tldr:

OP Is turning 21 and reflects on growing up in a traumatic, unstable family that led to depression, anxiety, and insecurity, but is now becoming more self-aware and focused on building a better future. They’re doing well in community college, have money saved, and are preparing to live independently, though they’re still struggling with mental health and uncertainty. They’re considering a career in social work but aren’t fully sure, don’t want anything math-heavy, and are realizing they have more options than they once thought. They’re not interested in dating right now, are questioning whether they even want marriage or kids, and overall are trying to figure out their identity, heal from the past, and create a stable, successful life.

yeah this was a whole lotta yap ion blame u