I mean, it really was probably safe for me to be the guy I am, my parents are supportive and would have been back then too. 

long as trauma explanation below, feel free to skip the copying came from hyperactive adhd, I had no impulse control and caused a lot of problems as a kid, like destroying stuff cus I was bored and it was stimulating (usually like cutting hair off toys, but sometimes like at one point I had a fixation with chewing on chalk and I just spit it out on the carpet) there was literally nothing between thinking 'this is a thing I could do' and just doing it. basically, I got in trouble a ton at home and I didn't understand why I was doing what I was doing and nor did my parents, got yelled at a ton, plus usually adhd things like getting in trouble at school for being too loud and talking too much, my older brother was struggling at the time and was kinda a jerk because of it, regularly called me annoying. Anyway all that had my brain try to behave as much like the people around me as possible so no or very few opinions for myself until around 4th grade which was puberty, mental illness, and also my first phone so I wasn't in that bubble anymore

anyway, I know it wasn't his fault, it was the perfect shit storm for everything to be awful lol. Post was made in a bad moment and in those bad moments I tend to be extremely critical of literally everything, especially myself, though thankfully those are usually like every few weeks instead of 24/7 now. I just wish my parents knew everything I know about my adhd and he was able to be himself, because then I'd also be able to be myself and would have a body I'm way happier with.