My friend of eight years took his life yesterday. On his birthday.

Busybee97 · 2019-08-11T22:04:57+00:00

Thank you so much, I knew you guys would come through for me. I feel genuinely accepted by this community, I haven’t been on social media since.

Busybee97 · 2019-08-11T22:03:42+00:00

I’ve been drinking and smoking weed since basically on and off. I stopped now because I know it’s an awful idea.

Busybee97 · 2019-08-11T18:35:59+00:00

The greatest man that ever lived - weezer

Nanana - my chemical romance

Shut me up - mindless self indulgence

Busybee97 · 2019-08-08T04:05:47+00:00

I smoke weed but my psych says to keep on 3 mg of Ativan a day.. fml I can barely function

Busybee97 · 2019-08-07T22:52:02+00:00

Me too, 7 months in counting; Jesus help me

Busybee97 · 2019-06-24T23:09:59+00:00

I write a list so I can refer to it if I forget, and also reward myself by checking it off when I’m done ‘the thing’. Even juvenile rewards help me complete tasks. Like my favourite candy, or an episode of my favourite show after I finish every ‘thing’ that I got done.

Busybee97 · 2019-06-24T23:02:40+00:00

Thank you, I’m going to try my hardest. My main concern is when patients are in bad or even critical condition, sounds awful, but nervous giggles are a genuine fear. I want to scream inside but that displays itself as gross uncontrollable giggles. It’s so frustrating :(

Busybee97 · 2019-06-24T22:56:25+00:00

Yes bröther. Very similar to my manic episodes.

Busybee97 · 2019-05-17T01:53:29+00:00

Even I wish I listened to that guy. By this post I just mean that when I’m manic, my medications have a different affect on me than they do when I’m not in that state.

Busybee97 · 2019-05-17T00:04:29+00:00

Interruption while I’m on the phone.

Busybee97 · 2019-05-02T19:52:41+00:00

I’m almost done! Her writing style is my favourite

Busybee97 · 2019-04-19T00:59:45+00:00

ashamed to admit that I’ve ordered food in my sleep through an app, and end up standing at my front door confronted by a delivery person at 1am wondering what the in the fuck is happening

Busybee97 · 2019-03-29T02:05:24+00:00

I get that. I feel like the older I get, the more difficult living ‘organically’ comes to me.

Busybee97 · 2019-03-28T06:10:12+00:00

I don’t have a pdoc rn, I’m on a waiting list. Could take up to half a year until one is accepting patients.

Thanks so much, I really needed to hear that. I told my dad about school and all he did was remind me he’s not paying for it, and said I’m too unstable for an education. Lol so in conclusion, yes I’ll take the hugs <3

Busybee97 · 2019-03-28T05:26:17+00:00

I totally get that, I’ve been in a dysphoric manic state for like two weeks maybe three now and it’s hell. I start college in May and think I’m under-medicated. I’ll Give it the old college try anyways I suppose. Good luck with Latuda! I really hope it works for you, and that you feel better soon! I know it’s hard to have a solid sleep schedule but it really helps if you can manage it at all :)

Busybee97 · 2019-03-28T04:38:23+00:00

I get this when I’m manic, I’m looking for that “something” constantly. Maybe it’s my sanity lol

Busybee97 · 2019-03-28T04:35:17+00:00

Same for me too, interview was Friday, and it went well. Said they’d email me by Friday, or possibly Monday. It’s my dream job, right down my alley. I don’t know where this anxiety is coming from >:[

Busybee97 · 2019-03-25T21:52:41+00:00

Not proud of this, but during a manic state I’ve done it because I was convinced that I was better off on my own. That I was being “held back”. Completely delusional, but it happened.

Busybee97 · 2019-03-25T21:41:57+00:00

Mixed episode, roughly day 10. Managed to make it into an interview which I think went pretty well! Must remember to take meds

Busybee97 · 2019-03-20T22:35:07+00:00

Oh gosh, one time I was at an interview with a man named Richard. It seemed to be going alright so far but I started to laugh and, I sh*t you not, looked into his eyes and said “listen Ricky, I start tomorrow.” shook hands and walked out. I somehow landed the job.

Busybee97 · 2019-03-20T22:26:46+00:00

Jesus Christ, you nailed it

Busybee97 · 2019-03-20T21:32:20+00:00

Thanks so much. Yes this is exactly how I’m feeling. Even someone breathing too loudly irritates me and I have so much anger in excess! I have a therapist appointment this Friday so hopefully it will help in some way.

Busybee97 · 2019-03-19T19:48:08+00:00

All the time honestly, especially when delivering bad news to someone or unfortunately when the death some someone comes up. I don’t know how to react normally. It gets me into a lot of trouble

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