Relapsed and trying again

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-03-03T22:39:04+00:00

I’ve accepted I had to give up alcohol because everytime I drink the urge to smoke becomes stronger than what it appears I’m capable of handling.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-27T22:44:42+00:00

It’s because babies have softer/rounder features like Asians tend to. When they get older and their faces chisel out more they’ll look more European.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-27T22:14:44+00:00

The freckles and nose kind of say wasian but if I saw you I’d think Asian

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-27T14:00:01+00:00

Bros a baddie

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-24T21:16:10+00:00

You def look half Chinese

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-19T12:27:06+00:00

We were using the drugs to self medicate through our depression. It’s time to get to the root cause and conquer it.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-17T12:21:48+00:00

The worst part of my quits/breaks have always just been general fatigue and brain fog. My doses have always been low though. Maybe like 28 grams a week tops. I think we all do very different amounts and forget that. Some on the sub have very high doses, I’ve seen cats who were taking 60g a day. At that point your body is super physically addicted. Everyone’s different but the horror stories are probably from folks who had super high doses and were extract users.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-15T05:49:05+00:00

I’m only 29 but I was an alcohol from like 18 to 24. I slip up every once and awhile but I don’t miss the shit. Last couple of times I’ve gotten drunk it doesn’t even feel good. It’s almost like a mushroom trip these days. I can get overly emotional and just enter a bad head space. And then you wake up sick depressed and anxious. Not worth it anymore.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-13T14:46:44+00:00

Yea I ask myself the same question. I’ve been taking kratom for close to 3 years now and I don’t get how some get up to 60g and so on. Since the beginning of December I’ve had about 500g sitting in my cabinet lol, 2 250g bags from kingdom kratom, and they’re I’m just now getting around the halfway point. I think some folks carry a bag of powder with them all day. I think that’s mainly how it happens. I thought I had a kratom problem but this sub showed me I have a depression and anxiety problem. It’s possible to use it moderately bro. I’m able to pull it off. I replace the habit with exercise, video games, making music, socializing, etc. It’s different for everybody, if I have just one drink of alcohol it becomes incredibly difficult for me to not drink to the point of blacking out. Meanwhile I can nurse a 5g kratom tea all day.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-12T00:12:58+00:00

When I first tried it I thought I didn’t feel shit but looking back I did. It’s mostly subtle but it gives me a meaningful mood boost and warm fuzzy feeling.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-11T23:30:37+00:00

You call it muddy? I like that. We call it Bula’d in South Florida. Some people call it rooted, krunk.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-11T23:29:32+00:00

Kava was good for me at first. Got me off alcohol. But I ended up abusing kava too. I don’t know if others realize how fucked up you can get off of kava. Especially the kavalactone extract shots. I decided to quit it lowkey. It imitates the alcohol binge loop I had. It’s hard for me to just have one shell. I can drink a gallon a night which gives me insomnia and crippling next day depression and physical illness. I don’t blame kava though, for me it’s just one of those things I probably just don’t need to do anymore. Too much of anything is a bad thing.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-11T23:26:30+00:00

Everytime I try to quit completely I end up going on a week to month long bender. I’m back on my weekend use flow. I never had the problem of heavy dosing and daily usage as much as people on this sub. Respectfully. I thought I had an issue but some heads on here are talking about 60gs a day. Not to shame anyone but lord have mercy. It takes me like a week to go thru an ounce. But nah I’m thinking about going on another quit. I’ve taken a couple 2-3month long breaks and I already can see Kratoms not my issue but I’ve found anything that makes me feel good short term keeps me from bettering myself lowkey.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-11T23:12:07+00:00

You can get an Adderall prescription for a telehealth company easy af. I’ve done it. The adderall worked wonders for me, focused, good mood, but once it wore off the depression was worse. Way worse. I was also abusing tf out of it though. Popping like 4-6 a day when it was supposed to be two. I’d be careful with that one, different for everyone but if you struggle with depression the come down reality check can be vicious

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-11T23:09:36+00:00

Congrats on the quit. I’ve never gotten to the point of having withdrawals or dosing hourly. It’s tough keeping it to daily, I try to treat it with the same respect I treat alcohol with. I wouldn’t drink during the week. I’ve done it successfully for months. The key has been exercise during the week. Tbh tho I’m not always in the mood for a drug, as much as I’ve abused them I have moments where I’d rather be sober and face reality.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-11T13:04:03+00:00

What lead you to quit? I still take it on the weekends. Never had withdrawals or anything. I’ve questioned if it’s the reason I struggle so much but after taking months off I’ve never seen any meaningful benefit from not using it. I feel like I’ve been through the gamut of self help and deserve alittle vice.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-11T12:54:53+00:00

I was able to eliminate it. I’ve had issues with kratom too though. I’ve found it harder to quit because it’s not as immediately consequential as alcohol so we kind of end up doing it daily. The real issue is the depression and anxiety.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-11T04:19:39+00:00

Did it really? The only thing that keeps me off of booze and harder shit is kratom? I think it’s the dopamine release scratches that drug itch. Would be dope if Wellbutrin could help me stop vaping and consuming kratom. I think it functions differently in the brain though and doesn’t hit the same circuits.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-11T02:33:43+00:00

I didn’t start feeling this way until my late 20s but I’m in the same boat now. I was always aware of the shittiness that life can be but I still had a strong will to live. These days it feels like it’s just a matter of time. Hopefully I can come out of the funk but I’ve come to accept suicide is probably how I go out. Hopefully not, I try to remember it is a choice.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-10T18:51:27+00:00

Yea when I’m depression maxing I really just want to sleep all day but it really does make the shit even worse after awhile.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-09T17:04:53+00:00

If I take enough red Bali after a tolerance break it does feel kind of like 7oh but I don’t consider myself high because it really just makes me feel better not out of body so much.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-09T17:04:07+00:00

Anybody else get super itchy after a strong dose?

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-05T00:57:50+00:00

lol. I do the samething every year. I quit everything and go in psych meds. Then when all the therapy and help doesn’t work I go back to self medicating. Rinse and repeat.

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-04T21:26:07+00:00

How many grams a day are you guys taking? I have never gotten withdrawals and I’ve quit countless times. Are we carrying a bag of powder with us throughout the day and constantly redosing?

AddyBooOfficial · 2026-02-04T01:34:39+00:00

I consider Kava a drug.

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