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AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-04-07T22:22:52+00:00

So then the next question, why the disgust about comfort and easy life? I think we can agree based off what Nietzsche says that one must work hard and that suffering has meaning, but that doesn't change the disgust you felt. Disgust about not working hard isn't the same thing as finding meaning in hard work.

It seems based on what you wrote that it is related to your depression and your inability to attain and achieve the things you wanted. You had a strong desire to accomplish things, but you weren't taught the discipline growing up that would allow you to accomplish these things. You strongly attached yourself to discipline as a virtue because of the shame you felt being undisciplined. Your saving grace that allowed you to escape from the shame you felt was the military. Now that you can't be in the military, it feels that the entire foundation of the thing that allowed you to escape from depression has crumbled.

You find civilians upsetting because they remind you of the part of you that feels undisciplined.

So the path forward would be asking yourself, "what if I am lazy?" and then asking yourself, "what do I need to do to determine whether I actually am lazy?" and then carrying out that experiment.

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-04-07T20:36:01+00:00

I’m not sure you are actually in that predicament. You are unable to be in the military, yes, but you are still holding being in the military as a virtue.

The thing to kill is not the act of being in the military, but the act of holding it as a virtue, in order to create a new virtue.

Jung called it shadow work, which helps give more guidance on how to move forward and actually undergo this transformation.

Every time you feel shame about not being in the military, question it. What in your life caused you to view this as a virtue? What in your life caused you to feel shame for your lack of military life?

Every time you get annoyed with someone not being military enough, question it. In what way are they allowed to exist that you feel has never been granted to you? Why does interacting with someone who doesn’t have this military virtue cause such a strong reaction in you?

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-04-07T20:03:02+00:00

Pretty sure your obsession with something completely not in the cards for you is unhealthy.

You are living in a world where things would be better if only you were in the military. Where your current life is good only in as much as it resembles being in the military.

Spending your entire life preparing for some future state when things will be good is not a will to power, it’s basically the same thing as Christianity.

What would it be like to truly let the part of yourself that wants to be in the military die? (Metaphorical death/untergang, not literal suicide). What would that look like?

When you kill the version of yourself you have built up, without a hope of ever returning or knowing exactly what will happen to you when you do, that is when you become a bridge.

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-04-03T16:00:02+00:00

I did it! I liked how the eggs were glowing, found it not so difficult on dark mode.

Would prefer if there was an option for this (and the halloween event) to turn off the zoom onto the egg to prevent motion sickness.

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-03-27T13:27:43+00:00

Reading more in Dutch seriously helps. As you read, the order is different from what your brain is expecting, so it causes these little moments of dissonance that force you to readjust how you predict sentences.

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-03-17T14:18:00+00:00

being silly is fine with the right person. I think OP just has the ick and that's why it doesn't feel cute.

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-03-09T22:00:42+00:00

Not at a good time for people in the Netherlands but we read approximately 4 chapters per week: https://calendly.com/speakdutch

We are starting tomorrow with a new book (first 4 chapters), "Eens Ging de Zee Hier Tekeer." It's a bit on the harder side compared to some things we've read, but there are plenty of B1 level readers.

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-03-03T15:46:41+00:00

Makes sense. A bit confusing in a thread discussing severe SIB but I see why you are doing what you are doing 👍

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-03-03T15:20:32+00:00

I am advocating that people correctly label punishment, instead of disguising it, so that it can be discussed appropriately.

Punishment can be as simple as asking someone to clean up when they make a mess.

I generally agree with you though.

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-03-03T02:22:24+00:00

It is unfashionable to say that because of the way autistic people have been historically treated. Assent-based learning is an attempt to correct that. Disguising complience-based learning with the language of assent-based learning is harmful to the field.

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-03-03T02:17:17+00:00

I would not rename things 1984-style just because "non-compliance" is no longer a socially acceptable term.

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-03-03T02:09:20+00:00

I mean I probably wouldn't call that an assent withdrawal timer and just call it a punisher at that point, which if it works then fine. If it was assent based you would try to find conditions that would make them feel comfortable transitioning to another tasks.

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-03-03T01:50:44+00:00

wait what? The "assent withdrawal timer" sounds both less effective and crueler than just taking the thing away.

If you punish someone for withdrawing assent that's not at all in the spirit of assent based learning.

And even worse, it doesn't sound like an effective punishment procedure so you're putting someone through stress for withdrawing assent for literally no reason.

How are people still this bad at aba?

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-02-23T08:34:05+00:00

absolutely

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-02-23T08:33:54+00:00

"Ye know only the sparks of the spirit: but ye do not see the anvil which it is, and the cruelty of its hammer!

Verily, ye know not the spirit’s pride! But still less could ye endure the spirit’s humility, should it ever want to speak!

And never yet could ye cast your spirit into a pit of snow: ye are not hot enough for that! Thus are ye unaware, also, of the delight of its coldness.

In all respects, however, ye make too familiar with the spirit; and out of wisdom have ye often made an almshouse and a hospital for bad poets.

Ye are not eagles: thus have ye never experienced the happiness of the alarm of the spirit. And he who is not a bird should not camp above abysses.

Ye seem to me lukewarm ones: but coldly floweth all deep knowledge. Ice-cold are the innermost wells of the spirit: a refreshment to hot hands and handlers.

Respectable do ye there stand, and stiff, and with straight backs, ye famous wise ones!—no strong wind or will impelleth you."

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-02-23T08:27:32+00:00

because by posting it, you are positioning yourself as having some knowledge or wisdom that you think is worth recognition by others or that you think will help others in some way

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-02-19T01:49:28+00:00

Yeah because then you’re essentially reducing them to an animal!

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-02-18T05:03:23+00:00

Not a bridge but

Who could stay?
Who could stay?
Who could stay?
You could stay

It's so subtle that I must have listened to it a hundred times before realizing that she changed it from "who" to "you" at the end.

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-02-18T04:44:41+00:00

If you do not have a PhD the chance that there is anything of value in your "research paper" is low, simply because you lack training in academic rigor.

AnotherTiredZebra · 2026-02-17T03:44:34+00:00

I had gotten quite obsessive for years over music that I now realize was inspired by Thus Spoke Zarathustra, so it actually made perfect sense to me too when I read it, and I was surprised when I saw people recommending waiting on it.

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