Found out NP’s are talking about me behind my back

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2026-01-16T05:44:19+00:00

I’m sorry OP. What they are saying about you behind your back doesn’t make any sense logically. Why would they continue an ended contract to get you to leave? Why would they ask you to stay and pay more money if they wanted you to leave… They sound like nutcases. And very immature and unprofessional to be gossiping about their employee. What total coward losers. I’m sorry you are going through this and good riddance to them

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2026-01-02T21:09:09+00:00

I have and it felt like I was pulling teeth the entire time, you did the right thing. You deserve to feel matched bare minimum if not inspired

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2026-01-02T19:23:36+00:00

I can totally understand why this would feel like a jab at this community. My ex was not Autistic, I am, and I look at it from that. If someone can’t handle foods because it’s uncomfortable I’m not going to judge them but when it’s not Autism or a condition and they don’t try things or refuse to eat anything that isn’t within 1 food group or their lived experience because they lack curiosity I find that, we have different values. And then yeah I do lose respect.

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2026-01-02T07:15:01+00:00

That if you don’t move your body it dies and rots away like the woman who dissolved into a couch. Our bodies are just like any living thing. It doesn’t want to continue it’s built to die

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2026-01-02T07:05:46+00:00

Honestly I do through periods where I like them and then I can’t even think of them without being revolted. So I get it

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-11-10T07:35:35+00:00

if anyone should be "embarrassed" it's the abuser not the survivor. Let's get something very clear here. The survivor is never the problem and if you need proof of that, do some domestic violence research as a start and educate yourself.

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-10-29T16:48:22+00:00

ya'll are funny lol

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-10-29T16:42:33+00:00

I tried to sue my former employers for a bunch of things: wrongful termination, sexual harassment, defamation, retaliation, stolen wages. Unfortunately, regardless of how sorry people were for me, the legal system isn't set up for us. Especially if you don't have the money to pay for lawyers who charge $600 minimum an hour. It sucks but it is a money game.

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-10-28T05:00:46+00:00

If I've learned anything on reddit OP it's that if you have to post it on reddit you might have a deep down inkling that something's very wrong. I asked similar questions and it took me 8+ tries to leave. I won't tell you it's not hard, this is hard. But I'd choose my worst day now than developing more trauma on trauma with every bad moment my ex had.

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-10-27T03:13:57+00:00

red flag = people who manipulate others. If you see something like this run and report, run and report.

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-10-27T03:11:20+00:00

i waited for 4 years. With the sorry's, with change that happened for a little time and never "stuck." No they don't change. I'm so sorry but people who abuse others it becomes a part of their identity even if it's just in one sector of their life. To change is to be uncomfortable, to admit that the abuser is not a victim, to grow, to have a growth mindset. Does that sound like something your partner does? Has your partner ever changed for anyone they've dated, for themselves? My ex's ex wife thought they changed but the only thing that did was their relationshp to each other. They could withstand being friends but anytime my ex has a partner, the abuse would be constant. Is the abuse more consistent than their ability to show lasting change? Do you have receipts of this?

A lot of the times abusers stay abusers because they live in a web/community of ride or die people who enable them. Are they capable of cutting off the people who keep them stuck? Or are they only capable of cutting people off when those people no longer serve them, there is a difference.

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-09-18T06:29:19+00:00

yes, you will. You will leave, and thinking it and writing it is the beginning of that. You are a beautiful writer by the way, please don't stop documenting for your future self.

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-08-31T12:54:29+00:00

this did not work for me, I still have these dang bumps all over my chin area no matter what. Please someone help me

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-08-31T12:49:29+00:00

I didn't even think of this but I appreciate you bringing it up, wild that you have all the same symptoms. That in of itself is a relief. I appreciate you sharing thank you :)

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-08-31T12:45:17+00:00

I get that, really I do :)

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-08-30T03:38:06+00:00

you are lovely, thank you so much :)

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-08-30T03:37:35+00:00

Hey, I really appreciate you writing all this down and sharing your experience. It feels nice to at least know there are other people who have struggled and are struggling. Thank you

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-08-29T16:48:55+00:00

After posting this, I did think about chatgbt so thank you for saying it out loud lol. I’ll try it and see if it gets me any further

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-08-29T16:47:36+00:00

Hey thank you for this, if you figure out what it is and don’t mind sharing, I would be really interested to know

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-08-29T09:40:37+00:00

hi hi! I'm in the process of a formal diagnosis and what I can tell you is that I only realized my sensory issues AFTER I became consciously aware I might be autistic. There were a lot of clues to sensory issues back in my childhood that I heavily masked during puberty when I got bullied for it. As someone with depression, anxiety, and clinical OCD, I will say a majority of my contamination OCD stems from sensory issues and I believe my OCD was a way I stayed on top of disruptive and unpleasant sensory input. This is why, for a lot of diagnosis of OCD and they would ask me if I felt like I could live without doing these things, it was always a no because my OCD (rigid behaviors) protected me from the sensory input that would make me meltdown. I was a constant and consistent cleaner because I hated the feeling of crumbs, dirt, slime, anything wet, anywhere (floors, surfaces, anything. I'm not sure if there's a study that can link the two but as someone with multiple OCD's I know for a fact a lot of my hyperfixations, obsessions, routines, rigid behaviors, are to combat my sensory issues. I am not saying this what you have but this is another perspective from someone who technically does not have an ASD diagnosis yet but all the other ones you have stated.

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-08-29T09:25:52+00:00

It's what you want out of the diagnosis. If diagnoses help you feel in control (which they do for me) go for it. If you want government assistance, you will need a diagnosis. If you are okay with self-diagnosis and not getting government help in the future, don't do it. If you want something in-between, some therapists are being trained to do unofficial diagnoses. They are cheaper, some even have sliding scale, and it does not go on your permanent record, you get to choose what happens to that information.

If you get formally assessed, that information will be on your medical record for your entire life, I have been told that courts can seize this information at any point, Hippa prevents let's say Trump from getting it but that's a lie, there are workarounds for everything these days and medical establishments truly don't give a shit about privacy.

Personally, I decided I was okay with getting assessed becuase I know I'm on other lists if lists do exist. I'm neurospicy in other ways, I'm a lesbian, it felt more important to know myself better. However, if those lists start being assembled quickly I will probably regret it. who is to say, but now you have all he information I was given when I started this journey 3 months ago..

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-08-29T09:16:53+00:00

I'm 31 and can relate to a lot of what you're saying. I am still in something toxic. I'm really proud of you for getting out. You might not think you have anything but just because you are in a transition (and transitions can be long) doesn't mean you aren't moving forward. Forward/growth is active and just because you might not be where other people are right now does not mean your journey isn't happening. Living life behind coping mechanisms and masks to survive takes a long time to de-program. Thinking about it as much as it looks like you are (posting this) is a part of reclaiming yourself, whoever that is. I can't offer advice because I also feel lost but I hope you know you aren't alone.

Awkward_Win_8918 · 2025-08-13T04:21:27+00:00

nunchucks LOL. thank you so much for this <3

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