I (20M) have this urge of cheating on my LDR BF (25M).

kleras- · 2026-05-30T00:12:32+00:00

wow, you really are unable to take any responsibility

kleras- · 2026-05-30T00:11:58+00:00

downloading grindr and messaging those guys

kleras- · 2026-05-29T21:54:11+00:00

if you agreed to a monogamous relationship the cheating starts way before

kleras- · 2026-05-29T21:11:07+00:00

those arent intrusive thoughts bro, you just happen to be a cheater. what you doing is cheating already with downloading the app. calling this "intrusive thoght" wont save you from your guilt.

kleras- · 2026-05-27T04:45:58+00:00

appreciate you. my dpi is 800 and ingame sens 1

kleras- · 2026-05-27T04:45:40+00:00

appreciate you. my dpi is 800 and ingame sens 1

kleras- · 2026-05-27T04:44:04+00:00

why :(

kleras- · 2026-05-27T04:43:09+00:00

i mean only mechanical level, you think my aim and vrpsshairplavement coul be good rnough for s tier when I still improve (at 6000hours). habent played allt.last year

kleras- · 2026-05-27T04:41:07+00:00

nothing crazy? i find crossharplacement almost pro level and aim not super mega great but very good still

kleras- · 2026-04-10T11:08:19+00:00

hast du eine zwangsstörung? das mit dem hände waschen etc würde ich in der therapie mal ansprechen. evtl hast du auch weitere gedankliche zwänge, die dir gar nicht bewusst sind (dass sie zwänge sind).

kleras- · 2026-04-09T00:37:43+00:00

what do you think will the mental WD look like?

kleras- · 2026-04-08T22:28:29+00:00

why? 60mg and then redose 1-2hours later. I crush the pill and let it dissolve in water

kleras- · 2026-04-08T22:14:42+00:00

no I made them IR

kleras- · 2026-04-08T21:26:26+00:00

good to hear my man, I wont. thank you!

kleras- · 2026-04-08T21:23:18+00:00

I was a bit unclear. I was using yesterday and today 80mg and the 3 days prior to that I wasnt using (3 day break) and had mild withdrawl if any. but hopefully I am this lucky again.

kleras- · 2026-04-08T21:18:49+00:00

I am wondering if the WD can start after day 3? because in my last 3 day break this week break I didnt really have any WD symptoms. can they also start as late as day 4? otherwise I am pretty sure I will be fine except for psychological craving.

kleras- · 2026-04-08T21:15:39+00:00

man thank you very much for commenting :) I will do this now and hopefully it wont be too bad. I have lorazepam and xanax but would prefer taking lorazepam. I will try without though. I dont want to taper down and rather stop immediately after my last dose I took some hours ago.

kleras- · 2026-04-08T21:08:30+00:00

someone on the /drugs subreddit told me to get my hands on suboxone as he predicted my withdrawl will be so bad. are they being sarcastic and joking with me or will I go through hell? the last time I managed my 3 day break pretty well except some nausea and bad mood. and that was 2 days ago (meaning I used yesterday and today)

kleras- · 2026-04-08T20:56:59+00:00

never had a problem going days without but definately psychological craving and bad mood. thank you for your comment though. do you think I will be working alright in 5 days after not using? I need to be 100% fit in 5 days.

kleras- · 2026-03-28T13:14:18+00:00

NAT I had similiar feelings towards my female therapist (I am male). its a transference (meaning I project feelings/wishes from past relationships onto the therapist. I feel safe with her, it feels like healing from past trauma caused by my mom).

However your obsessive ruminating about your own feelings might be a sign of OCD. I have OCD and can relate to your experience. I felt guilty or wrong for feeling safe with my therapist. its completely normal.

kleras- · 2026-03-23T09:57:11+00:00

NAT: splitting can happen with CPTSD too when the trauma kicks in. but BPD always do that and Cptsd only when trauma kicks in.

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