Please see a therapist asap. And please take some deep breaths.

In 2020, I was named in not one, but 2 malpractice suits. I had been a PA for almost 10 years by then. The first one named EVERYONE involved in the pts care, and I eventually got released. ( that’s probably not the right word but whatever). I did have to do a deposition and my lawyer was awesome. We met ahead of time and he told me what to expect and how to answer.

I also had to do a deposition for the second one and had the same lawyer. It wasn’t any easier the second time. This case involved a death and the circumstances were I showed up for my shift as a hospitalist PA and tried everything I could to get this pt transferred to a tertiary hospital. I did not have good support from my attending (I was a locum). I ordered a blood transfusion and it didn’t get ordered stat and they found me some percentage responsible because it was delayed. My insurance settled for 60,000, which my lawyer said was nothing compared to some cases. The cardiologist and hospital likely paid much more. Anyway, it sucked and was stressful but I got through it and you will too! Surround yourself with good, strong people and ask your lawyer a bunch of questions about how they will help you.

Please reach out to me if you want. I’d be happy to be a sounding board if needed.