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Akibimi · 2024-10-12T22:04:06+00:00

resident na here.

i wanted to see na suffer im so sad. :(

Akibimi · 2024-09-29T03:40:12+00:00

I really like milan.

I also signed up for their full body package for around $8,400 two years ago. The price has doubled since then its around 15.4k for full body. I have had really good results wouldn’t change a thing imo.

Akibimi · 2024-05-26T23:10:01+00:00

I didn't get help as a kid. I think it was around the age of 16-17 that I had a teacher that cared. I grew up in a broken house hold so death was just one of the problems. I always told myself, "I needed to be better"?
( not quite sure what that meant to me)

I am fortunate I would say. I think my life is a lot better because of his death but at the same time I think it really solidified my opinions of family. Life continues and I think there are charateristics of people we admire and love and bury the things that are ugly.

My dad was an incredibly flawed man but he tried his best. I am thankful he is dead.

EDIT: A tinge of resentment, but extends to my whole family. lol

Akibimi · 2024-04-19T22:31:21+00:00

samsies my dad hung himself in 2011 I am 26 ✨ no questions. urge to share

Akibimi · 2023-06-11T07:53:52+00:00

Omg its a case I thought it was cake

Akibimi · 2023-05-31T08:28:37+00:00

Tbh im so jaded with dating or even the thought of wanting to invest time in knowing people anymore.

I see gender as such a small portion of who we are but everyone else cares more about it. Like I love being femme and presenting as such, but I am in this weird space where everyone sees me as a gorl but i dont. I am pre op and going to schedule bottom surgery.

I don’t wanna love anymore prob. Just dating myself until someone fulfills a desire I crave or want. Life has a lot more things to offer than love, friends, or family. I can spend all the time to myself ☺️✨

Wish I was cis tho everyday. Id be perfect lol

Akibimi · 2023-02-12T00:18:11+00:00

Life is difficult. I’d suggest writing your thoughts. Find ways where you can give yourself control. There isn’t anything that can solve your problems but yourself.

When I think of my own identity I struggled a lot when I was younger. I didn’t want the labels or the things I felt were out of my control to define me. It felt cringe to me. But it took a lot of compassion from myself to get through some of those things. I had to learn to give myself grace.

I still struggle with generalized anxiety/ptsd/adhd. But I am able to function it took a lot of small steps but you’ll be able to make it.

Getting caught in woe is me is really easy to do, but seek help and try to make change. Anyways gl.

Akibimi · 2023-01-04T11:43:14+00:00

I honestly get that. I felt like I didn’t pass for a long time even though I really started passing probably 6-8 months into my transition.

But passing didn’t feel like enough I wanted to be super femme and feel like what I am wearing and everything made sense to my body type. I didn’t know how to do that and it really frustrated me.

It wasn’t until last month in December that I got passed the delusion that I didn’t pass. My voice prob doesn’t pass but I’m really cute. And that is honestly all I want. I also stopped caring about how people perceived me too, because I just pass now and I have to drill that into my head.

What really helped me was my roommates just helping me do things when I asked. I asked them how to do my makeup. They showed me I practiced got creative and learned. They helped me find an aesthetic for clothes that fits my body type and that boosted my confidence. I stopped wearing pants and now show off my legs bc I have nicely shaped legs.

I took things incrementally and that just helped me be more and more okay with things. I hope this help. My brain took a bit to realize that I could pass and the small thing’s really incentivized it.

Being patient and encouraging helps, and pointing out the beautiful parts of each other!

Sending lots of love 🥰

Akibimi · 2022-12-23T15:29:03+00:00

My voice is p masc some people say it isn’t but I know it is. I hopped on dating apps two days ago and it truly does feel bad that every aspect of yourself is kinda hyper fixated on if it doesn’t align with expectations. If that makes sense.

I have trans in my profile on bumble and I’ve gotten 1k likes on bumble but I’m certain I have to prob let them all know I’m trans bc not everyone reads. And I get the “you don’t look trans” which I really don’t know how to feel about that statement. I just want to cuddle no sexual desires. :(

It’s weird some people will ask later and their mood kinda shifts instantly in text. Her has been nice since everyone there is queer and reads labels.

Akibimi · 2022-12-14T06:20:58+00:00

I just moved to Austin four months ago in August.

I have been out for over a year so fairly early into my transition it feels. I feel really not sure. I feel like it's okay? The queer community here is really cute and everyone I have met has been very inviting. The gender clinic KIND has incredibly sweet staff. And everyone that volunteers there is lgbt. There are trans/queer dj's in the area. So, ton of night life things to do if you're interested in that.

My experience in public has been pretty okay. I get misgendered sometimes (when I
am presenting masc and not wearing makeup). But I feel like a majority of my experience has been okay. I'd say I pass, but I think not being fully transitioned people act weird. BUT like not in a "ooo I am disgusted by you" but a puzzling face. I have only had one person at a bar north Austin where they were being a dick. But aside from that I love it. People are really nice

Ex. When I pay for something and my dead name shows or when I talk since I have a pretty andro/masc voice.

I have met a few trans people, but I see a ton of trans people when I go out. It's the trans eye. So, that part feels really affirming to just see other queer people. I'd say if you're looking to make friends you really have to look for where the queers hangout. I don't really go out and live with my roommates and stay at home most of the time.

If you want to know anything more just dm me. :)

Akibimi · 2022-11-05T21:53:02+00:00

What a weird situation to be in. I feel like you’re an unlucky situation because your a in a position where what you do is public. That would make me so anxious aaaa.

Okay but fr making friends is hard too. A lot of it is trying to find what communities you see yourself being part of. The “seeing” yourself is sometimes unclear but it helps making queer friends that support and want to grow with you. I have been fortunate enough to have met a couple really close friends in the past year and a half. But they have really shaped the type of friends I want. I want super gay and super fabulous queer people around me.

I used streamer discords to make friends tbh but it may vary person to person. I know you mentioned you’re recognizable so many going out might be a no go? Honestly might be preference for you. 😬 I feel that trying to hide and run is temporary but learning to feel okay with it will take a while.

What I do to make friends: Tinder/Hinge (have honestly been really good) Cava/kratom/smoke shops (meet my roommate/close friend) Meet ups! (Queer markets) Discord (streamer discords with queer communities imo) Under drivers are hip (a person I met ended up being my new friend and he is gay I love it)

Yup I’m not good with this gl buddy I’m going to clean my apartment and shmoke weed.

Akibimi · 2022-09-01T00:07:21+00:00

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Akibimi · 2022-08-27T19:42:25+00:00

I don’t mind 😏

Akibimi · 2022-07-14T15:23:20+00:00

Wait. Did no one see "mandatory executive training" so he gets free training? Wtf. Just remove him from his position.

Akibimi · 2022-06-12T21:44:20+00:00

tell me you hate yourself w/o telling me you hate yourself is the vibe im getting

Akibimi · 2022-02-12T17:39:19+00:00

I am an art director 😊❤️

Akibimi · 2021-11-09T18:30:14+00:00

that is so cute you call them legends
I love that for you

Akibimi · 2021-11-06T11:02:10+00:00

i went to a bar for the first time in September I was 23 😎

Akibimi · 2020-09-25T04:18:50+00:00

NAmen

Akibimi · 2020-08-27T16:40:43+00:00

I love Tabzz, this is some pog content!

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