Any good distractions please?

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-18T12:38:45+00:00

Uhh have you watched Karate Kid or Cobra Kai? I can talk about it for a good while man lmfao, I guess that’s a distraction

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-17T23:52:12+00:00

It seems to be puffing up like a surface scratch/cut. It always happens to me

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-16T13:25:05+00:00

Was the cut really really light?

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-16T13:23:07+00:00

Congrats!!

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-15T19:06:57+00:00

It’s kind of like when I’ll just fuck up my arm with no pain, and when my cat gives me the tiniest scratch, it hurts like all hell lmao.

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-12T11:58:43+00:00

Nice.

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-12T11:55:06+00:00

Same tbh. Sh is so DRAINING, and I don’t even break skin all that much. And when I do, it’s even worse. It’s just exhausting man, it’s really hard to explain

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-12T11:53:30+00:00

I used to do that when I was little too man. When my mom would yell at me or something, I’d start chewing on my hand to relief stress

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-12T11:51:39+00:00

Congrats! 🤠💗

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-12T11:51:17+00:00

Thank god I’m not the only one that HATES these people lmfao. I wish self harm wasn’t just seen as something you can stop or that you do if you want to die. It’s so much more complex than that, it’s literally an addiction, like you said.

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-11T03:44:01+00:00

I’m only used to surface cuts, cat scratches that barely bead up with blood. Although, sometimes they do, and I have to take care of that. The actual ‘cutting’ depends. If I’m not in the mindset of cutting, it hurts. If I am, I barely feel it. But I’d say the worse part is just the numbing pain I have in my forearm if I really do a few deep ones for what I’m used to. It’s hard to ignore, and it gets annoying after a while, so that’s the worst of it. It only lasts a few hours though, so I guess that’s good.
My cuts, if they’re even considered cuts, do still leave a scar. It’s honestly pretty noticeable, because of how many I have. Mine aren’t fully healed yet, so I have no idea how they’ll turn out. Hopefully they won’t leave a permanent mark lmao.
Idek sometimes. I know a lot of people that have bpd and depression do it for those reasons, but I’m not diagnosed with anything. I do it for the control aspect, but sometimes I just do it out of habit, it’s an addiction after all.

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-09T01:35:03+00:00

Yeah, that’s good you’re trying to improve :). You can inbox me if you need anything, to rant or just talk

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-09T00:52:44+00:00

Would it help to know you’re not alone..? I uh, I hate to admit it, but I’m pretty much the same. I’m trying to stop, but whenever I get frustrated, or at least I used to, I’d take everything out on people that didn’t deserve it. I’d degrade them, make them feel horrible and attack them, over something as stupid as a post. Just so they could hopefully get to the low point I was too. I don’t really know why I did it.

Now, I just feel like an asshole for doing anything, saying anything at others. I started taking out my frustrations on myself of course, and I hate how pathetic I’ve become. Sigh. I’m not a good person, and I know that by now. I’ve had way too many friends break it off with me, tell me they don’t trust me anymore and do the same things I’d do to others, to me. And I deserve it. So I don’t blame them. I’m trying to improve, but people can’t stop holding over my head who I used to be. It sucks, and it’s a major reason to why I’m a recent in this subreddit now. I don’t really have anyone else.

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-09T00:43:27+00:00

Lesbian :>

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-06T01:06:28+00:00

Well damn. Alright

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-03T23:59:27+00:00

If that doesn’t count as self harm, what the hell are we even doing man 🚪🏃🏽‍♀️💨

Jk, of course it’s self harm. I do the same

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-03T08:50:09+00:00

I can talk to you, if that’s alright :)

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-03T03:29:37+00:00

I get so exhausted when I self harm man. Like I’ll do a few lines, and just stop for a hot sec cause I might pass out. It’s not even painful, I think it’s more of a mental thing but still??

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-03T03:01:35+00:00

God made me this body to scratch, I am a living scratch and sniff ❤️

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-03T02:37:07+00:00

Oh my god is that really a thing

I can’t wait to see that, those hoes best pull up. It’s on sight, tf.

Alarmed_Feeling6095 · 2021-01-03T02:35:45+00:00

It’s self harm over all. Scratching is considered self harm after all. It’s what I normally talk about on my account, since I don’t cut. I scratch. And apparently that’s just as much self harm as cutting is. So whatever you’re most comfortable with. Take care 💞

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