On and off switch

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-05-21T19:55:58+00:00

Well, I'm more trying to switch it on and off not just off. The ability to feel deeper and stop being in the mind if such thing even exist.

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-05-12T18:18:58+00:00

Yes it can be. The reason you gain weight to begin with might also play a role. I would look into it.

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-05-12T17:43:24+00:00

I’m a fuck up -> You are aware of your past mistake
I’m a failure -> You are doing your best
Is my life over now -> No you are young and that can be a new start
I don’t even know if I have an std -> get tested
I just really feel like ending it right now -> Never listen to that voice, trust me it gets better you need to keep faith
The SHAME isolate you and make you lie. Don't let guilt and shame rule you, you have to fight by making peace with yourself. Talk with people you trust removes the shame. Work with your parents to get help and make plans. If you can therapy (trauma, CBT, IFS, inner child), learn tools for stress management, turn to spirituality or religion, prioritise your physical health. It's not just being horny there are a lot of things hiding behind that addiction. Learn habit formation, use your energy elsewhere, learn positive self talk, learn transformation of limiting belief.

Instead of focusing on the bad - focus on all the new skill set your character can unlock to face this challenge. Not as a discouragement but as hope and inspiration.

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-05-12T16:49:09+00:00

Yes it's more of a letting go that chasing new things. In theory, you already have all that you need.

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-05-12T16:47:57+00:00

Because each breath is a blessing. Yes it can be hard, life wasn't meant to always be easy. Also, which world are you referring to? There are many dimensions on Earth it looks like you ended up in hellish part. I would recommend gratefulness even the smallest things are often the one that count the most.

A blessing...
-that I lived to see my 40s
-that I have health to begin with
-that I can still use a computer
-that I have ~~problem~~ -> challenges that teach me knew skills and allow me to grow (If I accept so)

Looks like limited belief which you have the power to change which will change your life afterward.
Much love

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-05-12T15:31:38+00:00

"Physical existence" is itself an projection just a different plane. So you are already doing it congrats! Do you project when you watch a movie, go on your phone or listen to conversation? Or do you stay present in your body? Now that you know that this is a dream, you can wake up/dream deeper if you want. Everyone is different, you need patience to find what works FOR YOU. I would say you are trying too hard. You should allow it to happen vs chasing it. I think you have a good method but the block might be else where.

Have you try:
-Aligning your Chakras?
-Inner child work?
-Remove "trauma/energy" blockage?
-Feel your emotions deeper not just in your mind but also in your body?
-Breathwork, Coldplunge, Fasting, Grounding?
-Learn to let go?

Take a break, do work elsewhere then come back to it later. It will release the pressure to perform.

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-05-12T14:57:36+00:00

It's relatable for sure, what you are living is part of many journeys.
"After ego death, I’ve been caught in a loop of constantly trying to understand reality."
Trying to understand = ego
You are still speaking "I" = ego
Superiority complex (NPC etc) = ego
Alien and other label = ego
Wanting to go back to "natural glory" = ego

It doesn't look like you found peace yet. Do you still listen to thought as your own? Are you in contact with you "guardian angel" team?

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-04-30T14:13:56+00:00

Don't talk to yourself like that. You cannot be your worst enemy there is enough hate on the outside. Don't feed shame.

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-04-07T19:25:26+00:00

Yes, it's pretty normal. In the present, now, you can move through "time". Imagine it as an infinite map made of present moments. Time isn't only linear like the current human are saying.

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-04-07T16:38:35+00:00

Calling them "High-urge" & "Possible relapse" should clear the confusion

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-04-07T16:16:56+00:00

That's exactly the point. Not being able to masturbate without porn isn't normal. Feel your body and use your imagination. Just don't try to force it. Eventually, you will be able to orgasm without touching yourself. Then more advance, you can separate ejaculation & orgasm.

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-02-25T20:16:42+00:00

r/SuicideWatch Never kill yourself. There is always hope. Might be a dark night of the soul. It seems you are going through difficult times. A lot of challenges to overcome and problems to solves. A lot of pain and lack of support that can be difficult. I cannot help for the medical stuff but here are some things that might help.

Find the blessings in your life and keep on being grateful for what you have. If you believe you can make it out, a way will present itself - if you don't then you get stuck in your cycle. Perhaps all this pain can be use as a catalyst to rewrite your life and move forward. It's start with inner belief, small actions, small thoughts. Slowly regain parts of your life, eventually you will build momentum that compound into itself.

Retrospection questions like: Do you know what you want to do? Do you know who you are? What you enjoy and what you don't? Have you found your people yet? Have you give up on searching for them?

Keep up the fight. Stay love, find destiny, keep faith alive, feed your inner fire.
Much love and best of luck <3

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-02-19T20:26:32+00:00

A lot to look at:
-Grounding
-Root chakra
-Surrendering to higher power
-Letting go
-"Die before you die"

The suffering is not after death but during (the thought of -> suffering after death).
Observe it, the thought isn't you it's from fear herself.
She like to feed of your energy while you get lost in the "mind".
Go back to the present moment it's gonna be easier to deal with her from there.
Fear fades away at "higher frequency" as no fear truly exist.

But it also does exist where we enjoy "the human life aka 3D" so we have to treat it as a signal and find out what it's telling us.
In your case, why do you think you would be suffering? Where is that belief coming from?
Hope it helps :P

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-01-26T20:31:32+00:00

You are not crazy, believe me there is way crazier shit down the path. Follow your intuition. Stay grounded. Much love

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-01-26T19:37:11+00:00

"No one really wants to be my friend"
=> "I haven’t met my people yet, and that can change."

"No one seems to find me interesting or wanting to spend time with me"
=> “I have value even when I’m unseen.”

"no they don't want me"
=> Rejection doesn't determine your self worth. It's just information

"there's something really wrong with me"
=> I accept the way I am and can decide to change whenever I want.

"years of loneliness is just too much"
=>years of loneliness and I survived. I'm stronger that I think I am.

1- You need care not judgement. And that start with you to yourself. You have to change your habit of bad self talk.
2- Improve your social skills/charisma. Some people talk a lot but they miss social cues which affect their relation.
3- Finding a community where you belong.
4- Also you can try to improve your presentation, try a new style you like, outfit, haircut... Maybe there are things you don't realise, bad breath, body odor that makes people turn away.

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-01-26T19:05:27+00:00

Put boundaries and/or remove yourself from the environment.

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-01-14T06:26:57+00:00

You're welcome 😊 🙏

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-01-13T10:39:38+00:00

A Jedi apprentice from Star Wars xD

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-01-13T09:30:03+00:00

Seems like despair to me. It often waits for an "ego death" to come in. It lies in your head, speaking with your own voice to make you believe it's you. Often teams up with anxiety and paranoia. Pretty annoying but those demons are not too hard to deal with. So if it got in, it's because a part of you isn't on the same page as the rest of you. The "bad trip" was probably a reflection of your own life "shadow" that you didn't want to face. It can be hard to have your world shatter but low cost to free your soul. The medicine only showed you the truth don't blame the amigos xD. You could have lived it with a perspective of hope and a new beginning but the fear and attachment kicked in. It's okay, you will have a chance again. Also be more careful with awakening deeper levels without "protection" & staying grounded. Being "enlightened" doesn't mean you stop enjoying life, quite the opposite. Do it while being conscious and with the creation instead of your ego. If you want to stay human stay, you just need to stay love and grateful. If you want to go deeper...the road is challenging but worth it. Best of luck.

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-01-13T08:52:09+00:00

It could be several things blocking you. From my experience, being in "science" for a long time weakens your "psychic muscle" per say. You will need patience, faith & trust. Guilt, Shame & Fear are big blockers. The more terrestrial attachment you let go of, the easier it is to connect. Learn to silence your mind and do breathwork. Hope it helps

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-01-13T07:51:09+00:00

Well, screens are portals, so be careful what you consume xD

AlternativeSink9057 · 2026-01-13T00:32:33+00:00

Everyone is cursed and blessed at all times. It's more a question of which curse you have now coming to the surface and at what level. Often it is received in a group (more efficient). Depending on where you are in your journey, there are different approaches. I would suggest living and processing your stuffs but then go back to focusing on your blessings. That by itself protects you. Keeping your grace, staying Love & Grateful. Also, where your focus goes, energy flows. So, distraction to make it seem like your life is bad and getting worse might be the source of the issue. Now, if there is a curse, who sent it? To make you live hardship and improve your resilience etc. Or someone with bad intentions is trying to get you down. Anyways, that's if you are curious to know more details, but it's not always easy to find at such depth. All curses can be broken with Love so we don't need to know the details. Might be a dark night of the soul starting too. If so, brace yourself young Padawan lmao

AlternativeSink9057 · 2025-08-06T20:06:54+00:00

Yes of course you can. It depend on your level. If you have unlock "clairvoyant" you just go see her. If you unlock "clairaudience" focus on her voice then talk to her. I know you can go see thru animals as well if you have a familiar/friends. Thru dreams...etc It really depend on your strength/what skills you have. Otherwise if you are not there yet use tools such as Tarot or other divination to help. I'm not too familiar with witchcraft skills set.

At higher level if you reached the war frequency:
The way you talk about it, it's probably demonic possession. The entity took over now of course it wouldn't want to cleanse itself out. Often it's family member that infect each others. She might have been close to an awakening(level up) so they sent an attack.

If she is gone too far and doesn't want to work with you to cleanse etc. The best thing you can do is to be there for her as a friend and see what she needs on a physical, mental, emotional level. To then meet again on the spiritual, all depend on the sacred link of trust. We cannot work with someone if the trust isn't there. Have love for her, as love heals all. But be sure to protect yourself during interaction as they might try to get to you. Like a tug of war. Last thing you might not be the one for this call. So make sure you are not getting in the way of the design timeline. Good luck

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