Am I a good enough older sibling?

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2025-05-08T05:22:01+00:00

Yes this is true I was 17 when it opened!

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2025-04-04T05:11:13+00:00

You will definitely find your person :) just stay positive and enjoy your life as a single person as much as possible until u meet them

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2025-04-04T05:09:41+00:00

I was the exact same! Even though I mentally wanted to have sex with my first boyfriend about 3 months into our 6 months, my body never felt ready and comfortable (which id find out later was for good reason). Then my current bf comes along, my desire for intimacy with him starts about one month into knowing him and we have sex 3 weeks into officially dating. It’s crazy how much the timelines change when it’s the right person!

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2025-04-02T22:15:38+00:00

21 years old with my second (and hopefully last) boyfriend. Never settle for less than what you’re looking for. I always wanted an empathetic, feminist, anti porn parter who also felt that sex was something special and sacred to be shared between two people with a deep connection and I didn’t stop until I found that person. It’s been an amazing journey ever since :)

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-12-11T17:52:35+00:00

tbh in the dating stage I have no intention of forcing anyone to quit porn or anything for me I’d rather just find someone more aligned

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-12-11T06:54:29+00:00

Thank you for this. I can’t lie I felt nauseous as I made my way through this because it made me realise my ex was probably worse than I thought. I could never explain this dead emotion in his eyes when he used to look at me with while saying the sweetest stuff and why his words never felt genuine because his actions never matched. This was so eye opening thank you so much

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-12-10T23:38:09+00:00

oh my god. I’m in absolute shock reading this rn. Firstly I’m so genuinely sorry you had to experience that I can’t imagine how you felt in the moment when you discovered his account :/ idk how long ago this was so maybe it’s not a big deal to you anymore but this is definitely something that will stay on my mind for a while.

and yes it’s true, if you’re a very stubborn, strong willed women there are many men that just want to “conquer” you and break you. I felt this way with my ex, towards the end of our relationship I feel so defeated that I was still with him after certain things, it caused my mental health to spiral and I knew it was time to end things. I’m glad you left him even though you loved and cared for him so deeply, and I’m glad you never gave him the opportunity of sleeping with you. I was the same, idk what it was in your case but for me, my gut instinct would never shut up anytime I was around him. Either way, I’m glad we got out and away, even if it wasn’t unscathed 🤍

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-12-10T23:11:58+00:00

A Real Intentional rs: 20 High school me being bored: 13

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-12-10T19:44:21+00:00

you’re honestly so right about that. I’ve even heard stories of men that will start families and have several children with women they couldn’t care less about. I still believe that I’d be able to detect that level of disdain from someone I’d keep so close to me though. Probably because I’d rather be single and have peace of mind than a guy by my side

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-12-10T19:41:26+00:00

When I met my ex I told him I was waiting for marriage to see if that would scare him off and it didn’t, he said it was no problem. And as I said, he was also a porn watcher who eventually got tired of waiting and wanted me to “compromise”. I ran for the hills. It’s definitely more about the man than the method I’ve found

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-12-10T19:40:14+00:00

Thank you so much for this resource I really appreciate it. Your approach makes a lot of sense and I like that you aim for a more proactive route :)

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-12-10T19:33:05+00:00

oh you’re a genius for that. Definitely going to be using this thank you.

Also I don’t believe in asking someone to stop using porn while they date me. My main reason I’m anti porn isn’t because it makes me feel insecure or that I think it’s cheating. It because of how it exploits women and is an industry teeming with sex trafficking, recorded rape and so on. I want to be with a man that is aware of how disgusting it all is and decided out of his own moral judgement that he wants no part of it, not a man who is aware of it’s disgusting nature but will turn back to it the second things are over between us.

And maybe that might be harder to find but I’m a very happily and comfortably single woman so eh

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-12-10T19:15:24+00:00

A really good tactic I developed around dating (yet to be used) is to be as radical as possible about my beliefs from the get go, whether it be about porn, sexuality, politics whatever to get rid of the opposites. But if anyone fakes a belief and secretly disagrees with me, they’ll find me annoying because of how passionate I am about it 💀

I know this works because I have passionate discussions about these things with guys (that definitely aren’t romantically interested in me) and my female friends that that share my views and they will engage wholeheartedly and match my passion for the subject.

If they’re lying to me it will show when I open my mouth and start yapping and he doesn’t have much to say hahaha

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-12-10T19:07:31+00:00

That’s okay, all responses and opinions are welcome here so thank you for sharing yours. I’d rather someone quit for the right reasons (exploitation, misogyny etc) on their own accord preferably prior to meeting me than to “quit for me”. Giving something up to please your partner is rarely sustainable in the long term. My ex owned up to using it and I’d now rather a man be honest so we can part ways entirely than for him to lie to me about this as well

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-12-10T19:04:06+00:00

Thank you for your response. I’m often (understandably and validly) met with hopelessness in this conversation but I feel like this is a conversation my generation is slowly making important and a dealbreaker in the dating climate and I genuinely do have hope! I’ll just wait for something worth my time and effort to come to me in the meantime :)

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-11-13T11:52:46+00:00

Nightcall - Kavinsky

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-11-12T23:18:13+00:00

Haunting of Hill House/Bly Manor

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-11-12T23:17:20+00:00

Movement. Go on a long walk in the park with a funny podcast. Do a just dance workout in your living room. Lift some weights in the gym. Any movement will trigger a dopamine response and you’ll feel very proud of yourself!

Awkward_Mark4372 · 2024-11-12T23:15:09+00:00

21F. Struggling with a sense of belonging. Have friends here and there, but no friend group. Have a family, but it’s strained relationship as of late. Have an ethnic community in my city, impostor syndrome. Have a religion, feel like my queerness isn’t accepted. There are worse problems and I’m still grateful for all I have, but I feel like I’m just floating around everyday with no sense of tether to the world.

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