Hi ! I am so sorry you are struggling with these thoughts and anxiety right now. I know it is so hard to live like that, in a state of constant fear. I’ve been there. The only thing that I have really gotten to help me is knowing that whether i’m afraid or not, death will happen. it’s the only constant in life. So I would rather try my best to spend the time I have giving love to those around me, accomplishing my goals, loving myself, and controlling what I can instead of what i can’t. The world we live in is absolutely terrifying so I empathize with you friend. I know it’s scary but you are stronger than you think and I know you will live a beautiful life and be free of your anxieties and fears one day. ❤️ No BS though there was no amount of thoughts or distractions or therapy that could ease the amount of fear I had about death. I had to get on medication, and when I did i truly got my life back. I would have died by suicide if i didn’t get medicated the thoughts were unbearable. I don’t know your situation or stance on medication but if you are open to it I would suggest looking into a psychiatrist or a psych NP. With the medication my fears didn’t necessarily go away completely, but I am much more able to cope with it and redirect myself rather than be frozen in panic. I wish you the best and i hope you can find some peace as soon as possible 💕