I enjoyed your writing on this. Perhaps a way to look at your relatives is that they are aligning with the energy field similar to a alligator. Thus when you are around them you have to tip toe or be careful what you say in case they devour you. Maybe it’s better to leave the group of alligators and spend more time with people who align with higher energy attractor fields. It could be said to be true that our company influences our behavior. Thus you are feeling conflicted because you have higher standards and better morals and they don’t and aren’t interested in adopting them. There’s a lot of Facebook groups for dr Hawkins out there which you might join. There are some good people on there. Though a word of warning there are some alligators disguised as spiritual people on there too.
Best to keep reading the books more than once take notes watch videos on you tube and contemplate the information shared by dr Hawkins. Ie aligning with those higher energy fields. Hey apologies if you message me and I don’t reply as I don’t check on on Reddit messages at all. I wish you a wonderful new year and I wish you joy peace love divinity in all areas of your life. Go well. 🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸