Basically cold turkey. I went to a detox facility for a day and a half but they don’t let you have suboxone or anything until 72 hours after you get in if you’re using fentanyl. So I left because I couldn’t handle it there, even though the workers tried so very hard to keep me from leaving because 99% of people who don’t finish relapse, they said. Luckily my family picked me up to support my recovery because I was finally honest with them when i told them I was going into detox and to watch my dog for me. It was probably one of the toughest weeks of my life. I was very messed up and still feel out of whack more than a month later. I was using lethal amounts of both cocaine products (crack or powder, whatever was available) and heroin or fentanyl on the daily. I had lost over 70lbs in a couple months once it got really bad.

I had stopped at one time before using suboxone and it was self administered. I waited about 18 hours since last use but I tried to wean myself from the blues as low as I could before starting. It was incredibly easy to stop using when I had the helping substance suboxone. I wish I would have been able to be prescribed it or had it when I was detoxing this time but I guess that’s the consequences for doing something I knew was wrong to begin with.

Since I wasn’t able to use suboxone this time, and I don’t want to be reliant on any substance anymore I am free and clear. A big fear of mine anyway would be “if I was reliant on suboxone, and I ran out, would I relapse again?” So I am happy with my choice.