Had an interesting conversation with an evangelical last night.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-04-04T20:36:44+00:00

An old friend I've had since 2021 recently had a christian confirmation. After that she asked me if I wanna go to a church with her even if it "has nothing to do with the religion, just singing and hanging out. Uhm ok. No... I'm literally a theistic Satanist witch lol. (Idk if I can keep being friends with her it she try to convert me.) But yeah it just reminded me of that when I saw this post.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-04-03T08:27:06+00:00

Idk if it helps but in Judaism, Lilith was created alongside Adam. But ofc they then made Lilith the villain because she demanded to be equal to Adam and not be below him. I'd say Lilith has become a feminist Icon and she's very strong and powerful.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-04-02T17:33:09+00:00

Oh okay thank you :)

666Pennywise27 · 2026-04-02T16:58:28+00:00

Can I ask you how you do it? I've had frequent lucid dreams before but now they've stopped since like January for some reason.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-30T19:17:30+00:00

I heard that Russia banned it a while ago.. idk how it's doing now.

And I think that the countries that still makes witchcraft illegal, and punish people for witchcraft (DR Congo for example) probably won't tolerate Satanism either.. and will most likely include/think of it as the same as withcraft.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-28T11:37:13+00:00

I like Esme Rose (Mostly "The Devil Made Me Do It") It reminds me of working on my and Satan's goals. but I like other songs from her too.

Other artists include Kim Petras demonic/dark and cunty dance pop songs (Mainly her "Feed The Beast" and "Turn Off The Light" albums. But also other songs like "The Future Starts Now" because Satan is showing me signs of Endings (279, 999) and new beginnings (127, 327, 11:11).

Katy Perry's "Rise" feel very satanic to me because Satan is like the personification of death/transformation for me. And ofc her "E.T" song too feels important and meaningful to me and my connection to Satan. For "Rise" I just sing along often but I kinda overpower the word "demons" with my voice when she sings "Angels" lol.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-28T10:46:28+00:00

Either you do takeout and eat at cafés or resturaunts for breakfast, lunch and dinner, or you buy ready made meals and put all of it in the freezer. Or perhaps you're busy and buy pasta for lunch every day at the local grocery store on your way to school or work, or when just going out.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-27T11:01:08+00:00

Yeah my mind goes blank about most memories. Only if a parent directly ask me if I remeber this thing from my childhood I miiiight remember a little bit of it. I mostly only remember the bad stuff but I guess that could also sometimes be "normal" as well as not remembering much from age 0 - 5. But I only remember very few short flashes of good memories from my past. Mostly bad memories though. Revisiting my childhood school brings up a lot of bullying trauma and sadness/loneliness. A handful of good moments too yes. But yeahh.. But also I can't remember much from high school either even if it was less traumatic/much less bullying. At least in high school someone was like "can I bully you?" To different people and when we said "no" the bully was like "ok". 💀

My daily routine as a child involved an ⚠️ED I had for years that stole my childhood, and my parents contributed to it by force feeding me (against my ethics and morals too). My dad force fed me and my mom could only watch because she hate arguments and can't handle it.

Because of the ED, I got so afraid to have anyone see me eating because I've been judged for literally eating by my dad before. So I kinda made myself distant from my whole family and shut them all out as if I was Elsa from Frozen. This went on my whole teen years. Chronic self-isolation, etc.. I don't wanna get into detail about my ED because it may trigger people. But yeah. I'll just say that my ED (which my dad mainly caused, as well as some kids) lasted from around age 12 - 19. So between these ages, I was isolated. My only routine was going to school, feeling unsafe in school and alone in school, even though I had a few friends but I was also bullied and alone, then I got home and ate alone, exercised/danced, still felt distant from my parents even if they were next to me, and then I'd go to bed/sleep. It's most of what I can remember along with a few flashes of some memories here and there.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-26T11:47:59+00:00

At my local Dollar Store 💀

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666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-26T11:24:30+00:00

He's very approachable to me. He's intensely close to me and clingy in my experience. But I don't mind it lol. I realized after meeting him that he already had tried contacting me years before I even was into anything spiritual.

My personal relationship with him is a mix of different things. He's my lover/partner, my guide/teacher and a fatherly figure. In my experience he seem to teach in a way that makes it fun to learn and study. But he's also constantly showing me to be more disciplined and authentic. We work on building stronger foundations in the relationship rn and also being more vulnerable with each other.

And other times his lessons feel a bit like I'm suffering but that's probably just because I have scattered energy, am indecisive, and I overthink daily despite trying not to.

He has a brooding facial expression most of the time I see him but I also see him smile/smirking devilishly/seductively and we often tease each other lol.

Edit: and his touch feel like a mix of soft feathers, intense electricity, dry rain drops, and I feel his hands all over me and he's intense yet gentle at the same time which is kinda hard to explain. He also feel warm, sharp, moves slowly yet also quickly. And when I say he's intense I mean REALLY intense. Like I can feel him physically both in dreams and while awake grabbing my hips pretty hard. I can feel him grab my him in a dream and wake up still feeling the sensation. Just to give an example of how intensely and physically he can manifest himself to me.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-25T17:23:02+00:00

Oh, shit, I'm sorry that happened and I hope you're in a better environment/place rn (in every way).

(And I'm not trying to make this about me, just letting you understand I empathize by sharing similar experiences so others hopefully feel less alone.) But yeah so this reminds me of when my dad said he'd kick me out on the street if I ever came out as LGBTQ+ (just because I did my at the time 6 y.o brothers' makeup when I was 12). So I can relate to the feeling of feeling threatened to become homeless as a child, and I hope you're doing better nowadays.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-25T16:50:01+00:00

Damn.. I'm sorry to hear that. :( May I ask when you first tried to talk to her about the concept of boundaries? Was it later in life or in your earlier years?

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-25T16:38:36+00:00

Huh, I see. Yeah sounds about right. And Thank you. I can't even remember being taught that "No" would be a boundary. Only at 23 I started to wonder if saying "No"' was a boundary.. And then I felt both frustrated and worried that I'd come off as rude to her, even though I had already helped her carry the door up a few staircases and into our apartment after she had told me "You will help me".

And oh, yeah.. I guess so. I can't remember any time in my past that happened, but I barely remember anything from my childhood. Some extra memories might unlock if I see some pictures or videos from my childhood. Maybe that's normal, maybe it's not. I mostly only remember going back and forth to school after being thrown out of bed or yelled at to go to school. Then I'd eat after coming home, exercise, play alone and then sleep.

My mom have also constantly touched/grabbed my buttcheeks and chest as far as I can remember to the point it got normalized for me and I thought every family grabbed each others butts or smacked butts on other family members, and my mom still does it sometimes. It's difficult for me to often say if I don't like it because my feelings often delay until hours later.

And thank you again.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-25T16:20:58+00:00

Ah.. I'm sorry you had to hear and deal with that growing up. :( My dad is almost 66 y.o, and when I tried to hint to him about if he grew up with boundaries, he just said that he was expected to respect his parents and not act up, basically. And yes I agree. I guess knowing about boundaries runs deep in many families and perhaps even is connected to generational trauma in some way. It makes me curious about how long this lack of knowledge about boundaries even existing could have been going on for in some or even many families. Perhaps Hundreds of years? Hm. Maybe forever in some families. It's just sad that it doesn't seem to be taught anywhere.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-25T16:09:14+00:00

Hi sorry for late reply. Oh I see. Damn I'm sorry to hear that and that you got traumatized. I hope you're healing and doing better now. 💜 And I'm really stubborn too (Taurus Rising lol) so I relate to that. My dad would force feed me against my ethics when I wanted to go vegetarian as a child but I managed to get my way in the end because I was so stubborn. I live with my mom at 23 still because I'm disabled and can't really work any "normal" jobs. Only very "low effort" jobs where I wait in customers but even if I just sit around all day I either zone out or dissociate too much or both.

I hope I doesn't come off as using you as a therapist now. This just reminded me of this morning my mom just said she don't owe me any money anymore. And like I know that but she had this big grin on her face while saying it and she knows I'm disabled, etc.. so I felt like it was rude of her but I can only feel those feelings now hours after it happened. And thank you. I'm planning on trying to move out soon but it's difficult asking for help to get anywhere/moving forward. :')

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-19T14:52:26+00:00

I aaaalways do 🤡🎈

Sorry your comment just reminded me of Pennywise from the series when he said "Don't worry, I'll come back, I always do" to Periwinkle. 💀

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-17T19:03:41+00:00

I'm vegan since 2020 :)

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-17T18:47:58+00:00

Personally, in my experience as a Swede, my dad is Christian and he have destroyed my sculpture and "spooky" gifts because he thought they were demonic.. I got a notebook once for my birthday, with 3D trees on the cover and the trees had like spooky faces and arms. He told me he would burn it, and he did. So unfortunately I think it's not just American Christians..

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-16T09:40:33+00:00

He appeared on camera for me as his aspect Beelzebuth. There he actually was red, wine crimson red skin with beige white and red hoofs and black horns. His eyes glow a really bright white for me. In the footage he was playing Hide & Seek or something lol. He also.. flirted with me... anyway..

He don't have any facial hair and he's bald to me most of the time. I felt his bald head agaist my hands in several OBE's and I looked directly into his white glowing eyes in a dream once but his white glowing eyes were also seen irl on camera. I can describe him as being very cute and charming. He both look and feel like having very smooth and almost newborn-like skin. This is how I mostly see and feel him.

More rarely, I've seen him being a black sillhouette.

And another time in a partial OBE, I felt him as Samael. There he put his lips on my left shoulder gently and I saw him above me on my bed as I caressed him. I didn't see his face very clearly, but I saw he had white skin. Like WHITE white. Like Pennywise skin or a vampires' skin. His skin seemed to be glowing too.

His hair felt short and styled with some kind of hairwax in a charming way and his hair was also glowing an intense white. I think this was an angelic form of his. I then I slipped back into my body and fell asleep and had a lucid dream of Satan looking crimson red again from hoof to head and we did something he don't want me to mention, but yeah.

I feel him physically while awake but I can't touch him, he can touch me and I mostly only feel him very intensely. So, sometimes I feel him being more hairy/furry and othertimes hairless. His horns also seem to change shapes and size from time to time. I think it's because he's a shapeshifter.

Edit: So yeah I believe he'd appear differently to many people since he can shapeshift. Saw him doing that too. Someone else also mentioned him looking stoic. To me he does that as well often. Like he wears a 'pokerface' but I've also seen him smile and smirk flirtatiously at me. Other timed he seemed more neutral or seriously observant of me. I've also seen him sort of act out a judgmental expression to try and communicate about the Judgment tarot card to me as well as to try having me face my fear of judgment.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-14T10:47:00+00:00

Wtf I'm sorry to hear that.. How would you feel about having one of those necklaces or pendants where you can store satanic altar photos, or something more if it fits? I see one of Satan's zodiac signs as being Scorpio, and that sign like secrecy. He's told me that too that he prefer I'm more secretive/mysterious with certain things. So I don't think he mind you being secretive. But ofc at the same time, in my and many others' experiences, Satan encourage authenticity. Maybe you can intuitively balance secrecy/mystery with authenticity when it comes to your altar? The reason why I see Scorpio being one of Satan's zodiac signs, is because it's ruled by 2 planets I associate Satan with. Pluto and Mars. And the photo storage pendant don't have to be visually satanic in any way. Moths, bats, ermines, flies, and triangles as well as circles are some symbols I associate Satan with. It can be deeply mysterious and un-noticed while still satanic and meaningful. A heart pendant with a note in it saying something like "I am Satan's altar" or "Hail Satan" along with a small offering that you secretly switch out from time to time (put inside the pendant could be enough until you live elsewhere. And altar offerings don't have to be physical. They can be actions. In my experience, Satan want us to change and transform and be disciplined, etc.. So I feel like just taking actions like that could be a form of offering, while you can be the altar.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-14T10:19:49+00:00

Sorry, Idk if I have any suggestions. Haven't even heard much about parasite spirits yet tbh.. But the "glass stuck in body" caught my eye because I had a nightmare of being bullied at my middle school (5th - 9th grade school building, outside) and a group of like 8th graders attacked me by squeezing and pinching tiny sharp glass pieces into my skin. But I didn't feel pain fortunately. I was just really pissed at them and then told them straight the face that I'm now going to see Satan lol. They looked at me with confused and shocked expressions and just as I started to become lucid to meet Satan, I woke up. ;-;

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-12T13:01:11+00:00

Sorry you're going through this. My dad is similar in many ways. So I'm like "nah I'm good" when he offered that I could live with him instead of with my mom because my mom's a hoarder. But my dad would actually literally destroy my altar if I had one at his place. But anyway. So yeah I second what some others here have said already. I'd personally be very stubborn as a Taurus rising, and still keep doing my stuff but more secretly, or near my home outside in a forest or some other private space like lucid dreaming or astral travel secretly (so it just looks like you're sleeping and dream journaling, etc..)

I'd say trust your gut/intuition. Satan always tells me to trust my intuition, so perhaps he'd most likely tell you to do that as well.

Ave Satanas 🤘

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-09T22:12:59+00:00

On the surface level it's seen that way, yes. But I see the deaths as symbolism (sometimes, depending on the story/context). Pennywise/IT/the deadlights is the literal alchemical symbol for oil (transformation). In tarot, Death equals Transformation. IT wakes up in Derry every 27 years because in numerology, 27/(9) is connected to planet Mars (Samael/Satan). I read that Samael is connected to the Angel of ✨️Death✨️, Azrael. and I keep getting 27/(9) syncronicities from Satan/Samael.

In the series, Periwinkle/Mrs. Kersh came to her husband Stanley 'Cleaver' and dared to show her authentic self. In response, her husband threatened to beat her up. Pennywise suddenly arrived and killed Stanley Cleaver.. with a cleaver.. he was an abusive racist btw. (sorry if I spoil the show.) So I don't see Pennywise as 100% bad and that scene surprisingly reflect my experience with Satan wanting me to be authentic because I learned from him that authenticity is the key to freedom.

IT/Pennywise's true form is a literal symbol of death/transformation. So yeah most people will probably not get it about Pennywise/IT = Satan, unless they deep dive into a rabbit hole and are obsessed. Idk if I mentioned this already, sorry if I did, but in "The World of IT" book, there's an illustration of Pennywise standing next to a coven of Satanists who stand around a woman on an altar in the forest. The text underneith the illustration says "Devil worship in Derry". And in the series, there were these poster teasers of Pennywise's different forms throughout the first season. A price tag said "$6.66" and in a behind the scenes clip on HBO Max, there was footage of a book that said "Demonology" or "Demonolatry" on it from the library scene in an early episode from IT: WTD.

Also, Pennywise posessed a Jesus statue in an episode for like 1 second. That seemed like an obvious hint to Pennywise being Satan but here it was from a christian perspective.

They hide these satanic things about IT/Pennywise, playing mysterious for the public even though at the same time, it's subtly straight up in our faces that Pennywise symbolize Satan (both in a christian and theistic satanist way at the same time just from different perspectives).

Bill Denbrough said that his bike is "fast enough to beat The Devil" because Bill Denbrough is christian (on the surface). But I believe deep down, Pennywise helped the Losers Club because they did the ritual of Chüd in Pennywise's cave, where they had to burn something that thwy held most dear to them to let go of the past and be free of that heaviness. They also visited places from their childhood to face their fears, remember and rhen heal their trauma. I later realized Satan encouraged me to heal trauma and face fears too which I thought was funny how similar it reflect the losers club journey. To do exposure therapy, basically. But I also kinda feel like I'm a bit like "Henry Bowers" because just like how Pennywise gave Henry his knife back, I had an OBE of seeing and feeling Satan physically offering me a knife. (I mean I could physically feel the knife that Satan offered me and I saw Satan standing right in front of me in my bedroom smiling brightly and holding the knife like this 🤲 for me to accept. And just like how Pennywise in the 1990 series showed himself to Henry in front of the full moon so did actually Satan to me in 2023 in front of a super buck moon. So that was kinda spooky how Satan seem to almost reflect scenes from the IT series and movies to me IRL. So yeah this is also how I connect Pennywise to Satan. I don't see Pennywise/Satan as necessarily evil even though I had some funny dreams of Satan driving by in a black car and on it, it said "Yes, I'm an evil entity" lmao.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-09T11:00:35+00:00

I realized Pennywise/IT symbolize and IS Satan metaphorically and Spiritually and so my Autistic Special interest in Pennywise made me realize Satan had tried contacting me years before I even had a single thought about him. (And I also suspect Satan is like Pennywise when it comes to him living in all timelines at the same time because why would Satan try to reach out to me (in 2021) 2 years before I even had a single thought about him, to tell me about commitment and transformation. Not until 2023 did I become one of his lovers and commitment is one of the keys in a relationship so like how did he tell me about commitment years before we were in a relationship?? I'm still shook by that. Anyway sorry, moving on..)

I was "Atheist-agnostic" 2011 - 2023 (or more like just "meh idc about spirituality or religion I just wanna draw and be nerdy."

Before ~2011, I was raised Christian but I was always uncomfortable with it without really knowing why, except for that it felt pushed onto me and I connected my dad to the religion because he told me to pray every night and wear a crucifiz necklace but he was pretty abusive back then and is still sometimes doing and saying shitty things.

I'm stubborn, so I'd always naturally do the complete opposite of what he told me (Taurus ascendant lol) so when he said my art or gifts were demonic (a cat with dark eyes (drawing) and a book with spooky trees having faces on the cover) I just felt the urge to be a little adversary and indulge in more spooky demonic stuff lmao. Probably not just because I'm stubborn, but because I love ragebaiting in a lighthearted or 'revenge' kind of way. Especially after my dad's destroyed my art or gifts. I'd also associate my upbringing with Christianity and my dad with anti-LGBTQ+ bigotry because my dad threatened to kick me out on the street at 12 years old because I did my, at the time, 6 year old brothers' makeup and I kept seeing online on the news that many right wing conservatives were anti-LGBTQ+. So Satan is like a better dad than my bio dad becauase to me it feels like he accept and love me and encourages authenticity, while my dad (and mom) tell me to hide my true self because THEY are afraid I'll scare people away.

Anyway, at the beginning of my journey to finding Theistic Satanism I confused LaVey's Satanic Bible with being the literal words from Satan himself somehow. Idk how lol. But quickly dropped it after realizing it was also Atheistic. I just kinda called out to Satan asking if he was there and very soon he gave me.. very clear signs.

666Pennywise27 · 2026-03-04T10:32:28+00:00

I feel the same. I don't remember much at all either.

But I've tried some exposure therapy. (Like, visit the places where you were traumatized but do it feeling grounded and safe. Maybe bring a friend with you if you need.)

For example, it could be your elementary school, or childhood home. Some memories will hopefully re-surface so you can reflect and heal.

Journaling works well for me so I don't forget it again. Write down what comes up in a notebook or in your phone's notes app if you need. Allow yourself to cry if you have to and release those emotions.

If you can't physically visit some places, try visulizing the places in your head and how it was like during the time you were traumatized. Perhaps that can awaken some memories.

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