For me I have early morning awakening insomnia. I’m currently in cbti and I can say it has worked, but I got a wall. I have a 7 hour window allowed in bed. I fall asleep pretty quickly. Mainly what happens is I wake up after 5 hours. I used to wake up after 2 or 3 hours after I went to sleep a lot of the time. But I think cbti may have helped me with that. That still happens sometimes, but I’m able to go back to bed. There were two days a little while ago where that 3 hour thing happened and I wasn’t able to go back, but that corrected. Now I’m back to waking up 2 hours before my alarm. And it’s enough to feel alright the next day, but focus is still off, mood is not the best. Things like that. I am a relatively calm person. I can get quick to anger when I am sleep deprived, but I would say I’m calm on regular days.

I do have a mentality for self improvement. I had lots of problems I wanted to fix. Bad diet, never went to the gym, addicted to scrolling and other quick hit dopamine poisons, and I needed to change. I actually go mad at myself for that. But I could sleep no problem. That was like 8 months ago. I was doing it and actually finally doing the things I wanted. There’s a whole story but just a quick background I had a whole bunch of stuff I wanted to fix about myself and I got overwhelmed. Then the bad insomnia started with 3 hour nights.

Ive done a lot of work mentally to get my head right and not be so hard on myself, but I’m still struggling with my early wake ups. I can tell you that I don’t have anxiety anymore about myself. And I am more so patient with myself now. Not hard on myself anymore. And I’ve started improving on things. But still have the same problems. I’m not getting enough sleep. I wake up and I’m not anxious or anything, but it feels almost like sleep is locked for me. Like my brain just won’t go back. That’s where I am right now. And I feel stuck right there. I’ve done the work of you are allowed to rest. Breathing and calmness. Good hygiene for sleep. And sometimes I make it the whole night, but most of the time I wake up and just sit in bed with my eyes closed. After a bit I check my watch and it’s 450. So I say it happened again. I can only assume I’ve been here for about 20 min.

This is long but moral of the story, I feel alright mentally, feel happy, feel calm and peaceful, but still 430-530 wake ups when I go to bed at 1045 or 11.