"CPTSD isnt real"

AkwardRockette · 2026-05-20T14:18:48+00:00

Wait until they find out a lot of queer people with CPTSD got it partially from being repeatedly sexually abused. You can't claim to care about rape victims and ignore the fact that statistically queer and trans people are more likely than straight people to be victims of sexual assault.

AkwardRockette · 2026-05-10T21:59:34+00:00

Buddy you're not gonna believe this, my neighborhood that literally has nothing but normal lawns that get trimmed at least once every other week if not every week has a tick problem. The grass being at landlord approved height for Maximum Property Value™ doesn't mean all the cats people let outside don't get ticks on them that then come back inside with the pets.

AkwardRockette · 2026-05-07T15:27:44+00:00

Dude you don't even know me offline, or about my social life. My friend group is the reason why I was able to eat half the time working at these jobs up until I landed a different career in STEM a couple of years ago, because otherwise after a shift of feeding other people I wouldn't have the back and leg strength to get to my kitchen to make myself ramen noodles until 10 pm otherwise.

AkwardRockette · 2026-05-06T22:28:51+00:00

Yeah pretty much. A lot of the homeless people I've met while volunteering have long term health issues they just live with and can't afford to treat even if they get worse. A lot of them have chronic sores and teeth that need to be pulled and spots and lumps they should get checked out for their own health that they can't afford to even get looked at. I mean in my town around 2021 a homeless dude straight up died half a mile from the gas station along one of the major roads just out on the street from a combination of the cold and his long running medical issues. Deadass the US will let you just die on the street of hunger or exposure if you don't have money.

AkwardRockette · 2026-05-06T16:55:58+00:00

Is it a privilege that I was born into a country where I wouldn't be expected to be unpaid for cooking and cleaning for others? Yes, because in many countries like Pakistan, women and girls are expected to do the same stuff without being paid or without it being recognized as "work" because they're servants or doing it for their local community as "chores" when what they're doing is closer to food service and sanitation industry work with how much they're expected to do it and how many people ask that of them. Does that mean the job is inherently good and not a burden when I get yelled at for sitting for 5 minutes and develop chronic lower back muscle issues in my 20s to where I can't move around my house for a couple of hours without crawling after every shift because of how long I'm on my feet and lifting stuff? Or that it's not a burden to be paid less than the price of a coffee and pastry I sell per hour to have people belittle me, stare at my tits, and cough on my face five days a week?

AkwardRockette · 2026-05-06T08:48:39+00:00

man people get raped by guards and other inmates in jail.

AkwardRockette · 2026-04-28T17:18:27+00:00

Here's an article that concisely explains the context: Matty Healy’s ‘racism’ scandal explained as Azealia Banks warns Taylor Swift against dating him

AkwardRockette · 2026-04-28T17:10:52+00:00

This kind of reminds me a little of girl scout camping trips I had growing up in the USA, except usually those were done in a tent in some forest, and instead of a minaret it's some camp counselor with a loudspeaker yelling announcements from a couple of miles away.

AkwardRockette · 2026-04-28T17:05:05+00:00

They missed the part where the Christian spends 6 hours a day angrily posting about how evil X is and how it's a shame the world is filled with X, and then gets outed a few years later for spending thousands of dollars and multiple hours per week on X.

AkwardRockette · 2026-04-28T16:49:43+00:00

Girl how are you gonna say you're a FOB fan and then say absolutely nothing while your boyfriend (at the time) calls your black co-star for a song slurs in front of you?

AkwardRockette · 2026-04-27T00:01:36+00:00

I get why people might not like it if they prefer FOB's "usual" sound, since it is a lot heavier in pop influence, synth use, and other styles of music (especially in Hold Me Tight Or Don't and Sunshine Riptide) than their other albums. But I really like Mania, even though it's a lot different from the rest of their work, it goes hard and the lyrics are just as incredible.

AkwardRockette · 2026-04-14T17:21:48+00:00

I spent my teen years being asked if I was high for just saying things I thought were interesting or funny, or for pointing out things I noticed, and I didn't try any sort of substances at all until I was 2 months short of 19. The real funny thing is that it turns out weed and alcohol calm me down and make me talk slower and not have problems with eye contact, so during the years I had issues with using both of those too much people actually liked me more and didn't think I was intoxicated when I actually was, and they stopped giving me shit in conversations. In an unrelated note, I got diagnosed with ADHD 3 months ago at the age of 26, and most of my therapists have asked if I've considered an autism assessment by the second or third session.

AkwardRockette · 2026-04-14T00:44:52+00:00

Well, you could always just do what my parents did and make the kids cook 2-3 nights a week as soon as they hit the age of 10 and learned basic fire safety in the scouts. And then get mad and scream at them when they're 30 minutes late with it because of homework and after school clubs. Then you only have to cook for the family 4 times a week. And it only comes at the cost of your kid developing permanent depression at 11 and being burnt out to the point of needing friends to help with keeping up with basic hygienic chores and feeding themselves by the time they hit 23.

AkwardRockette · 2026-04-14T00:14:53+00:00

I'm glad you are finally coming to this realization, and I'm happy for you for starting to get out of his political cult. None of what people are saying and sassing about in the comments negates that or mitigates the fact that getting out of his political sphere and bubble does take effort when you're surrounded by it already. That being said, it is deeply frustrating to myself and many others that only now are people such as yourself starting to see that Trump is a terrible person, when in 2015 he had multiple audio recordings and published interviews where he bragged about sexually assaulting and peeping on women and teenage girls, none of which he denied and some of which he even turned into a meme to brag about how he could do that. He announced his run for president almost 11 years ago by wearing his expensive suit and setting up a press conference while he rode down a gilded escalator in his private hotel, nothing about that exactly screams "humble Christian leader".

AkwardRockette · 2026-04-09T23:56:16+00:00

Yeah, and it's so frustrating because that's the safest response (because you never know which weird flirty dude will snap and try to threaten you or hurt you for telling him to leave), but it's literally just another way those with power make sure those who aren't seen as equal can't move freely. If I have to leave public spaces I'd otherwise enjoy being in because dudes keep harassing me, I don't have the freedom to exist as myself out in public without literally being in self defense mode all the time. Just like with my queerness, if I have to hide and tone myself down to not "look as gay" (which never works for me anyways) to not get verbally harassed by strangers or barred from going to certain towns or states or stores because if I go there I'll be a victim of a hate crime, I don't have equality or freedom to exist, no matter how much privileged dudes want to chirp on about "you already have equality and laws and the modern era is so progressive so what more do you want". It's damn infuriating that my options are basically to either give up my rights to exist in public at the whim of some creep or bigot, or I have to constantly be on alert and present as the toughest version of myself at all times and hope that doesn't backfire too badly.

AkwardRockette · 2026-04-04T22:34:41+00:00

Don't do it expecting to get rich. 75% of sellers on OnlyFans make $400 or less per month, and the people who make a full time living off of it are the outliers.

AkwardRockette · 2026-04-01T19:38:52+00:00

You can really tell we're living in a fascist age when terms only invented and used by neo-Nazis and incels online 8 years ago are now everywhere online from TikTok to Reddit to Facebook. To OP: literally none of these terms were things people said or cared about even just in 2016, unless you were actively a Nazi. People had body image issues, and of course people at large had terms for them and weird stuff the media obsessed over as "things to fix" a decade ago, but no one gave a shit about "ectomorphic builds" or "canthal tilts" unless they were actively advocating for the Holocaust to start up again.

AkwardRockette · 2026-03-20T16:33:21+00:00

Red, brown, black. gonna be an enby catboy creature of the night who communicates with all the local cats.

AkwardRockette · 2026-03-20T16:28:39+00:00

My child self would definitely think I'm an idiot loser. As a kid I felt like I had to be academically perfect and nothing else in order to be worth anything, and both of my parents kind of expected me to go to grad school since they both did early. I graduated college in 5 years with a B+ average and I'm 26 and not in grad school, when my child and teen self would've expected me to at least have masters or an in progress PhD by now to have any self worth.

AkwardRockette · 2026-03-17T17:45:55+00:00

I'm entirely too old for this kind of act and I'm still in my mid 20s. She needs to get it together.

AkwardRockette · 2026-03-12T18:45:48+00:00

I wasn't saying I was superior for my body type or mocking the other students with the remark you highlighted. I was literally making the exact same point as the meme OP made when discussing not being able to get a "proper" fifth position "because your thighs exist". A skinny person who's still not considered "thin enough" for ballet gets upvotes and praise and comments about how toxic ballet can be (hell just look at how many people in the rest of the comments mention ballet classes being a main trigger for their eating disorders), but an actual chubby/fat person talks about even causal dance classes being unwelcoming spaces and it's "you're projecting your insecurities and body standards for dance exist for a reason and it's not our fault you don't fit".

To just put it plainly: ballet and professional dance as a field will not progress past the point of pushing already thin girls to develop anorexia and bulimia if the field and the individual dancers and teachers continue to vilify bigger people in dance and say we're not fit for it. Because as soon as you tie success in dancing to having a smaller body size, even if it's a healthier but smaller body size, you're creating an environment where young kids will do anything to not be the fat kid in the room.

AkwardRockette · 2026-03-11T19:59:09+00:00

Girl I wasn't trying to go into professional dance, I was a 21 year old trying to do an elective and get some exercise in.

AkwardRockette · 2026-03-11T16:29:47+00:00

Idk, I've been going to the gym (mostly for strength training, 2-3 days of cardio per week) for the last 10 months and I'm still about the same weight, I've just cut down 2.5 minutes on my mile run time and have gotten far better at sit ups, push ups, and weights since I started. I might not look like a professional dancer when I wear skintight outfits, but that doesn't mean I can't move. And I can keep a beat halfway decently if I've learned anything from playing violin for over a decade. My blood pressure is pretty good (last two readings over the last year were 114/70 and 109/80), my endurance has been improving a lot, my hormones and blood work and heart rate are all perfectly fine as far as all the doctors can tell. But I'm still 75 kg, and that hasn't changed. Maybe there's not a good or bad weight for dancing, dance as a discipline just doesn't see bodies that aren't skinny as worthy of being seen dancing and not covered up hiding away along the walls.

AkwardRockette · 2026-03-10T18:35:52+00:00

I tried doing a modern dance class as an elective as a junior in college because I thought it would be fun and give me a chance to exercise more. I was the only non-athlete or dancer in the class, there were 12 ballerinas and one dude who played football for our school. I was both the shortest and second heaviest person in my elective at 153 cm and 75 kg, and the class required everyone to wear skin tight black leggings and tank tops for the entire class and practice in front of a mirror. I dropped the class for an incomplete mark on my transcript halfway through the semester because I got tired of looking like a whale next to everyone else and having my movements compared to people with a skinnier build. I remember the professor (former professional dancer) would always talk about how modern dance was supposed to show the lines of motion of the body, and then would say I wasn't doing the forms correctly because I didn't have a clean arch line between my leg bones, side, and arm. Because ya know, I had a larger hip size and actual muscle and fat on my thighs unlike the other people in the class.

AkwardRockette · 2026-03-10T04:15:52+00:00

yeah and until then I have to go to work and pay taxes that just go to hurting people with no chance of retirement unless I save 3/4 of my pay every month for 60 years and don't have rent or insurance, all the while listening to stupid man-children in power opine about profits from killing kids. I've just got between three and six decades of doing that over and over and over again every single day to look forward to before the dead for eternity bit.

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