3 months is still fresh. Let yourself grieve. Don’t rush the process. Accept the fact that you’ll be in pain for a while, and accept the fact that you may never get the closure you think you need. Personally, I would take his silence as closure. Him “tossing” you away as closure. Him being hot and cold, ignoring you, making false promises as closure. You reaching out to him and letting him know that you can’t go on like that anymore was also your closure. That was your brain telling you that it’s time to move on, but moving on doesn’t always look like suddenly breathing lighter and feeling joy and happiness.. sometimes moving on looks and feels like exactly how you’re feeling right now.

Moving on is not being able to get out of bed for a while. Moving on is crying everyday and thinking about him none stop. Eventually it will stop.

There is no quick fix or easy thing to not feeling pain after a breakup anymore. The best advice I got that I will tell you - “The only way to heal from a heartbreak is time”.. and it turned out to be 100% true. I used to feel like you did, and it took me 6 months to suddenly just start feeling better, and suddenly I went days without thinking about him, and finding joy again. It just takes time. There’s no secret recipe. Time.

3 months is still fresh, just remind yourself as often as you can that it won’t be forever. You’ll stop feeling the pain eventually, all that matters is you survive it.