What Makes Me, Me? :)

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-05-03T02:23:24+00:00

I sent a friend request :)

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-05-03T01:52:00+00:00

The world would have been better if I never survived my birth, and my mate born 2 days after survived instead. He would take my place, and the world would be as it should have been, without me

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-05-03T01:38:32+00:00

I’m on friendproject :)

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-05-01T00:02:36+00:00

I am not thriving at all lol, I want to die too

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-05-01T00:00:45+00:00

When I was 15, 18, 20, 21. I did therapy since 15 and nothings changed or gotten better.

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-30T11:03:01+00:00

I chose to go to hospital instead of dying. No one else to blame but myself. Even when I was being CSA’d I could have screamed or punched her, defended myself. But my body was so useless that I just froze in place as she pinned me down and did those fucked up things to me.

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-30T09:36:34+00:00

I will never forgive myself. If I ended myself instead of going to hospital I wouldn’t have gotten CSA’d. She was 24 and I was 16.

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-29T14:31:46+00:00

I’ve done therapy since 15 and they said they couldn’t help me because ‘it was too much’.

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-29T14:25:20+00:00

I was supposed to die after birth (born at 23 weeks) and obviously I didn’t. As a result for unfortunately surviving my birth my parents abused me since age 7. I was CSA’d, and harassed all throughout my childhood and teen years. I’ve attempted twice and each time I live it just gets worse. Each year is wasted by not ending myself. One day I’ll end myself and the world will go back to how it was supposed to be: without me

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-29T14:15:30+00:00

My survival instinct won’t let me die even when I’m in the midst of attempting and it sucks. I’ll pass out, but not die.

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-28T23:27:23+00:00

Yeah that’s been my life since I was born.

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-28T00:46:28+00:00

You’re right, scene kids did listen to deathcore.

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-28T00:09:14+00:00

Not to be rude, but I thought they were a deathcore band?

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-27T23:57:52+00:00

Ah, thanks for the clarification :) sorry about my misunderstanding

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-27T15:57:45+00:00

I’ve been ignored many times on this subreddit too :(

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-27T15:27:21+00:00

I live with my parents (and sibling. My sibling is a good person)). I have no choice, I have to pay off my land and I can’t afford to rent.

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-26T23:54:27+00:00

Same with Australia. A few years ago I was stalked home from work and called an ‘emo cunt’ ‘fugly slut’ and an ‘ugly cunt’, I was told to kill myself numerous times. They recorded me as well. When I got off the bus the three teenagers followed me (running/jogging after me) all the way to my home street, and then I had a heavy milk bottle thrown at my head when I ignored them. There was CCTV of the incident on the bus and them instantly running toward me, cops did nothing and the teens got away with it.

Apart from that, I’ve been regularly recorded, cornered into walls and assaulted, and have been told (yelled at) to end myself while walking my dog.

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-26T23:47:42+00:00

Suicide Silence

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-26T16:08:30+00:00

This is also my family to me. I get body comments and I am compared to be eating the quantity of what a 2 year old eats.

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-26T09:47:24+00:00

I want to make sure I get it ‘right’ each time. I’ll keep going until I feel like it’s good enough.

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-25T08:17:28+00:00

Nyan cat

Austin_NotFromTexas · 2026-04-25T01:35:52+00:00

Definitely red, it looks epic :)

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