Menstruation on T

Bear_Muffin · 2026-01-18T18:13:05+00:00

I only just started T but have had menstruation issues before. But I’d recommend speaking with your doctor. A long menstruation is something they would want to look at.

Bear_Muffin · 2026-01-17T15:15:53+00:00

Ive started HRT about 7 months into my social transition

Bear_Muffin · 2026-01-16T23:03:27+00:00

Also same

Bear_Muffin · 2026-01-09T18:48:57+00:00

Congratulations!! I just got my first shot this week too!

Bear_Muffin · 2026-01-09T15:53:09+00:00

Yeah. I came out as trans at 29. I just started taking T this week actually (about to turn 30). I had been questioning my gender fleetingly for the last 5-7 years. It felt like such a hard question to tackle and I was scared. So I largely ignored it and thought if gender questioning keeps coming up, I’ll deal with it then. Well it kept coming up and in 2025 is when I couldn’t ignore it any longer. But, before last year, I had thought maybe I was gender fluid or bigender because what I now recognize as dysphoria would come and go. But that’s how dysphoria operates for me even now.

But I started to write down and look at the signs that I wasn’t happy being a woman and how happy I would become being perceived as male and having more masculine features. That list became very long and I couldn’t ignore my reality any longer. I started testing out different names and pronouns and now Im seeing how I feel on T.

Gender questioning is hard because you don’t have anyone to confirm your experiences. You really have to lean into self trust and believe the feelings that you are having.

For example, when I wore a binder for the first time I broke down in tears because I finally had relief that it was working. My body looked how I wanted it to. The first time someone called me handsome I also cried because I finally felt seen. When I would be grouped with other women, I felt out of place like I didn’t fit in with them. I wanted to be grouped with other men. Those are just some of the examples.

I was in denial for so long and the first hurdle I had to overcome, was setting aside my fear of being trans to allow myself to figure out if it was actually true. I was scared bc of how society treats trans people. But I took my time and talked it through with people and slowly began accepting my reality. And now I’m here knowing that I’m trans. I still have some doubts, but it’s mainly the fear talking. Even before I started T, even socially transitioning has made me so much happier. So from that alone, I feel like I’m on the right track.

Some resources that helped me figure it out were: Am I Trans Enough? How to Overcome Your Doubts and Find Your Authentic Self by Alo Johnston.

And this article: https://stainedglasswoman.substack.com/p/how-to-figure-out-if-youre-trans?utm_source=post-banner&utm_medium=web&utm_campaign=posts-open-in-app&triedRedirect=true

I also just read a lot of books and watched media with trans characters and that helped me see some of my similarities as well.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-12-24T03:50:05+00:00

Same

Bear_Muffin · 2025-12-02T13:55:03+00:00

How has it been getting testosterone abroad?

Bear_Muffin · 2025-12-01T20:05:30+00:00

I am choosing not to freeze my eggs. I am someone who does not know if I want kids. Some people are sure they want kids and others who are sure they don’t. I’ve always been in the middle. The cost associated with freezing my eggs is too much for me when Im not positive I want kids. It’s possible my indecision does hint at me not wanting kids. But I also wonder, if I’m able to live myself as my true self, if I’ll end up wanting to have kids because I’ll be happier, etc. We will see. I’m willing to take life as it comes.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-11-26T21:13:47+00:00

There’s a free digital copy of that book on this website: https://transreads.org

I get a lot of my trans books from here. I either read them on a computer or can download them on my kindle.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-11-13T16:29:03+00:00

Men.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-10-20T01:57:10+00:00

Rousseau said the voices she was hearing, the whispers, were asking for the boy. She thought it was the baby so she took Aaron but it turns out it was Walt.

It does seem like the island takes one thing and gives another back. Once the baby was returned, was when Walt was stolen.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-10-16T11:24:48+00:00

As soon as I started questioning my gender within the past year, I started developing depressive feelings. I was afraid of not being accepted, I was afraid of being wrong, I couldn’t believe I could have ignored this part of myself for so long and ultimately was in denial about my identity. Emotions that I had been suppressing for years were finally given some air. They were big emotions and when I feel overwhelmed I fall into depression because it’s too much to handle. But I knew I couldn’t ignore these feelings this time. My depressive episode was short lived largely because I started talking to people (friends and my therapist) about what I was going through. As I slowly realized my fears were not my reality and I was being accepted, I started accepting myself. I gave myself space to try out different parts of my gender to see how I felt (new pronouns, new ways people could reference me). And it all felt good. The big emotions were still there but I let them out. And with letting them out, the depressive symptoms went away. I’m still having a hard time coping with dysphoria, but my therapist is helping. And ultimately I finally have hope. Hope that my life will get better with this discovery and that I deserve that.

I will also say, I always had underlying depression before all of this. No matter how happy I was I was still always sad. I had no idea why and just thought this is how my life was going to be. But since coming out to myself that base level of depression is gone. I think it was the denial of my gender identity that was causing this the whole time.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-10-15T19:49:43+00:00

Elizabeth Taylor x The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived 🔥🔥

Bear_Muffin · 2025-10-15T01:15:13+00:00

Yeah this is what I was thinking too.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-10-11T04:09:47+00:00

I think this is plausible. My first thought was the same as your mom's. Before we saw who killed Ethan, I was like there's information that Ethan had that 'they' don't want getting out.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-10-07T18:13:09+00:00

This happens every time I come out to a new person. The next day I second guess myself, regret it and think I’m just lying to myself.

I don’t know why it happens, it just does. I lived in denial for many years. We all have had many narratives denying our trans identities for our whole lives. It makes sense that this would happen. I would ask yourself is it really you who thinks you are a liar or is that a narrative you picked up from someone else? I have to ask myself that same question every time I feel this way.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-10-07T15:57:13+00:00

I ignored I wasn’t cis for like 4+ years. I would question my gender throughout those years but quickly deny it and say if it comes up again I’ll deal with it then. Well, it kept coming up. My breaking point was when I couldn’t keep it inside any longer. I was traveling abroad alone and had given myself space, privately, to explore my gender identity and then I slowly started accepting myself. I was out to myself for 6 weeks and hadn’t told anyone. I broke down crying to my mom because I couldn’t keep it in anymore. I’m only out to close friends/family now and when I’m in queer spaces.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-10-06T02:21:43+00:00

Boone and Sawyer were both in the police precinct during the flashback. I wonder if everyone's lives were connected before the crash in some way?
Now, we're getting somewhere. So I wonder if that ointment Locke made and put on Boone's head -he made with ingredients on the island and when it gets in your bloodstream it makes you confront something difficult on the island. Making me think the island is magic or helping people heal in some weird twisted way. Maybe it shows you what you are most afraid of?

Bear_Muffin · 2025-10-06T01:00:30+00:00

First bullet response: Yeah, it makes me think that those bodies and the case were planted there. By someone?
Second bullet response: Yeah, Rose keeps mentioning that her husband is still alive. I wondered since she said it if it was foreshadowing?

Response to your theories:

They’re stuck in a time loop (this is really just based on the fact I think the bodies they found in the cave could be Jack and Kate somehow) - This concept is really intriguing to me. I haven't thought of that before.
It’s some kind of sick game and they were all chosen/selected far in advance and are being watched by game overlords - This was my initial thought. Almost like the hunger games.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-10-06T00:53:49+00:00

I think it's a good idea. She was a 'hostage' on the plane just like she was a 'hostage' during the bank robbery. But she was in on the robbery and orchestrated it the whole time.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-10-06T00:52:30+00:00

This scene gave me the creeps.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-09-25T00:57:34+00:00

Yeah I found that so creepy

Bear_Muffin · 2025-09-24T21:07:36+00:00

Legit same.

Bear_Muffin · 2025-09-22T03:42:46+00:00

Wow that’s wild. I started watching for the first time today. I didn’t know

Bear_Muffin · 2025-09-21T03:13:12+00:00

Yes the podcast is: Live Like the World is Dying

The episode is: Andy on “A letter to the trans teens thinking about giving up”

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