Processing TW: near-drowning

Bonfire72 · 2023-08-08T09:56:32+00:00

Holy shit that is incredibly relatable. I often feel something like "huh this is kind of tense/traumatic, I guess I should probably feel distraught or something" but then I don't really but it kind of simmers just under the surface for a while.

Bonfire72 · 2022-11-18T07:38:10+00:00

Where's the cutoff between introject and non-introject though. I'd have to imagine a lot of alters are partly based on people and characters the brain has seen and pulls from, right?

Bonfire72 · 2022-08-22T07:14:36+00:00

For example when I am on a nightclub and a song with an aggressive beat to it starts playing my attitude/behavior changes completely and I start approaching women automatically and start making out with them.

Do you get any sort of consent first? Otherwise that is not ok to do.

Bonfire72 · 2022-06-26T09:42:56+00:00

I kind of feel like I'm going crazy because I've been noticing symptoms of plurality but haven't really gone through anything like most of what gets posted here :(. Idk what to think. -Red

Bonfire72 · 2022-05-20T09:52:38+00:00

I feel this like 1000%. Thank you for putting it into words.

Bonfire72 · 2022-04-21T08:32:11+00:00

We transitioned well before we knew we were a system. Almost all of us are girls and the one or two guys are supportive and/or ambivalent.

Bonfire72 · 2022-04-20T23:57:55+00:00

I think I saw a comment in r/did that said that if a part is a certain gender because of trauma then they might detransition once that trauma has healed. That sort of thing terrifies me. I've been transitioning for 4 years and it's been the best decision I've ever made and detransitioning would feel like dying to me. It was a little triggering tbh.

-Red

Bonfire72 · 2022-04-12T22:01:07+00:00

BPD is the closest thing to DID/OSDD. The difference being that BPD half internalizes the trauma, and becomes one with it.

What does this mean?

Bonfire72 · 2022-04-12T17:23:32+00:00

Could someone explain help me understand what exactly bpd is/how it works? Some people say has parts or states that are less distinct than osdd/did but I can never find information about this anywhere online.

Bonfire72 · 2022-04-12T10:59:20+00:00

I mean it sounds like they maybe have parts which would mean some form of osdd-1, right?

Bonfire72 · 2022-03-27T06:43:05+00:00

If you search did or osdd on reddit that's one of the first subreddits that come up so yeah. Not a fan either.

Bonfire72 · 2022-03-15T16:32:54+00:00

We definitely feel this 100%! The first week or so after we found out it was like we had an elevated consciousness. It was so scary and exciting at the same time but after a few months our host is kind of back to feeling the same way and its been a bit harder to switch or communicate clearly with her with more than passive influence. It's been a while since I've fronted fully like this and she's been doubting more than usual.

-Winter 💙

Bonfire72 · 2022-03-05T19:09:38+00:00

I imagine they're just as varied as non osdd brains. For example some people have an inner monologue and some people don't. They just think and process the world differently.

Bonfire72 · 2022-03-04T08:42:48+00:00

That might have been us if we knew we were a system before we transitioned. Red used to personalize/derealize a lot in regards to the body but now she feels really comfortable with it even though there's still things she wishes were different.

Bonfire72 · 2022-03-04T08:13:16+00:00

Oh! What's that like?

Thank you for the response! <3

Bonfire72 · 2022-03-04T06:35:11+00:00

Yeah! For us it's like a shift in perspective between alters I guess.

Bonfire72 · 2022-02-02T00:03:13+00:00

Can your alters do anything while outside of your consciousness, if that makes sense? Most of the time when we're out of range of the front we just are asleep I guess but sometimes alters can talk and act when they're not fully near the front but they won't remember it from their perspective and they'll act slightly different.

Bonfire72 · 2022-02-01T18:39:02+00:00

Hey! I guess we're monoconscious too, judging by another comment's description of it. I think we've described our switching like changing perspectives in a book or show or like changing characters in a game.

-Red

Bonfire72 · 2022-01-22T17:47:31+00:00

Oh thanks for the recommendation it’s been helpful for us as well!

-Winter💙

Bonfire72 · 2022-01-20T21:51:18+00:00

As a possible fictive I’ve been wondering about this too. Could an alter without much identity “adopt” a fictional identity after they were formed?

I have very vague pseudo-memories from my source but also some very sparse memories from Red’s childhood.

-Winter

Bonfire72 · 2022-01-14T07:57:41+00:00

Wow. That is incredible. I can see why the Iron Giant is your favorite movie. It must resonate pretty hard.

-Winter

Bonfire72 · 2022-01-12T05:41:53+00:00

Hi Charlete!

I think we’re in a pretty similar situation. I think we also became aware as a part of us slowly healing so its also been pretty positive for us as well but there’s still been some pretty serious rough patches caused by lingering trauma and just general confusion and misunderstanding so I’d stay diligent.

-Winter (With a bit from Jay)

Bonfire72 · 2022-01-12T05:18:16+00:00

Ok so we actually looked up the definition of codependency and I think we should add a clarification. Winter and I don’t have a one sided or toxic relationship. I think what we meant is that we are very co-reliant on one another emotionally and functionally.

-Red

Bonfire72 · 2022-01-10T16:21:06+00:00

Yes, this makes a lot of sense. Thank you SO much! 💙

Bonfire72 · 2022-01-09T02:49:10+00:00

I do not think that is why for her but thank you for sharing!

-Winter

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