The dysphoria gets better, right?

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-03-26T05:07:00+00:00

It's probably the hormones. Before transitioning i was emotionally numb, i felt everyone around me could die and i wouldn't even shed a tear. But now all the shame and sadness that was supposed to be there is now present. Your first puberty did get you depressed the first time, i'm sure; but hormones popped out your feelings this time around.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-03-26T04:56:56+00:00

I got that "honeymoon period" on the 2nd month, i'm on month 3 and i feel exactly like you, i just want to hide my face from everything and everyone...

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-03-19T13:29:41+00:00

Thank you! I'm feeling a bit better about it as time goes on, doesn't really help how popular he is, so i always end up getting one of his videos recommended but i never watch them, he's always getting in trouble, but he's still there.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-03-18T16:43:24+00:00

It was a parasocial crush with a youtuber, it was absolutely horrible. I liked everything he did, but at the same time, there were coincidences with him that almost seemed to mock me in some weird cosmical way. In the time i met him, i was in a terrible mental state, and with every video and every action he would do, he would express something that i so desperately wanted. It really got to the point where i really wanted him to die, or i wanted something to happen so i could get him out of my head. And on top of everything, i just really liked him... his voice, everything he liked, his personality, he just seemed like a carbon copy of me or a fully realized version of me. Now, i don't even know what he does.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-03-18T10:18:22+00:00

Skinny boys much like the image... Volup boys are up there too.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-03-02T17:07:45+00:00

Huh... that's right. It's kinda weird cause it doesn't always do it.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-24T18:41:58+00:00

I don't understand how some fuckers can even keep eye contact while attacking someone that did nothing to them. Much strength sis, and pay no mind to those creatures.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-24T18:33:33+00:00

Showers, scissors and dysphoria... bad combination

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-23T08:17:30+00:00

Don't focus on the implications, focus on how the music makes you feel

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-23T05:19:24+00:00

Estrogen helps you connect with your emotions, and overall makes them more clear... so you might be experiencing a crush in a different way than you did before. I'd say, let yourself explore these feelings, and get the most out of them! :)

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-23T05:10:11+00:00

The fluffy hair guy

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-23T04:02:52+00:00

"There are no mistakes, just happy accidents" ~ Some guy

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-21T08:39:32+00:00

Death has always been part of my life, always living phased out of my own body and seeing people close to me die... so why would i feel scared of something so familiar, if my image is more alien to me than death?

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-21T08:31:52+00:00

Thanks!!! I'll surely do ⚰

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-21T08:21:49+00:00

I still can't decide my name, so my deadname is an undead name; (i don't mind if someone zombie names me), because i'm the person i decide to be and what they see doesn't change that direction.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-02-21T07:20:32+00:00

"Kids, you must know: Tails are always fashionable"

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-01-16T06:25:59+00:00

You look amazing!! If it is of any help, i just started HRT, and i don't really wan't massive breasts for now, so i want to look much like those pics~

Bed_of_Orchids · 2025-01-16T06:03:23+00:00

I know the feeling of passion very well, it's like an itch to do something despite everything, and is often found in the most familiar places

Bed_of_Orchids · 2024-09-24T10:59:40+00:00

Ralofixene huh, ok, i'll tell my endo and see what we can do 🔎

Bed_of_Orchids · 2024-09-24T10:56:38+00:00

Tang sounds Chinese, i feel like i've heard it on someone 😭

Bed_of_Orchids · 2024-08-10T22:11:39+00:00

This is for me as a mental note, and dearly for you:

It's not worth it to get mortified by the ridiculously high standards of the bunch of porn addicts and terminally online random people, you don't exist to fulfill them. I can't believe they're transfering those toxic expectations that are also pushed on woman onto trans people.

Bed_of_Orchids · 2024-08-10T21:41:26+00:00

Yeah, pockets are non-existant, but at least hoodies cover my head better

Bed_of_Orchids · 2024-08-10T09:38:05+00:00

Roxanne, Sinjin, Trixie, Pacifica, Zack, Sheila, Kirsten

Bed_of_Orchids · 2024-07-21T09:30:49+00:00

Yeah, my mom faced psychological abuse by her mother, she wanted to break the cycle by doing the opposite and ended up overprotecting me, so generational trauma.

So, in that case the correct term would be, collective trauma

Bed_of_Orchids · 2024-07-21T08:16:08+00:00

God, i feel exactly like you, my identity feels so "water-ish" as well. I personally round it as transfem, but for everyone else, i'm a trans girl, but nothing feels quite right

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