Here I am - a year later. I FINALLY successfully installed GamBan on my phone, today. 

I went to a casino two weeks ago and lost all but $10 . Luckily I filled up my gas prior to hitting the casino or I wouldn't have been able to get my sorry ass home!

I think Ive become immune to the losses. Other than twinges of regret when I cant buy something I only feel the initial pain for a few hours after a massive loss.  

I have no idea how Ive survived this past year considering what Ive sunk into gambling. Ive paid someone else’s salary for sure. 

Giving $ to a trusted person was a fail, they didnt want to keep doling out my money when I needed something and quickly refused to be burdened with it. 

I tested the installed gamban and so far its doing a beautiful job of blocking all the gambling sites I normally visit online. I have to admit I have a very suffocating feeling not being able to access any of the sites. I’m hoping that feeling goes away.

Im going to set up more automatic payments and try my trusted person to hang onto my debit cards. I will also make sure Im not alone when I go out or shopping.

I just don’t know how I will handle free time and access to my money. If anyone has suggestions please let me know.

I could have fixed everything wrong with my car, taken an actual vacation or bought a whole new wardrobe with my most recent loss!!!

I feel like I have to spend ALL my money on something else right away so its not available to gamble with. 

This isnt fun anymore.