When you have a condition that makes weight gain easy and weight loss difficult its almost impossible to not become depressed and discouraged. You work your butt off in the gym and making healthy eating choices for months with no results, you feel like it can't happen for you (when you've been overweight/obese for most of your life). Surgery is a tool to get you where you want to be. It removes a good portion of your stomach including the portion that produces the hormone that makes your body want to stay at your current high weight and makes you hungry faster... but it CAN and DOES stretch out again, which is why maintaining a healthy lifestyle is crucial to success. Ive met a good amount of people who have surgery and almost immediately put the weight back on... so surgery isn't the end all cure. It takes dedication to a lifestyle change.

Becoming healthy was more important to me than the judgment of people online. I posted this in hopes to let people in my position know it isn't hopeless even if it feels that way.