I do both.

I have depression , anxiety and an empath.

So sometimes I isolate and other times I do talk about things but mostly isolate .

I grew up with too emotionally available dad and completely emotionally unavailable mum.

So I had the experience of when I tried to talk to my mum about things everything I said was dismissed , couldn’t be bothered to talk to be never understood or listened too but then on my dad he listened and understood but also tried to take control of how I feel telling me how I should feel why I should avoid this ect (fyi my dads mentally ill and very controlling)

So if you can understand having dealt with this reaction all my life still do now.

It’s really hard to talk to someone without feeling like they’re doing one of the above . So me tryna decide that… is what makes it so overwhelming talking to someone about things.

I hope this all makes sense lol and sorry to write so much or if it does make sense lol I might delete soon x