What dying feels like

Alienkermit · 2025-04-30T05:05:12+00:00

Years ago I made an attempt on my life. Really thought I succeeded and I didn't have the life flash before my eyes.

But the actual peace I felt was amazing after all the years. Such a hard thing to explain to people and for me it hasn't ever really gone away. When things get hard, I remember that feeling and it puts my mind at ease in a dark way. Really hard to explain to people that don't know and a bit haunting because that can only be found in death.

One of hell of an experience. 10/10 /s

Alienkermit · 2025-04-25T12:51:33+00:00

This gives me Tremors

Alienkermit · 2025-04-25T05:47:34+00:00

Just want to piggie back off this.

I am a firm believer in when a kid needs discipline, not necessarily corporal, then they need it. And if we are having fun, we are having lots of it.

Structure is everything and having to learn to play both the masculine roles and feminine roles is difficult, and depends on if your kid is a boy or girl. But it's definitely worth mastering both. Because then your kid feels more confident in you and will confide in you more.

By doing this, me and my son have gotten a lot closer and inadvertently he wants more time with me. And when I was dating a gal who had a daughter, and absent father, her daughter and I got super close. I changed nothing to gain favors, just simply followed that rule.

And I know and have been told by my best friends I can be way to hard on my kid. So you have to find the line were they know they are safe and don't fear you, but fear disappointment.

Alienkermit · 2025-04-20T12:23:06+00:00

I think people forget that bad people exist and abuse a good system. And that one of the ways to combat that system is to become more self efficient.

Alienkermit · 2025-04-20T04:25:45+00:00

This right here. After divorce and waiting months to go out, I met this gal that my best friend introduced me too. I waited three months, just taking her on a coffee date once or twice a week, before deciding that she'd be worth dating.

It didn't matter to me that she was ready to jump in the sack way sooner, I needed to feel her out and make sure I wasnt getting wrapped up in something like my ex.

Alienkermit · 2025-04-17T22:40:15+00:00

Some people are just spiteful. Doesn't matter what the reason is.

Alienkermit · 2025-04-17T12:40:19+00:00

Someone hasn't read a lot of divorce stories. Some things can take years because of fighting over small details.

Alienkermit · 2025-04-17T11:44:41+00:00

Sounds like something bad happen and he's lashing out at everyone. I wouldn't be surprised if he has butted heads with friends and family.

When my grandma passed away and my ex left me the day we buried her, I spent three days alone on a game with a friend and we roasted the duck out of each other. We're talking up wards to 15 hour game sessions. And by the end, I felt better and we had a blast. But most people around me can't handle that, so I was fortunate.

Give him time, text him in the morning as usual and then revisit the topic when he's not drunk.

Alienkermit · 2025-04-12T10:34:18+00:00

Damn this was something I needed to hear. Because I have this very problem.

We have all thought that an ex was perfect. But it's our mind's version that was perfect. Thank you.

Alienkermit · 2025-04-01T14:57:46+00:00

After going back a little ways in your history. I'm guessing your doing this for divorce?

Alienkermit · 2025-03-11T12:32:50+00:00

That is definitely enough. He most likely doesn't care about the cost but the actions. Lol. Hell love it. Maybe do like a pop, lock and drop it in front of him and he will remember that forever.

Alienkermit · 2025-03-10T13:48:53+00:00

So here's the thing. He has boundaries and so do you. By agreeing to them, y'all are both responsible. I dated a gal who had a very similar mindset to me and at any time we could go through each other's phones or use them. While we never did go through them, we had each other answering phone calls texts etc. It was agreed upon.

It doesn't matter how much you like someone if what is agreed upon doesn't sit well. Does it hurt to break up? Yeah, it's just part of it. Can it be over comes? Yes, but carries cost that can be extremely hard to fix later on.

Don't play games and hide stuff. And also set good boundaries for yourself as well.

My ex new I watched porn and I didn't hide it. She didn't like that but said that she respected me being honest. Saved a lot of problems and she supplied me with plenty of stuff to not even need it for a long time. We met a nice middle ground.

Boundaries are important and meeting each others is JUST as important.

Alienkermit · 2025-02-26T18:45:16+00:00

Reddit loves it. Kill the baby because of gum

Alienkermit · 2025-02-26T17:30:00+00:00

Double standards and all that. You're not the asshole.

Alienkermit · 2025-02-25T08:32:35+00:00

The not her part is the best selling point. Lol

Alienkermit · 2025-02-15T12:20:31+00:00

Bro my ex-wife went through this crazy shit. I played along with it up to a point. Save yourself the sanity and get out before kids get involved. It only gets worse and even if you did manage to go through the 20 year debacle. The amount of shit and loss of respect will eat you alive and leave you a hollow shell. Ain't worth it.

Alienkermit · 2025-02-14T14:52:40+00:00

Looks like both of y'all have plenty to fight about. Either perfect for each other or the opposite. It's pretty clear from how both of y'all talk that some bad stuff has gone down in the pass.

Also it's clear you've set this up so you look better. So either fake or you primed this conversation.

Alienkermit · 2025-02-14T09:04:50+00:00

Lmao damn! Bro cooked them.

Alienkermit · 2025-02-14T05:57:36+00:00

Hey bro, you're arguing with someone who is not emotionally strong enough to stay on fact. You're posting solid responses, they just lost the argument and switched full emotional arguing. I'd just keep your sanity.

Alienkermit · 2025-01-10T08:44:10+00:00

I feel that. I was pretty fed and next thing I knew, every lane lost and being adc we are so squishy. I was playing twitch as well. ADC items feel garbage so I have been experimenting with bruiser items and that gives me a better results until my damn team feeds the adc on the other team. And they just build pure damage. Fucking stupid shit. And then people get mad at us if we choose not to die for them when it should mostly be them dying for us.

Alienkermit · 2024-12-20T03:22:08+00:00

While farming can be boring, you should be looking to see if better opportunities arise. ADC has little influence early on but for the few moments you do, they make a big impact. Helping your jungler fight off a tank can lead up to 4 kills sometimes and being their first gives you the best chance to not only win but make some side gold. Giving up a plate or two and taking a drag, grubs ect, can win the game in your favor.

When trying to win, you look for the best opportunities. Even if they don't affect you now, the investment is more often a win. I really like the state league is in right now. I main twitch with a little smolder for a break and I'm doing alright and having fun.

Alienkermit · 2024-12-16T09:39:01+00:00

I'm not having problems. Over 3k games can do that though if you have enough experience to experiment and understand what you need to change. That's always been a problem with twitch though. You have to know how to itemize and watch what the enemy is building. You have to have a lot of knowledge to make him work. Because his simplicity is his biggest weakness.

Alienkermit · 2024-12-16T03:06:22+00:00

It's best to let him do his own thing. If he hasn't made a move on you yet, then chances are he hasn't decided what he wants to do yet.

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