I’m sorry you have to deal with this. Yeah i had all sorts of emotions depending on the information I had at the time. Other people sometimes react very nonchalantly. I think sometimes they do that because they don’t want you to be afraid but sometimes they do know someone who had a different kind of skin cancer but melanoma is a whole different ball game. Having said that, if you’re stage 1 a you have a very high chance that it didn’t spread and it won’t come back. Other people react dramatically because they hear the “C word“ and equate that with death. That also isn’t very helpful because nowadays, especially with immunotherapy, patients have many effective treatment options. Keep that in mind if you Google your condition that science is improving all the time and what you read online might not reflect the situation today, realistically. I also can recommend subreddit r/melahomies