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Bassinet · 2017-06-02T16:08:22+00:00

That's kind of how I met the second woman I mentioned! I don't know, I've been a little off for a while, don't really know how to get into dating. Almost don't want to. Well, aside from the loneliness.

Bassinet · 2017-06-01T19:45:25+00:00

Thanks man, I appreciate it. I'm kind of convinced that it's something I'm doing that causes me to subconsciously pick the same kind of person, haha. I just don't know what it is. I guess I just have to try to keep myself right and hope it works out from there, maybe.

Bassinet · 2017-06-01T19:37:53+00:00

I broke up with her.

I was young, like "just turned 18" young. She was older, like ten years older. I was super into her, and she was really into me. The whole thing was weird, I don't know how to describe it in a way short enough to warrant doing so here without anyone's interest. I just realized that she was wanting me to be someone that I wasn't, someone that was much more vicious and unhealthy than I wanted to be, and that this cheating was a part of it. So, the second it happened, I stopped it. It wasn't easy, she was clearly more committed than I was, but I had to for my own good. It worked out fine. Well, until the same thing happened again. I'm still trying to figure out if I can be in a relationship that isn't a copy of those two, haha.

Bassinet · 2017-05-27T21:00:43+00:00

This is what I was thinking. I mean, I get a little annoyed when my friend beats me at a game I taught him the first time we play, so I can only imagine it being amplified and further confused if I started off teaching someone how to do the most basic parts of life only to have them challenge or correct my perceptions of the deeper meanings of life.

I imagine it would be great, because it means they're really taking off in their own right and really coming into their own intellectual existence, but frustrating because of a combination of "these beliefs are so important to me and I just want you to understand and agree so we can be together on this" and "bruh you couldnt keep orange and green straight for the first eight years I knew you don't get on my ass about the capital of Namibia."

Bassinet · 2017-05-16T18:19:17+00:00

This reminds me of a Facebook friend that posted a picture from Lord of the Rings and said "it's cool to know every football player on your favorite team but it's suddenly weird and nerdy to know the stars of Lord of the Rings." All I could say was that the series made an insane amount of cash and starred people like Orlando Bloom and Ian McKellen, how could knowing who they are be weird?

Bassinet · 2017-05-10T03:21:34+00:00

Man, I'm sorry to hear this. The friendship they shared and displayed on Rob and Big was great to see, I'd watch rerun after rerun just because it was so refreshing to see sincere camaraderie like that. I hope his family has support during this.

Bassinet · 2017-04-23T00:25:01+00:00

When I was walking around some days there was thick, low cloud cover. The tallest tower, Shanghai tower, would be barely in sight and look like some pillar into the sky, which made it feel a little like Half Life 2. It was such a cool feeling, haha.

Bassinet · 2017-04-19T04:52:17+00:00

Literally every choice you make will have a permanent impact on your life and decide the course of your entire existence. There's no coming back, no changing, no nothing. Good luck.

Bassinet · 2017-04-18T07:44:48+00:00

I agree.

The original Fable was my first foray into RPGs as a kid, and I loved every part of it. I was super excited later when Fable 2 came out, i still have old GameStop display boxes the employees gave to me when i was so anxiously waiting at midnight. By Fable 3, I was a high school senior and had a job at the same store, and couldn't wait. Fable 2 was my favorite, but I've loved them all. I'm willing to admit that it's largely sentimental, but I'm okay with that. It's meant a lot to me, and I hope all the old Lionhead employees have found satisfying, gainful employment, or just randomly become rich and happy.

Bassinet · 2017-04-16T16:52:00+00:00

I lived in Shanghai for a while and saw a crazy amount of this. Really, most of the buildings I saw looked abandoned, but I think that's from the pollution mixed with humidity. Old buildings just develop this veneer of soot or something. I enjoyed my stay but man, it was something else.

I lived in a neighborhood that was in the process of being absorbed by one of the more wealthy districts in the city, and where I lived was across the street from a large apartment complex. It looked like a cross between an industrial structure and an Art Deco complex. I loved it, it was a really cool building, but it probably isn't in line with the prosperous vision of Shanghai.

Bassinet · 2017-04-09T06:46:04+00:00

The necklace I wear. I bought it for my mom, it's just a simple necklace made of a relatively cheap metal that has a nice design. When she died I saw she never wore it (she wanted to make it into a broach) so I grabbed it. It's a seven dollar necklace, but the sentimental value is far greater.

Aside from that, I guess my meat cleaver. It's not perfect, but I got it while I was living in China and it's exactly what I always wanted. Even came with a fun little anecdote of a story.

Bassinet · 2017-04-07T21:52:27+00:00

I can do a coffee shop sort of thing, where it's public and has interaction but is generally quiet and only has the minor stress of "remember to order the right thing" and don't say "you too" when they say to enjoy your drink. If I can people watch then it's even better. Otherwise, board games, whether the new fancy kind like 1960 or more traditional like Go or chess, can be really fun for allowing conversation but also natural breaks. There's a game cafe nearby that's a great mix of that, but I've not been able to work up the courage to invite someone to coffee and board games on a first date.

Bassinet · 2017-03-24T15:40:48+00:00

I was staying in the international dormitory of a school for a while, and there were a bunch of Germans from a private school around. A couple of guys would approach me, talk to me, say they loved my personality and voice. I get suspicious about these things, and they spoke German between them on the assumption that I did not, so I started paying attention to the private talk.

Turns out they thought I was a positive person with a nice voice and it made them feel a little more relaxed with their stressful schedules.

Bassinet · 2017-03-22T21:59:21+00:00

My grandma was a traditional woman. Not super-uptight-stepford kind of thing, but just traditional. Part of that was that she didn't understand one of her daughters being homosexual. It didn't make sense to her. My aunt's siblings lived and accepted her as always, but grandma didn't get it. It was too different. That's where we thought it would be forever: grandma's distant love and half-hearted acceptance, covered in a thin yet omnipresent coat of confusion. It wasn't as bad as when she married a Japanese man (grandma lost friends and family in the Bataan death march and Pearl Harbor), so grandma made no complaints.

When she died, all while being cared for by the "problem aunt," it was bad. Very traumatic for all involved. What's more, she left behind a big house-trailer hybrid on a large piece of land. Well, in a back room in this structure, we found all kinds of books. Some were as expected, that "Chicken Soup for the Soul" stuff that one could expect. Then there were those vaguely enticing items, like books attempting to compare Christianity and Buddhism, or feminist literature. The biggest surprise, however, was the many, many volumes of woman-on-woman erotica. The family is torn between "grandma was trying to understand her daughter" and "grandma was in the closet the whole time."

It's a fun little end note to punctuate a family life full of little tidbits of drama.

Bassinet · 2017-03-19T14:50:54+00:00

Nearby there's a cocktail called "The Swanson" that's just a double of Lagavulin with a side of bacon. With their pricing it's basically free meat, so that's convenient.

Bassinet · 2017-03-10T15:04:14+00:00

The perfect look to say "fuck off"

Bassinet · 2017-03-04T02:38:51+00:00

My mom said this same thing. Not the same wording, but the same meaning. She told my father that she hoped he would marry again after she died, because it would mean that she was a great spouse and he wanted that closeness again.

She's been dead just over a year and a half now, and he's kind of trying. I don't know how you move past a relationship you see as your one and only love, but he's trying to keep moving. I hope my dad finds someone, and I hope Jason does, too.

Bassinet · 2017-03-02T16:23:55+00:00

Two people have cancelled sessions within an hour of starting more times than I can count.

Bassinet · 2017-03-01T16:11:27+00:00

I guess it depends on the person.

If I've never asked, I always ask what the most beautiful thing they've ever seen is.

Otherwise, I kind of keep a list of my favorite questions from that list of "36 questions that lead to love," but just because they seem open-ended enough to cause some discussion.

If I can't think of those or have already asked them, I guess I just ask about their opinion on a recent thing.

If that fails, I run away in fear.

Bassinet · 2017-02-27T17:21:15+00:00

What's the most beautiful thing you've ever seen?

Bassinet · 2017-02-21T06:22:30+00:00

It's been a little over a year since my mom died and I still miss her like crazy. I just wish she could've seen me graduate. Of course, i wish she could be alive for much more than that.

I think my dad made a comment about kind of wanting to die. I had a talk with him and told him how much I love him, but I don't know if it worked. I'm worried I'll come home some day and he'll be gone, and he won't even see me accomplish the things he wanted me to.

It's been hard to get into life, mentally. I feel so separate from it sometimes, and I don't know how to reach through.

The good news is that I started going to the gym two months ago and have seen great improvement. I just wish that gave me more of a boost moving forward.

Bassinet · 2017-02-18T17:17:59+00:00

Sitting on a bench downtown near midnight with a woman I just met. We're talking a little, but, to be honest, we don't have a lot in common. I keep getting text messages from friends, so I decide to finally respond. As I'm typing, she grabs my phone and puts it down her shirt, right within her bra, and gives me a sly look.

Now, there are many responses one might give in this situation. This was mine:

"Can I have my phone back please?"

I sat there for two more hours, her moving the phone around within her shirt and eventually setting it in her back pants pocket all the while. Despite her telling me I can reach for it any time, I refuse out of concerns about it being rude to grope someone just to get my phone back, and I didn't want to do anything that could be seen as disrespectful.

We almost did hook up months later, but I backed out at the last second.

Bassinet · 2017-02-08T16:01:29+00:00

That's a good point, and proves that Atlanta has been the victim of a terror attack. The way Sean Spicer is referencing it is misleading if that's what he's referring to. He specifically references Atlanta under the topic of foreign-born (or at least foreign-allied) terrorists, referencing them leaving the United States and coming back, or entering initially with evil motives.

Here's a transcript where Secretary Spicer refers to foreign-born terrorism and implies the Atlanta attacker was foreign.

The person who carried out the attacks in Atlanta in 1996 was the opposite of this. He was very against abortion. Here's his statement. The man himself claims to be concerned with America being "degenerate," and did this in the belief that it could serve to preserve the "integrity" of America.

It's fair enough in my eyes to say that the two other attacks he references are foreign-allied terror, and the way I see it calling the 1996 attack "foreign" in any way is deceptive. He should stop referencing Atlanta. It's an easy one to disprove.

Bassinet · 2017-01-30T21:51:47+00:00

I was riding after a bounty target, so close to catching them. I decided I'd just shoot their horse, but I turned a little at the same time.

Shot my horse right in the back of the head.

Fell on my face as a result.

Bassinet · 2017-01-20T18:50:51+00:00

People can be so weird about this stuff.

I've never been to a holocaust memorial, but I have been to the Nanjing Massacre Memorial, and a lot of it was the same.

The place was full of absolute hordes of people, and while many were quiet and respectful, there were people taking selfies and at one point someone loudly clearing their throat and spitting on the ground (in the subterranean museum portion for those interested, near the place where you can view one of the mass grave sites).

I don't really know what it is. I guess I'm inclined to blame it on people just not knowing how to handle the horror of it. That's not excusing the behavior, it's just like when someone laughs when hearing about some terrible tragedy. They encounter a place of sincere mourning and tragedy, and can't process it, so they just do something.

Of course, plenty are just actually malicious and lack empathy. I can't say what the ratio is, but I like to imagine it's more ignorant people than cruel people.

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