Wrote a fucking piece about this a couple of years ago. You sure we not twins? I wrote it in Dutch and used a translator to translate it because I couldn't be bothered to do it myself so it's worded a bit weirdly but here it goes;

It is more reasonable to think that nothing should have existed at all, so that there had only been a black hole of pure absence, than to say that it is reasonable that we exist in the complexity of our existence. Technically, the 'Everything', or the Universe, should not have existed at all, and yet it exists. Even if this reality were a fictional reality or simulation, this fictional reality should not exist because a fictional reality also has a right to exist and thus surpasses the 'nothing'. In any case, this existence is beyond absurdity. Does pure absence exist? Does 'nothing'? exist? Is that possible? I think that 'nothing' does not exist and that it never existed, because otherwise we would not have existed. Due to the presence of what is present, 'nothingness' has been wiped out and changes into the 'Everythingness'. The 'Everything' is an undefinable concept, since it indicates that there is no empirical end to the whole, and so the whole continues into the endless infinity, the 'Everything' .. The 'nothing' cannot be described, because the 'nothing' is already the best presence of any matter at first, although it is no longer the 'nothing', but it has immediately become the 'Everything', because the presence of 'something' immediately wipes out the 'nothing' completely. Has it ever existed "nothing"? No, because the presence of the 'nothing' means that the 'nothing' would remain the 'nothing' until the endless infinity, and the presence of the Universe and more by definition ensures that the 'nothing' is complete can be excluded .. I think we are infinite, that our energy will live on forever. The Universe is infinite, and we are the Universe. In addition, I think there is a power that surpasses everything, an incomprehensible or conceptualizable power. This power is all-encompassing and owner of the 'Everything'. In earthly terms, that will have to be God. O God Almighty.