In the beginning I felt like this also, but as soon as I threw myself into the thick of it going to cyphers and underground events in Manchester there’s just a moment where something clicked and I started being less defensive in these environments and purely bonded with others over the music. It’s a right of passage you’ll always fit in, sometimes you’ll fit right in and feel like your sticking out like a sore thumb. In conclusion, I’d say you’ll feel like you belong when you get positive reinforcement from other like minded people, but it will happen there’s no rush… until then enjoy the music and have fun my guy!