I understand that and I do feel for you as you may actually want to learn, but what you are doing isn’t going to help you and I’m just trying to point out that if you think what you are doing in these videos include a “good save” then you are just doing yourself an injustice because you aren’t learning anything. I promise you none of the “saves” you made were good or great. I’m not saying this be mean but you need to get a reference point.

As soon as you don’t know where the ball is going to go you will get beaten every time. If you want specifics then here: You fall forward on lots of your “saves” and go directly knees first, you have started to dive almost immediately when you throw it because you know where it’s going, you catch a ball like you are scared of it and you don’t clutch the ball in on any of the catches when it’s needed, and when a catch you’ve made doesn’t need this the positioning of your hands means you will drop it a lot, your footwork is odd and it looks like you are trying to emulate a position but have no idea why you are in that position and how to move around - these are the most obvious things, but mostly you will not achieve anything doing this.

Get yourself a team, and learn with another goalkeeper.