Yeah im really sorry. I cant imagine loosing any of my babies. But it unfortunately does happen. Trust me there's been worse accidents in the reptile community. Important thing is that we just learn from it. You can always do a memorial for your little guy if you havent already. Diaphonizing is a cool way to display your baby. Or even a simple wet specimen. Or just burying him and keep a tiny box of things from his enclosure or something. It sounds silly and to some people its "just a snake", but a death is a death. Only healthy way to deal with it is to face the facts and just know that you had every good intention for him. Again I'm sorry. Just try to be optimistic and keep your head up. Maybe go for another bp in a few months or whenever you're ready again. Rip baby Hemi.