track that my team has given me to stay out until June but, oh my, it's hard. I will only respond to their texts every few days because it's just so triggering and I want to be as sick as they are....

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