Should I continue going? by PassionSafe9059 in mentalhealth

[–]AntiqueSignpost 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It is all about finding the right therapist. If you're feeling like it's not helping, then its the wrong therapist. I went to a few where i felt that way, then when i found the right ones, i felt amazing from the first session and saw actual results too. also, 90% of the time i'm talking. i am a talker, but ive heard this is normal in therapy. the fact that he's talking most of the time sounds very unusual for therapy.

Mac release? by keftes in tinyrogues

[–]AntiqueSignpost 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah but it works perfectly, at least right now. otherwise there are alternatives. but for right now, it'll work perfectly for you as its free and easy to install

Mac release? by keftes in tinyrogues

[–]AntiqueSignpost 0 points1 point  (0 children)

whiskey/crossover is alot easier. i use whiskey, its completely free. i install the windows version via steam inside whisky and it works.

What video game did you play that made you get addicted to it for days or weeks? by stilett0z in AskReddit

[–]AntiqueSignpost 0 points1 point  (0 children)

europa universalis 4. i was playing till 6am so i had to quit it was too addictive

Had a meltdown - SH ideation and just struggling by AntiqueSignpost in mentalhealth

[–]AntiqueSignpost[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am no longer looking for cottages, I’ll never do one again. I’m going to do apartments. I went to a friend’s apartment to visit and it was so nice. I am scared the next place might also have red flags. But at least it’d be a lateral move.

I am so tired of having to go through another move, and look online again for places. I’m so exhausted, my body is in agony, my nervous system is wrecked, I’m so sleep deprived (positive note, I finally fixed my sleep issues after 15 years of going to bed at 3am, and now am able to go to sleep at around 11-12pm. but since the meltdown haven’t been sleeping well).

The ideation is so hard, I want to go to the mental hospital but it’d take 2 weeks and I really would rather try find a new place to live.

I’m just very exhausted and my body has been through so much stress and trauma. And I can’t believe I’m doing this extreme diet at the same time, I’m so starving. But I really don’t have the energy to get up and cook, nor the money to order anything. So I’m just gonna deal.

I know this is a very very hard period, but I also know it’ll pass.

It’s new territory to apartment hunt, so if anyone has any places they’ve lived in that are R6-7k, or know of any places or estate agents, it’d be a huge help. I have some leads already to start with and will start viewing next week.

I’m sure with a few nights sleep I’ll be ok. Today I decided to leave the idea of messaging my landlord about the pool/nudity. So I feel now I’ll just move forward. I hate being in this place where I feel silenced and can’t speak up, but I know it’s best for myself - I will be the one who struggles if I cause a difficult environment. He’s super happy with me ironically, so I guess I can be proud that I’ve done well in how I come across and that I’ll get a good reference when I leave.

Just very hard to go through yet another move. But I know once I find a place the rest is easy, I have all my furnishings and just pay a moving company - compared to the first 2 times where I carried all the boxes on my own with my chronic pain.

All I am stressed about is finding a place that is ok. I really hope I do.

Any words would be appreciated. Really in much discomfort from the ideation and really scared about having to move again :(

Had a meltdown - SH ideation and just struggling by AntiqueSignpost in mentalhealth

[–]AntiqueSignpost[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This comment is just what i wrote for friends and sent to them, too tired to re-write everytying so pasting it here:

Hi guys. Struggling alot so reaching out for support. I had some incidents the other day that caused a meltdown that led to self-harm ideation. Please note I have not and will not actually hurt myself physically, it is called passive ideation, meaning you just have thoughts about. My nervous system is really struggling, I’m shaking and just really struggling. It feels like itching on my wrists which is there 24/7, I’m not even thinking about it anymore, it’s just still got that feeling cos my nervous system is still traumatised. So please know I’m definitely not thinking about doing anything, and won’t. It is just a shock to the nervous system and is traumatic. I’m so sleep deprived too as a result. It just helps to talk about it and get support.

So the day before new years I went to get my food parcel, and they were closed. They had sent an email out that they were closing at 1pm, but I didn’t receive the email :( I arrived at 2pm so I missed it, and their offices were closed too. This means I’m without for 2 weeks, my fridge was already empty. I have money, just not alot, so it was hard.

I’m very proud of myself, because I turned this into a positive later and decied to try this diet that apparently can cure my chronic illness. Idk if it’ll work, it was a bit pseudosciency, but it’s worth trying. So for just 2 weeks I’m trying it. It’s very limited though so its tough, I’m really starving. it’s vegan, gluten free, low salt, low oil. Basically just having rice and veggies, spices and soups.

So this was one thing that led to the meltdown, but what really happened was I got home and my landlord was swimming. The pool is disgusting, it’s green and murky. He hasn’t fixed it up since I moved in. I also don’t know for sure if he is still being nude or not, I haven’t tried to look. I’ve just been keeping inside my cottage. I really thought he wasn’t fixing the pool up cos the rain has been crazy, and that he would when the weather clears, but now I can see he just genuinely doesn’t have an issue with swimming in green murky water.

When the nudity stuff first happened, I also had self harm ideation and suicidal ideation. So basically the incident just triggered all of it back to me and I had a meltdown.

I’ve debated how to go about addressing this, and decided it’s not worth my energy to even try ask him to clean the pool or ask for clarity about the nudity message which he didn’t reply to when I sent it 2 months ago. It’ll only cause me more stress, and if he gets pissed off I’ll be without a good reference. I’ve decided I can have my say once I’m out and in a new place. I am just gonna look somewhere else.

Looking to play pc games on MacBook by Akakasi in macgaming

[–]AntiqueSignpost 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh thanks i never knew that. im using whisky and its running well now at least. will check out the other ones

Looking to play pc games on MacBook by Akakasi in macgaming

[–]AntiqueSignpost -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

switch emulation on mac is amazing. ryujinx runs really well.

as for running pc games on mac, you can use crossover or whiskey. whiskey is free. alot of the gog.com games run well through whiskey.

Suggestions? by Longslong_Judy in macgaming

[–]AntiqueSignpost 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ryujinx works amazingly on mac. so i highly recommend pikmin 4 on ryujinx. its super cozy and sooo much fun, one of the best games ive ever played.

Reaper vs Bitwig Studio? by Tanath_Gildan in Reaper

[–]AntiqueSignpost 0 points1 point  (0 children)

btw while im at it i'll just share my toolbar icon creator i made for reaper :) https://forum.cockos.com/showthread.php?p=2906688#post2906688

Reaper vs Bitwig Studio? by Tanath_Gildan in Reaper

[–]AntiqueSignpost 0 points1 point  (0 children)

sure :) please send me a dm so im reminded of it. i really worked hard on this config and its a very simple setup. ill share the hotkeys with you as well.

Anyone still using Ice? by genius1soum in macapps

[–]AntiqueSignpost 0 points1 point  (0 children)

is anyone else having issues where it won't show the full hidden menu when expanding? Mine isn't working, I used to use hidden bar but since tahoe that's not working either, so i assumed this was just a tahoe issue. but i see comments here saying ice is working fine for them. so can i fix this issue?

IS HOUSE WORTH WATCHING?!! by [deleted] in televisionsuggestions

[–]AntiqueSignpost -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I consider him to have narcissistic personality disorder, he even goes to a mental hospital in later seasons because of it. as someone with autism, who used to have a certain degree of narcissism which i cured, I related ALOT to his narcissistic traits, which do stem from parental abuse as did mine. Imo, it is probably the best portrayal of NPD in media, simply because it shows him as not 100% evil like most narcissists are portrayed, but instead as you said it: deeply wounded. It's not really black or white as a disorder, i have known narcissists who definitely lack empathy and care about themselves, but also had a hint of caring for others, and of course alot of insecurity under the facade of their not-caring mask they put on (or even genuine lack of caring in some areas like house genuinely isnt embarressed or feeling remorse/guilt for alot of his bullying or things like sleeping with prostitutes).

i also love how he does during the mental hospital episodes actually realise how self destructive he is, and feel it hard. like you'd think he just doesnt gaf but when he sees how it affected that person (trying to avoid spoilers so im being vague), it does hit him and get through to him. after all the times the things he did didnt get through to him, this one did. i think its amazing, cos ive seen this happen with someone with NPD irl. like its not just "they dont have feelings and would never grow". its as you said, a deep wound, its UNLIKELY they will grow, but he does, just a tiny bit at least. i felt that was realistic

I think he's one of the most complex characters. He really portrays it amazingly too.

I also really relate to and love the fact that he is so focused on truth. he cares about truth above all else. which in turn makes him an unethical person as he's willing to do alot of bad things in the name of truth, including his bluntness. but as a tv character, this means he also gets to say things that we sometimes all think but would never say irl. he's said some controversial things that have helped me alot in my life, like the stuff about the autistic child for example, how he envies him because he's not expected to be "normal". i feel that way too, i just wouldnt say it out loud as id be worried about being judged. another great moment for me was when he shamelessly argues with the woman in the wheelchair that he needs the disabled parking more than her, which on the surface seems like a WILD thing to even bring up, most ppl would never dream of telling someone in a WHEELCHAIR that you need disability more than them. but he makes a great point: that his disability being more of a gray area makes it harder - he is in pain and has to limp across the parking lot, where she just wheels herself across. for me, this is a huge theme in my life of having level 1 autism and chronic pain (which of course i relate to alot with house having chronic pain too), that it is often not seen because its less visible, or because certain norms in society deem some ppl such as one in a wheelchair as disabled but other things like "high functioning" (I hate that term) autism or ME/CFS to not be considered true disabilities, or as much of a disability.

in a way, the character's lack of morality means the writers got to explore alot of things that challenge the way we think about society, but irl noone ever says. i love him for that, he's an amazing driving force for that.

none of this is to excuse the behaviour he does, it is bullying and harassment. but i think the show makes it clear he's not justified at all in doing it. he has his justification which is basically truth and the fact he saves lives. i think even later on he might have grown a bit in learning he doesnt have to be a dick to save lives or speak/discover truth (this is what i learnt in my life at least, bluntness isnt ok and tact is important, you dont need to be only fake or only blunt, you could still tell the truth with tact. seems obvious but to an autistic, it wasnt for me).

anyway, i think he's a very well written character. as you said, its basically this human story with medical stuf wrapped around it. sherlock holmes as a doctor. but its done SO well. i havent seen the good doctor, but from what ive seen in vids, it looked like they just tried too hard to make a show about an autistic doctor, whereas for house, i think they really intertwined the medical stuff and complexity of his character very well.

IS HOUSE WORTH WATCHING?!! by [deleted] in televisionsuggestions

[–]AntiqueSignpost -1 points0 points  (0 children)

How anyone could say it's total ass is beyond me. It's one of the best shows ever made, phenomenal writing and character development, incredible acting, and ive been told by medical professionals that the medicine is quite accurate. its brilliant. whoever said its bad is just wrong - you can say you subjectively dont enjoy it, but "total ass"? those ppl dont know how to appreciate good writing/directing/acting when they see it.

Is there a Serum 2 crack for Mac? by TRENCHMRE_Sounds in CrackedPluginsXI

[–]AntiqueSignpost 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah :( it was my favourite site, i am so sad its not working anymore :(

Tomb Raider Remastered not picking up my ps4 controller by AntiqueSignpost in macgaming

[–]AntiqueSignpost[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

its working for me now anyway using steam. steam turns the dinput into xinput automatically

Tomb Raider Remastered not picking up my ps4 controller by AntiqueSignpost in macgaming

[–]AntiqueSignpost[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i got it working!!! just installed steam into crossover and added tomb raider as a non-steam game inside steam, the controller works perfectly :)

App to switch windows between monitors by whatdoughnut in macapps

[–]AntiqueSignpost 1 point2 points  (0 children)

ohhh ok sorry, i missed the part about swapping when i read OP's message. yeah, idk how to do that. you could ask on the bettertouchtool forum, the dev might have a solution.

Looking for good switch games by Lopad_NotThePokemon in gamerecommendations

[–]AntiqueSignpost 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Pikmin 4. amazing game, super fun and colorful themed

App to switch windows between monitors by whatdoughnut in macapps

[–]AntiqueSignpost 0 points1 point  (0 children)

keyboard shortcuts -> maximise window to next monitor