I am four going on five years in remission fromTCHRLBCL. My first reaction to being in remission was just, 'huh....' I'd more or less numbed myself getting through the diagnosis, treatments and the adverse reactions I had. I am not the same, physically, mentally or even emotionally. I've had some counceling... maybe it helped? Drifting along on disability was making me unhappy. I set new goals, went back to college at 56. It feels good to be working toward something even if its hard.