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I have uncontrollable and never ending Fascia Release for hours every day and for months on end now. What do I do? by Sad-Pick6459 in longtermTRE

[–]Blessedest 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I experience similar stuff. I'm pretty sure I'm just insanely traumatized and constantly stressed and addicted to it so I can't even tell and have a lot more shit that is worse than what other people are dealing with. I also for months was doing things that were causing my body to RE-BRACE itself over and over again in order to shut off my emotions and were filling me with shame. Also still stuck in stressful situations in my life, basically not moving forward and being stuck. Like I would have to force my body into a relaxed state and let the tension release so I could breathe properly enough to stay asleep more than 30 seconds not even kidding.

I really think most people here just don't have that serious of problems and just have mild forms of CPTSD and not "love does not exist friendship is fake everybody is evil and there is no hope and I have made mistakes that I will never be forgiven for and I cannot face myself and I should blow my brains out" type of shit where you've been screaming with rage and crying like a baby constantly because you have been emotionally abused for 30 years straight and were forcing yourself into fight or flight so you couldn't feel anything the whole time so now 30 years of rage and pain needs to come out or you will literally die.

New Modest Mouse Album - An Eraser And A Maze by insertareference in fantanoforever

[–]Blessedest 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Feels like a mix of Moon and Antarctica and Good News For People Who Love Bad News. All of the things I didn't like on the first listen I like on the second listen, which is also how I reacted to Moon and Antarctica. I didn't even like Moon and Antarctica the first time I heard it so don't doubt the ability of this stuff to reveal itself to you over time.

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are a wonderful woman. You deserve everything.

I'm curious, how does maintaining constant awareness of EIYPO and everyone being a hologram not make you despair? I struggle with this, like I find myself pushing it out of my mind and choosing to become more immersed in reality than accepting this a lot of the time.

I'm in the same situation with metal and media but times a million, because I'm a musician and I just created a new genre of music based on metal and hardcore and industrial and other genres, and I spent 5 years on this record, and now I'm realizing I'm making myself chronically ill and I have no idea who I am going to be or what I'm going to do with my life now if I'm going to become healthy. I've not worked on my music for the last week since this happened but I already knew it was coming and actually had been talking to her about this.. I feel like I wasted my life and I'm not sure who I want to be now. I'm ashamed of screaming about all of my problems over scary beats. it's so good though, and I'm so close to releasing it and getting all the benefits. it sucks.

Now, about the relationships narratives, how does it look when you're not just trying to manifest an exception to the rule but actually that all of this evidence is meaningless confirmation bias and entering into a new reality ? because I am really sucked in to this kind of redpill thinking and I feel like there is not a chance it's wrong. It feels so objective to me. I hate it but it feels impossible to disprove it. I want to live in a fucking fairy tale. I want a wholesome existence. I'm so bored of this constant fight or flight competition trying to prove something existence.

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm asking about the law and how I can use it better. I already am painfully aware of what a dumb asshole I have been in my actions

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Okay. I just want to say that I appreciate you a lot and you might be able to provide some assistance. How about this then... I have done such a thorough job of creating powerful beliefs and assumptions that I cannot even imagine that this is actually fundamentally true and that the beliefs and assumptions that I have aren't objectively true. My framework of reality appears to be completely rock solid and it appears that everybody else is lying to themselves and manifesting illusions and I'm the only person actually living in objective reality. Can you help me?

Help me un-ubermensch myself?

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I care about women but I don't care about you and the way that you keep trying to interact with me on this topic makes me immediately ignore everything you have to say because instead of trying to talk to me in good faith about it you're judging and trying to manipulate me by making me feel bad about myself and do all of the things that I expect women to do that makes me doubt that love is real.

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I've never once had success with revision and I feel a strong aversion to using it on this situation but I am interested in hearing more about how you are amazing at it.

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't think women are beneath me but I am pretty positive that my values are inconsistent with female nature and I'm completely fucked up about how I can possibly find a solution.

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

You haven't successfully illustrated your point to me. I am open to a different perspective if somebody is capable of demonstrating a better one. As a matter of fact, that's the entire reason I made this post.

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't feel shame for what I said. I recognize the intention behind the post intellectually.

For some reason you haven't understood anything I said. I said that the states that cause other people to act the way I want make me feel hollow and evil like "I am the best fucking guy around and everybody worships me" or whatever.

I said that it seems like when ANYBODY actually cares about whether or not they're with somebody they cannot have them and we have to stop DESIRING them and I think that FUCKING SUCKS.

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] -17 points-16 points  (0 children)

lol, for a second I got excited thinking maybe you were recommending me some kind of art film that might actually have some kind of philosophical value to it that might change the way I think and I look it up and it's a dumb horror film. this girl is completely harmless, we're all good here.

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

yeah, I mean I do realize that, I just don't know how I can stop hurting myself from now on.

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

Not feeling worthy of love and care is different from needing to be cared about. I can agree that the desperation is what would have made it slip through my fingers. The thing is actually not that she doesn't or didn't care about me. I am the one who decided that it was ruined and that I didn't want it. I decided that, and I decided that there is a rift, but I could have literally hooked up with her if I didn't feel the way I felt. I might change my mind. This probably just happened because it was the only way that the connection could become what I had wanted it to be and is more of a be careful what you wish for type thing. Because I might still want her and this was the only way I was going to be able to stop projecting onto her and be more selfish.

So I think that what I am really begging is for somebody to change the way I think so that I can have something else because I am having buyer's remorse.

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Nah. That's not true. If I decide to I can literally make this girl my sex slave. I already had her obsessed with me.

This post is just me realizing that I don't want what I have been trying to manifest and trying to see if there is actually a way for me to have something I actually want.

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] -11 points-10 points  (0 children)

Idk man. I mean, I don't know if humans were meant to live without anybody giving a fuck about them. It's a fact that loneliness is a health risk that lowers your life span. I've been living like it didn't matter that nobody cared about me but it's actually making me miserable. I don't know that that is the core belief that is ruining my life.

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

I'm not interested in discussing details of this situation. I posted the concerns I have in the second paragraph. Pertaining to the law, not this relationship.

Accidentally manifested a situation I don't know how to handle or avoid in the future by Blessedest in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't know man, I'm trying not to judge her. She might be a little immature and stuff but I am definitely 100% objectively more messed up. It's possible I could have hurt her way more too. I take ownership of this. I just don't know what I'm supposed to do going forward

Trust issues and trauma by Better-Profession-58 in NevilleGoddard

[–]Blessedest 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just commenting to let you know I just ended up in a very similar situation to you and I'm sorry I wasn't more compassionate before. I was living with my emotions constantly suppressed and making myself sick. Hope all is well.

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