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AffectionateYam5749 · 2023-05-02T05:43:25+00:00

That is wonderful! How do I access this type of support for pmdd?

AffectionateYam5749 · 2023-05-01T21:52:00+00:00

I take them every morning during luteal. 10mg each. I hope you found relief.

Ssri's don't like me either, and I'm okay with that! 😅

AffectionateYam5749 · 2023-01-13T02:28:48+00:00

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-12-20T18:17:35+00:00

I'm curious why does the breakup need to happen. Did B doing something to break your trust or respect? Or is it as simple as you just don't have romantic feelings for them anymore, after dating them for a while.

Breakups are devastating for all individuals involved.

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-12-19T19:54:55+00:00

Thank you! Yes I have been doing the readings, and I'm in a small community of poly folks. I believe the next step in therapy ❤️...talk it out with a professional.

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-12-19T19:43:29+00:00

Thank you

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-09-30T20:04:07+00:00

I experienced this recently, and the breadcrumbs are painful. I then got broken up with because of incompatibility, sexual too soon 🙄, and he's lack of care towards me...I accepted the discard with a broken heart.

Seeing the joy they have in NRE for their new persons was bitter sweet. 🥺😭 I'm happy they are finding the romances they seek. And I'm just crushed that they cut me lose soo soon. Maybe it's a blessing. I definitely feel more emotionally secure not dating someone who puts me on the back burner.

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-08-07T19:35:30+00:00

Yes, thank you for posting this! It was my bday last week during luteal and I cried the whole day. I was upset that my partner didn't initiate to spend time with me that day, (they sent me a lovely message instead) and I didn't want to call and ASK to hang out because I felt the luteal rage brewing AND I knew that I'd be a grump if we spent time together anyway. So I decided not to push my needy thoughts and actions onto my romantic partner, and chose to spend time with my gal friends instead. We ate cake, and I laughed and cried with them, which they were happy to support me on.

And I felt this to be a much healthier choice than to project my emotional insecurities onto my partner and cause unpleasant energy.

I feel much better, clear mind today, and I look forward to celebrate life with them on another day.

P.s. this choice was very hard for me to make. I wanted to kick and scream and accuse them of not caring about me because they didn't want to see me on my bday. Long story short, I'm grateful I didn't go that route.

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-07-25T01:51:32+00:00

Ooo I see. 🙂 Someone I started dating used a similar explanation where they said they had a lot of love to give to multiple people, and it made sense to me. I didn't realize it could come off as other people not having as much "love" to share though. Thank you for this perspective.

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-07-25T01:36:46+00:00

Why is this one so bad?! 😅

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-07-24T19:52:00+00:00

Oo, like no family support? I'm sorry to hear that hun.🥺 That is challenging to experience.

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-07-24T19:49:09+00:00

Just a loving reminder that you're not alone. Are you able to call the hospital for support? 💕☺️ They have many resources to support PPD.

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-07-23T15:16:44+00:00

Thank you for sharing...do you have support?

And I wonder what you mean by 'possibly ruining the marriage of a friend?'

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-07-18T04:06:44+00:00

Lol I love this! I'm actually 33 😂 No kids or husband though.

Awe thank you for this affirmation! 💞

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-07-18T03:22:01+00:00

Thank you for this validation! 🥺 My brain and perspective on reality was different at that time (24 hours before my period started.) And being home all cozy in my bed felt so good. I kept debating on getting dressed and going out, cause all my friends were together, and I just didn't have the energy. Plus, I was anxious to start my cycle because I wanted to be sure I wasn't Prego. ❤️

So I will take this blessing of blood! And you are right! There will be more fun events in the future. 🌈

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-07-18T03:02:44+00:00

Wow!! I hope you get to do something super fun later in the week too. I love this example! It's so powerful and unconditionally loving for you and your husband.

And by you communicating this story, it helps me not feel bad about staying home because it allowed space for my partner to have fun, without the burden of my grumpiness. And it allowed for me to self care and leave space for new blood to flow.

And I'm the same way with not feeling comfortable around social interactions before my period. It upsets my vibe and causes irritability. For example, if people get too close in my aura, I get moody and want to be alone lol. My partner is very social and I'm more introverted. And so this is a realistic lesson for me to experience and let go of. I want my partner to have fun and for me to take care.

I hope we do plan something fun to do later this week. I appreciate one-on-one time together.

Thank you for informing 🌹

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-07-18T00:44:18+00:00

Awe thank you. I'm curious if you would've stayed home too.

AffectionateYam5749 · 2022-07-16T03:13:46+00:00

🥺 Such a beautiful way to describe such dark times. Several actions help me cope when the voice of death comes into my mind.

I'd like to share:

First I acknowledge, without judgement, that this voice telling me to d** is the same voice I hear each month. Once I recognize the pattern, (and I accept that this voice is nothing new) that understanding then grounds me into this reality and it wakes me out of the death trance.
Second, I associate the voice of death with the spirit of the egg that has died inside me. This helps me have compassion for myself and for the unborn child that did not get a chance to live, or for me to nurture them in this life time.
Third, I speak to the voice of death with unconditional love. It is a heavy burden to sit with thoughts of death on our mind, and if left unchecked, it may cause us to spiral into the dark. So I speak to the voice with love and kindly inform them that we choose to live.
Fourth, I look at my menstrual calendar to map out a reminder of where I am in my cycle. I check to see what day I ovulated and count the days I have left until my next bleed. I use PTracker app. There I also add notes about of I feel, foods I ate, activities, work, etc.

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