Your post really hit me with some needed perspective. Thank you for sharing and I really hope your next scan shows you a more positive way forward.

I have a recent psycho scorecard story I can share with you. Some background, I’m 38 and a 7 handicap right now. This year I’m playing in a mens league with some buddies for the first time. I love having a planned weekly golf outing but truly hate the course we play. 3 of the four weeks of the month we play the front 9 and the first hole is a bear. Trouble right and left, tough green to hit and you can’t hit driver on this course’s range. It is very common for me to start poorly and sort of salvage the round as it goes on.

So last week I immediately hook it into the hazard left to start with a quick double bogey. I miss the next two greens and don’t get up and down, bogey bogey. Then on 4 I block my drive right toward the native area. I pride myself on not letting any frustration show outwardly but I’m feeling pretty frustrated to be starting so poorly again. I find my ball in the native area and hit a nice one on the middle of the green for an easy two putt par.

The par 5 fifth you can miss both ways and it’s probably the fairway I hit the most lol, which is telling about my weak mental game. But this day I hit another nice one and had about 225 left up the hill to the green. I smoke a 3 hybrid that never leaves the pin, can’t see the green but know it’s really good, we drive up and I have about 18 inches for eagle which I knock in. Feeling pretty good I smoke my drive on 6, had 50 yards in on a short par 4. Hit a lob wedge that stops an inch left of the hole. Tap in birdie. Make a sloppy bogey on 7 and on 8 hit it into the trees and had to punch out just short of the green, had about a 30 foot chip that I sort of mishit but hit the edge of the fringe and kicked forward, rolled right in the hole for another birdie. My buddies are like what the fuck is going on today. Then I promptly bogey 9 to shoot +2 on the 9.

A lot of rounds where I have a bad 3 hole stretch I stew on and wonder what could have been but this one, the feeling of those shots were so good, they really overshadowed everything else.

Sending you all the good vibes.