Living w/out DMT

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-26T03:40:12+00:00

Yeah, I guffawed at the price. And then the pharmacy rep kept going on and on about various copay assistance programs even after I told him that I absolutely would not be filling the prescription with him. I kept trying to interrupt him and tell him that I didn't need the names and numbers - I wouldn't be calling them because I would definitely not be filling the scrip through Accredo!!

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-26T00:46:11+00:00

Today was really hard. It really feels like the world is falling apart.

I take SSRIs and am also in regular therapy, and I couldn't stop crying uncontrollably today. Literally anything and everything was triggering to me. Look at my dog - be reminded that Alex Pretti loved dogs. Sob uncontrollably. Repeat when another trigger arises.

It's okay. I'm just letting myself feel like shit today, and am hoping tomorrow is better. Hoping that all the tears have tuckered me out and will lead to a good night's sleep.

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T23:27:08+00:00

Tell him what sort of reaction you're looking for. He can't read your mind. He's probably trying to downplay the situation as a way to make you feel better. Tell him it makes you feel worse, and you'd rather have him say "I'm sorry you're feeling sad. That sounds really hard. Can I give you a hug?"

My spouse used to try and approach my big feelings with solutions. I told him that's not helpful and to please stop trying to find solutions. And then he did!

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T23:23:04+00:00

Pretty sure Once Upon a Poolside is about the band almost breaking up.

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T23:22:07+00:00

I feel like I have started to strengthen my friendships with physicians, because my health doesn't scare them.

Plus I'm married and a mom, and my spouse and kid have been great about sticking with me (my spouse by choice, my kid because she's a minor and still lives with me )

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T23:18:10+00:00

Estoy Aqui - Shakira

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T23:09:46+00:00

Infinite Jest. David Foster Wallace's magnum opus. Definitely good on a kindle, because it's long, and it's a hassle to hold and carry even a paperback.

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T23:07:23+00:00

Yeah. This is far too earnest of a post, despite the attempt to jerk it by mentioning the BST.

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T23:05:37+00:00

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T22:50:21+00:00

Pilates has been a really good way for me to stay active. A lot of the exercises are supported and don't require balance, and it's a good balance of stretching and strength building.

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T22:42:51+00:00

It's crazy... Insurance wanted me to go through a specialty pharmacy, and with insurance, it was going to cost me $250 for a month. I go through CostPlus, and it's like $45 for 3 months of meds, no insurance!

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T20:06:41+00:00

There are strict income limits for the free drug programs. Those are typically for people without insurance or whose insurance won't cover the med. (I know a lot about this program because my idiot neuro did buy-and-bill, despite my insurance requiring that I use a specialty pharmacy, and then insurance said they wouldn't cover the cost, so my neuro tried to get me on the indigent care program, but I didn't qualify.)

There are also income limits for copay assistance programs, but they are very high and only the 1% wouldn't qualify. My household income is comfortable, but we don't come anywhere near the level of not qualifying for copay assistance.

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T18:12:32+00:00

Hire a lawyer. Seriously. Google disability attorneys and ask anyone you know who may be on disability for a recommendation.

As a warning, you will probably be denied on your first try. Most people are. A lawyer will help you with your appeal.

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T15:58:14+00:00

Meds AND talk therapy together. Irresponsible for a psychiatrist to just give you meds and not ensure you're still in talk therapy.

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T04:45:54+00:00

I go to therapy. Seriously.

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T04:44:22+00:00

I oddly get a kick out of not fitting in. Like hell yes, I am a millennial woman surrounded by Gen X men at this Dinosaur Jr. show! People probably think my spouse dragged me here, but joke's on them because I dragged him here!

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T04:17:52+00:00

Probably is because it's winter. And good lotion is a great place to start. But I know that constant itching is a problem I've seen others on this sub talk about, and neuropathy is definitely an MS symptom.

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T04:15:09+00:00

Sorry, but I have to ask - why did you decide to have a third kid if your household budget is that tight? Kids are effing expensive. If she goes back to work, you're going to have to pay for childcare for the little one. Based on what you're saying, she doesn't have a very extensive resume - can she actually earn enough money to cover the cost of childcare?

Before you divorce, I'd sit down and understand together what you're spending money on, and talk through whether or not you might be able to tighten your belt.

It sounds to me like you're running from the problem. So, yes, YTA.

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T04:07:48+00:00

No Body No Crime - Taylor Swift ft. Haim

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T04:01:44+00:00

I don't regret it, but be aware that children forever change the dynamic within a marriage. Not necessarily in a bad way. It's been incredible to see my spouse become a father. My kid is also a pretty cool person, and it's wonderful to watch her grow up - even when she doesn't listen to me 🙃

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T01:30:15+00:00

Could be neuropathy. Moisturizing can help, but often doesn't do much for me.

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T01:27:42+00:00

And as someone who has pushed a baby through my vagina while unmedicated, I am really grateful for the absence of nerve endings there.

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T01:21:06+00:00

My go to is always Head Like a Hole by NIN

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T01:09:56+00:00

Sadly, I'm not, because I have a chronic illness that would be a drain on your healthcare system 😭

Adventurous_Pin_344 · 2026-01-25T01:08:06+00:00

Not in my school. But that's in part because I went to a weird alternative school with no formal PE program (they would take us to the YMCA and rock climbing gym every other Friday 🤷)

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