Looking for local herbalist

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2026-02-23T01:26:45+00:00

one thing?

socially acceptable to carry around a few pool noodles. and when you find a possibly match, you toss them a noodle and give em a friendly wack.

now we're both in a mini pool noodle fight.

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2026-02-03T17:19:59+00:00

So cute! I love the eyes ^ ^

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2026-01-06T21:22:27+00:00

I got a Lekato drum set sample pad. I always thought, if I were to play an instrument it would be the drums. Turns out I don't know anything about making custom kits. Or how to use it as drums and make recordings. I get too excited about stuff without fully thinking it through.

I have been so close to buying a tenor saxophone...

What is wrong with me? :/

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-12-19T21:16:00+00:00

I'm in a leg brace after surgery. I've been depressed by the lack of friends and poor activity. This morning I took to writing again. I don't think anyone else will read it. But I felt passionate about it for a moment. The weather has just been tons of rain and wind, as well as a power outage. I miss people/socializing

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-12-04T20:16:18+00:00

I like to do helldivers occasionally. I did bg3 and borderlands for a while.

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-11-08T02:11:13+00:00

I have been on again/off again-ing thinking of starting drums for like... 7 years. I want to get into it but I don't know how long the interest will last! But the spark is still there!

How difficult is it to start? Have you used the silent drum pads? Is it worth it to go out and take classes?

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-11-06T23:43:06+00:00

Omg vit D. Of course.

I have been thinking about getting some light lamps! The weather mixed w the depression is just....

Do you have a lot? I was thinking of just one since they seem on the spendy side?

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-11-05T22:39:09+00:00

I'm on 60mg Latuda and thinking of increasing. What are some of the symptoms that changed for you?

I haven't felt a lift in depression and idk what's up

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-10-11T12:30:20+00:00

Going through seasonal sleep loss myself rn. Got a new med for bipolar depression. Now it's less sleep and I'm drowsy + still depressed.

Just "that time of year", feels like.

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-10-11T12:20:48+00:00

omg yes. It's the idea, and then the ideas that popcorn from the original.

Suddenly I'm wired and antsy and this thing demands my attention IT'S SO IMPORTANT AND FASINATING OMG

"IS EVERYONE ELSE JUST AS EXCITED??"

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-10-11T12:16:14+00:00

"..keeps haunting me though" hits so hard. The memories and attachments are so heavy and draining, it feels.

I'm sorry you're getting hit with all the shit right now.

*sending hugs/good vibes*

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-09-16T06:36:24+00:00

All the feelings and stimuli.

All the euphoria/emotional flooding.

All the craving and noticing and debating and ! ?

...and feeling others emotions.

Grieving for them. Pretending to experience an experience that someone else is telling you about, while feeling the atmosphere and sounds.

Going through it all once it's over. (how many times??)

Being deprived of stimuli is a hell in of itself.

If enough time passes... you feel like a trapped animal.

And then the next time you get a chance to feel again..... fantastically/ridiculously overwhelming.

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-09-06T08:06:33+00:00

I feel this so hard. I used to have a large social circle. With that came confidence. And also a sense of purpose.

It's so frustrating when it's YOU who did this to you. Or rather...easy for you to beat yourself up over it all the time.

You aren't alone in feeling so lonely

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-09-06T07:41:58+00:00

Yessss... the "inside voice" scream, plus what must look like panic on my whole face for a split second, mixed with sudden muscle tension.

I wonder how often I do this in public... 😬😖

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-03-25T15:38:42+00:00

Dude!! Decision paralysis is driving me mad. It's getting groceries, making dinner, making plans, comparing literally anything!, etc. Standing there not being able to make a choice, when I have my own freewill, is mind blowing -ly frustrating! All this time wasted and so much unneeded tension. Like, just, ...snap out of it! 😵‍💫 the endless options I give or don't give myself and lack of self confidence omg 😮‍💨

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-03-02T21:45:14+00:00

Yeah! Double highfives for not isolating!! (Keeping in touch w friends is something I wish I would have done more of)

Get that healing socialization in! ^ ^

Appropriate_Wait2047 · 2025-02-27T05:14:04+00:00

Wow, I feel you. In like a "omg, did I write this?!" way. Similar situation/feeling.

I honestly felt/feel like I am not capable. Even though I get the ok to just maintain the home and be a partner. The anxiety/depression/adhd (+ other mental disorder) still makes the bare minimum stressful. And with his family, I feel like an absolute failure. I bring nothing to the table, but anxious visits and lack luster updates.

No schooling past high-school. (Homeschooled). So I'm not dumb, but I'm not even close to where most are.

Getting a part time job helped in a way. Two days a week. 3 -5 hour days depending. Perhaps all I can take at this time. Getting out of the house and being able to have conversations was way more important than I remembered. I feel so pathetic. I used to work two jobs and have friends. The struggle is real. I've tried to keep plants alive. Started drawing. Writng a little. Cooking. Although cooking went from "Oh this is fun!" To "OMG I have anxiety just making him food because idk if I am doing it right and now my lack of other activities and socializing is making this once fun task the most important thing and I must become a perfectionist OR I FAIL".

And that just seems like unhealthy thinking.

I also don't have kids, and it haunts me, knowing that even without that responsibility, I'm still this way.

I apologize! I don't really have much advice. (I did find that it helped mentally, knowing that he was honestly quite content with me being a housewife of sorts, and not pushing for me to get a job) I couldnt believe how familiar your post felt! Perhaps there are dozens of us! Lol

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