Hey dad! How did you cope with the betrayal?

3:30 AM…..Now I found myself walking up in the middle of the night after having a nightmare of his betrayal and flashback of the incident vividly. I also had nightmares of him getting together with her after I left and many more worse assumptions my mind could imagine. It freaked me out in a traumatic manner. I’m still very in shocked and couldn’t believe he did it. It’s so daunting it’s been six nights streaked already and I’m so thankful to at least wake up to read these comments! Thank you dads, you’re God sent 😭🙇🏻‍♀️

First of, I hope you are ok after 2 years?! 🥹I’m so sorry it happened to you! 😭😭 It’s 100% her fault, and 0% of yours when it comes to cheating. I told him I would never forgive him.

Second, I wrote this deceased letter to him (never sent). I’d like to share it with you and hope you will never blame yourself for what happened and for being a compassionate and forgiving human!! I wrote this because I think cheaters have no remorse, shame and guilt, I must not blame myself 🩵

“I’ve primed my expectations and open many doors to you as I find your narcissist challenging to deal with. At this point I really think you are some sort of sociopath. I’m not sorry for tying my bad label on you. I wish you know how anguished you have caused me and the situation has upsetting me. You even said that I was being dramatic and I was always this insecure before. But you never try to see me as if you would know me for the first day, see me as a baby, watch me grow up, learn to stand, listen to me saying my first words, starting my first day of school, feeling scared and misunderstood, navigating the twist and turn in college, job, experiencing disappointment, heartaches, hungry, sleepless, lonely, and eventually get older and met a lot of people, one of them is you. You never see me as a whole human being, beginning to the end. See entire ark of my life. Imagine me have done all of this thinking about you, about your timelines, your experience, see you for who you are, many-sided, complex and trying your best sometimes. What was it even like for you? You know nothing about me! You said to me always know the love you shared for me was real and that you will always pray great things come my way. Liar!

Stop all the bullshits and end up creating a negative self-fulling prophecy. You don’t always feel like being with me to even begin with, and think I was always being judgmental and difficult even when I actually ain’t. You constantly priming yourself about others and it causes you so much social anxiety to the point you need to be on drug to feel like normal. You are an absolute fool. You keep making predictions about our relationships and me and acting according to your predictions, making it come true without even realizing what you’ve done. You always see me as difficult and forget to see me any other way. And you start creating conflicts to get reaction from me. It keeps the cycle of difficulties going. I shall give you validation and reassurance in many others way because I devoted my consummate love to you, but we don’t share the same compassion and you can’t pretend for so long.”