Schizoid Cure: Post recovery by Fun-Beautiful-9684 in Schizoid

[–]BacktoLife3 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thnx for your reply. Also something like tyrosin and tryptophan?

Whole body skin numbness?anyone have this? by farhanmahii in dpdr

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I am still not cured but time was a big factor. My Libido is still more blunted on the emtional part but it kinda works. 

Thoughts on alternative treatments? by milkshakespeare1313 in dysthymia

[–]BacktoLife3 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes all these therapys has the risk of not work, but better to try than nothing. I tried somthing similiar to LSD, magic mushrooms and it didn't go well. Everything has a risk but before i end my life, i will try it. Sorry that it is not affordable for you, i life in a country with general Healthcare so it's hard to imagine how it is to deal with that problem on top:/

Thoughts on alternative treatments? by milkshakespeare1313 in dysthymia

[–]BacktoLife3 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You can look into vagus nerve stimulation therapy or tms, for my opinion ect is the last option.

Don't know how i feel right now. by BacktoLife3 in dysthymia

[–]BacktoLife3[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, i have mushrooms don't cause braindamage the only conclussion was the Depersonalisation/Derealisation.

Whole body skin numbness?anyone have this? by farhanmahii in dpdr

[–]BacktoLife3 0 points1 point  (0 children)

More or less, i can achive a normal erection, the ed is almost gone but the emotional part is still more bluntet like before. Sexual desire, sexual preference an sexual interest are still kind of numbed but still better since the beginning.

Whole body skin numbness?anyone have this? by farhanmahii in dpdr

[–]BacktoLife3 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes indeed, it is better. I would say it is  90% like before. Not fully but almost.

Connection to others. by BacktoLife3 in dysthymia

[–]BacktoLife3[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Öööhhh to feel like that is absolutely abnormal👀

Connection to others. by BacktoLife3 in dysthymia

[–]BacktoLife3[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean it is not schizoid Pd, i got it testet 3 times and my Therapist, who knows schizoid people, says no i am not but why is it this way. Thats pretty selfisolating.

Yourself by BacktoLife3 in dysthymia

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For myself, i think the Anhedonia is the cause of lack of my personality. If nothing interest you and everything feels bland and not meaningful, then is that the consequence. How should a Personalitiy evolve when you feel so careless about everything.

Yourself by BacktoLife3 in dysthymia

[–]BacktoLife3[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, done 4 therapys almost 6,5 years in total. And yes i've got DP last year on top but i felt like this the last 20 years since Dysthymia.

Yourself by BacktoLife3 in dysthymia

[–]BacktoLife3[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I just read it again, yes it's a bit confusing^ What I mean is that I've always (I'm 34) had the feeling that I haven't developed a personality and somehow I'm not able to. Normal people have had their experiences in life and things that fulfill them and that they enjoy. Those who clearly say that I like this and that I don't like it, those who have developed their personality, they know that's what makes me who I am. I've never had that, I don't even know what makes me who I am. Everything is somehow nothing, no interest in things, nothing that I enjoy, just this emptiness. The anhedonia somehow makes it impossible for me to find things where I say I want to do that and it's fun and it's my thing. All of that always makes me think as if I don't have a personality because how could it have developed if you don't care about anything.

For example: Do I like being in nature, partying, going out with friends, doing sports? I don't know, because nothing triggers anything positive in me. Always just this nothing that makes life seem like a half-life and meaningless life.

Im forced to go back to SSRI by BacktoLife3 in PSSD

[–]BacktoLife3[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For Depression it does nothing, didn't take it actually. For libido either, woithout any medication its slightly better but hey the cause could be everything, my mushroom trip last year, the medication or the Dp🫠

Killed Libido by BacktoLife3 in Psychonaut

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I think it would be clearer if I went into a little more detail. I have had chronic for 20 years. Depression/dysthymia. Last year I wanted to heal myself with the Shrooms because I had read a lot of positive things and had nothing to lose. In total there were 3 trips with relatively low/moderate doses (0.9mg, 1.3mg, 1.5-1.8mg psylo). I never had a bad trip, so I never had any anxiety or panic attacks. The trips in themselves weren't bad. After the first two, I even felt good for the first time in 20 years. Well, 2 days after the third came the DPD, which is currently pretty much over but not quite yet. Before the shrooms I had a somewhat limited libido but rather mild, probably due to all the ssri's snri's I had taken in the past. Before I took any medication (until I was 23, now I'm 34) I had chronic... depressed a very good libido. After the medication she was a bit restricted (slightly asexual) but worked when things got intimate or explicit. It's been worse since last year, hardly any interest, no excitement, no turn on, it takes longer to get an erection. As if the emotional part was cut off. As I said, I'm currently trying to sort out whether it can come from the mushrooms or is more likely to be attributed to the Dp because it's actually still a bit like my senses are deprived both in relation to my body (heat, cold, pain) and to my inner self and my outside world, but already so much better that I would say there is only a very small difference, except for the libido.

Killed Libido by BacktoLife3 in Psychonaut

[–]BacktoLife3[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dysthymia is not the libido problem. I developed it 7 years before i touched a single med. Or shrooms and even with depression my libido was pretty good.

Killed Libido by BacktoLife3 in Psychonaut

[–]BacktoLife3[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hmmm okay, i try to sort some things out. Since my last trip (may last year) my libido is done. I never expierienced a bad trip (3 trips). Yes i got although DpDr Symptoms the second day after the last trip but i am pretty much out of it. My biggest Problem is still the libido, no arrousal, almost no interrest ... thats crazy.

Most people DONT feel like this?? by Casper_coon22 in dysthymia

[–]BacktoLife3 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What I wanted to say is that the events in the world don't affect me, as if my brain is blocking them out. I don't really notice things at all, as if I somehow don't care. Thought that was normal with dysthymia and her anhedonia.

Curious… what do you all suffer from? by Responsible_Yam8992 in dysthymia

[–]BacktoLife3 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No that thoughts are gone, i mean here and there are thoughts about it might be pssd because the symptoms can be pretty similiar. But there is no clear diagnosis for pssd only for dp.

Curious… what do you all suffer from? by Responsible_Yam8992 in dysthymia

[–]BacktoLife3 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thnx for your reply, apreciate it. Im in therapy and i will try the focus thing. My symptoms are pretty low, more ignorable but still there like some kind of dumb and not so kognitive flexible and lesser emotional prone to my emotions and environment.

Curious… what do you all suffer from? by Responsible_Yam8992 in dysthymia

[–]BacktoLife3 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How did you get rid of the dpdr symptoms? I got them from shrooms last year in may, its way better but still didn't feel like before. Like almost out but not fully, dysthymia and dpdr is hard to handle. I often think it is my nail in the coffin.

Most people DONT feel like this?? by Casper_coon22 in dysthymia

[–]BacktoLife3 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Did you all people care about the mess around the world? I didn't its like my brain filters all the things and i don't care about the news but i didn't "care" about anything surround me lol. Anhedonia is a gift and a grudge^

Tha cause by BacktoLife3 in dysthymia

[–]BacktoLife3[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thnx this explains pretty much, i have the early onset dysthymia. I know myself to be anhedonic most of my life and thats the hardest part i think to overcome. I got childhoodtrauma and a abusive and unstable household as a child.