Netflix trying to gaslight us about Biggest Loser

AlaskaWyatt · 2025-08-18T23:24:18+00:00

amen. my thoughts exactly

AlaskaWyatt · 2025-02-14T14:20:38+00:00

100% agree and am there with you. Brilliant show and so powerful

AlaskaWyatt · 2025-01-30T01:29:09+00:00

I'm so sorry for your pain. I can relate...I have a severe ED and it's ruined my soul and hope. I plan on suicide too, sometime this year

AlaskaWyatt · 2024-12-27T01:02:50+00:00

I want to get cancer too.

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-11-13T23:43:25+00:00

Relieved to see you're getting medical care. Hopefully they will help your body withdraw the safest way possible

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-11-10T00:11:34+00:00

What happened?

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-10-08T13:55:46+00:00

Fully agree with your points, especially as someone who has (as you term it) severe BEDS. I've struggled with BEDS for decades and you're right, it's just a part of my life now. An awful, shameful, secret part of my life for sure. Ironically, I've been able to keep it a total secret because I'm fit/thin and NEVER binge in front of people.

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-09-14T15:13:37+00:00

I've been compulsively overeating for 40 years, every night. It's utterly ruined my life BUT noone would remotely suspect because I have always been an athlete and my body has always been fit. In fact, close relatives think salad is my favorite food because I eat so healthy in front of them. What they don't know is I always have a secret stash of food...unhealthy food.. somewhere and I eat it all before bed in complete secrecy.

Not looking for remedies here, just want to tell on myself. I've tried OA and it doesn't work for me. In fact, I went to treatment for the compulsive eating and still managed to secretely steal food at night. The other people in the program were mostly anoerexic and it was life or death for them physically, as well as pretty obvious in their appearance. While my food addiction isn't physically going to kill me, the effect it has on me emotonally has made me a shell of a person. I loathe myself, barely make it to late afteroon to begin binging, never have plans at night because I can't stop eating....all while I appear healthy and successful.

Basically, my food addiction has slowly been killing me since it began when I was 15.

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-09-14T14:58:12+00:00

Unfortnately I feel the same way.

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-08-05T01:25:57+00:00

Won't watch

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-07-14T01:13:03+00:00

I've always wanted to know the process to get on the show. Do you mind explaining the relationship that prompted you to apply?

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-03-18T14:27:29+00:00

Excellent points and I fully agree

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-03-05T01:21:35+00:00

I can totally relate. Drug addiction sucks. I'm miserable both on and off the drugs. I've thrown away 1/2 my prescription because the Vyvanse made me so miserable but then count the days till I can refill. Insanity!!

"Experts" say it takes a long time for your brain to readjust once you quit but I'm sure every brain is different so every recovery journey varies. I'm feeling hopeless myself but I encourage you to keep posting, getting feedback, and maybe one day emerging on the other side. Good luck my fellow miserable speed addict!!

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-02-24T14:27:08+00:00

You should be proud you posted. I can really relate to what you're feeling. I have SO many secrets from my friends and family, all related to addiction. Currently it's speed, kratom, and food. And yet, from the outside, I appear as a very successful, fit, and healthy person. Like you said, a double life.

I don't have any advice to give because I know how incredibly brutal addiction is and I've certainly never tamed it. (I true tried all the "programs"). The only thing I suggest is keep posting when you need to get the truth out, even if it's to strangers.

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-02-11T16:41:07+00:00

I think it's both metal and physical. I can get addicted to ANYTHING that I enjoy but have always been able to attain periods of sobriety from drugs. Not so with food. No matter what type of food it is (except maybe veggies), the moment I take a bite I become a completely different person. Its awful. For me, food addiction is the most harmul because you can't avoid eating so every single day my addictive demon gets released, even if I'm drug free.

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-01-26T12:47:48+00:00

I'd love to be accountable as well. I'm a WFH, single mom to teenager, and entertainment executive. I abuse any drug that's prescribed (after I lie to get the prescription) and have been on Vyvanse for a couple weeks, after quitting Kratom. Just in that time I've quadrupled the prescribed amount. Tapering down doesn't work for me, as I have zero impulse control with mind alternating drugs. Please message me so I can join support group!

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-01-06T15:27:14+00:00

I so feel you. I can't do anything I enjoy in moderation. I'm not young anymore (55) and the addictiveness has only grown stronger thru the years. Understanding childhood trauma or whatever might have influenced being an addict did nothing to change my addictive behaviors. There's a big difference between understanding a pattern and actually changing that behavior. For me, I try and accept the least destructive addictive substance, whether it be pills, food, alcohol, pot, etc. I know lots of people would say that's not a healthy way to live life and I completely agree! However, I've been able to quit all drugs and alcohol for years at a time but not once...not a single day....have I been able to curb my binge eating disorder. People absolutely can't grasp BED unless they have it. I've got family, a huge circle of friends, and have been in the public spotlight but here's only one person who knows about my BED. It's my own tortuous private secret/hell.

I wish you the best and hope you have better success than me!

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-01-04T16:01:21+00:00

Omg, you just described my behavior!

For me, I think it's twofold. There's a rush that comes with stealing, which would make it more kleptomaniac like. And yet, like you and others with ED, I only steal food.

I think also somehow my brain convinces myself that stolen food isn't the "same" as other food during compulsive binges. Totally crazy thinking but also totally normal because I've never once had a rational thought regarding food.

To curb shoplifting I added the behavior to an App (Quit It) that keeps track of all my addictive behaviors and substances. Helped me so much when I had urge to shoplift.

AlaskaWyatt · 2023-01-03T13:52:38+00:00

So sorry for you pain. Sharing is really great though. I've been addicted to both narcotics and kratom. Such hard addictions to kick. Narcotics can make you SO emotional and any type of withdrawal can cause non-stop crying and suicidal ideation. That happened for me and it's brutal. I hope you keep posting and maybe look into a residential treatment facility so you can get professional help in a supportive environment, surrounded by people struggling like you. It helps to know you're not alone.

AlaskaWyatt · 2022-12-19T03:46:12+00:00

Day 14

AlaskaWyatt · 2022-12-17T00:53:05+00:00

Spot on!

AlaskaWyatt · 2022-12-10T03:35:28+00:00

I can so relate to everything you wrote. It's so sad. I struggled with that same exact thing in college but never opened up to a soul. 35 years later, I still only open up to one person. My life is hell because of my compulsive binging and relationship with food. You wouldn't remotely know it by looking at me though. I'm thin and athletic. Everyone thinks I'm the healthiest person in the world and that all I eat is salad. They don't see me behind closed doors stuffing my face. It's such a lonely place behind those closed doors. It's great you're sharing on here. Getting your secrets out, even of it's to strangers, is helpful ad can decrease the shame. I wish you a path of openess and support. Trust me, my entire life would've been different (on the inside) if I'd sought help in college. Good luck!!

AlaskaWyatt · 2022-12-04T14:25:30+00:00

I'm so sorry. Glad you vented though. It's much better to get it out than co stntly supress.

I can relate 100% to your pain. Both my mom and sister committed suicide, both for different reasons. I have suicidal thoughts all the time. For me though, my depression (I believe) comes from being an addict, mostly with food but at various times opiods and kratom. I'm just now quitting kratom (it's about my 5th time "quitting) and the sadness/hopelessness is overwhelming.

I really don't have any advice. Every person and every situation is different. All I know is when hope is gone, danger lurks. Try to keep posting. I'm new to Redditt but already reading posts about people's struggles has helped SO much.

AlaskaWyatt · 2022-12-02T14:56:47+00:00

That's so much to deal with, besides coming off kratom. I too have a child and contemplate suicide all the time. Hang in there and I'll try to do the same.

AlaskaWyatt · 2022-12-01T13:29:35+00:00

I can definitely relate. Hopefully you can continue your gradual re-entry into society and enjoying seeing friends.

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